I read somewhere about…

being loud is an act to hide one’s weakness…

Today I had my own share of other people’s loudness… And it’s very irritating… very… Some people they just don’t think before saying what they want to say… They don’t look around to make sure that their loudness is not harmful… I’m not saying that I’m aware all the time… I honestly admit that sometimes, I am loud… And I hate that fact…

Loudness prohibit deeper, inner thinking… When you say something without thinking… You might start to hurt other people, unintentionally… And that’s what I’m feeling right now… I’m hurt… hehe…

Shakespeare once wrote… I can’t really remember the stanza exactly but… This is as far as I can recall… That’s is his type of girl…

She that was ever fair and never proud,
Had tongue all the time but never loud…

Just distinguish the difference between being a silent fool and a wise man who speak only when needed… Anyway it’s easy to be wise… Just sit down, think of a stupid thing to be said and just don’t say it…

It may not make much sense to any of you… But as long as it does to me… It’s OK… Hehe

It’s 3.52a.m. …

but I’m still wide awake… It’s cold here and my feet are numb… Usually, by this time I’ll wake up from sleep to do things…

Hmm… Actually I have no intention to continue with this at all… Hehe… I’m just to worn out to continue…

Good morning Meor, have a good sleep…

Today in…

Math class I noticed that the world has gone upside down…

A very enthusiastic teacher is said to be fussy and ‘leceh’ because he/she puts too much importance on a not really needed subject… While another teacher is deemed as ‘cool’ and sporting for giving free blocks in every single period lesson…

A very good and experienced teacher who tries to teach both Statistics and Mechanics to his/her students is said to be wasting time… Honestly, I do think that it’s a waste… But looking at the bright side, I see that we can learn both first and then decide… Besides, the class is moving at an incredible speed… More over, we’ve finished Mechanics one semester earlier… I guess, knowledge is never not useful… As we learn not because of exams… instead, because of we ourselves want to learn…

Today, some people are ashamed to do good…

Even worse, some people are proud to do bad…

Hmm… Time doesn’t permit me to continue… If memory serves, I’ll continue further on this…

I Want to Share Something…

that I realized tonight… Or last night to be more precise (as it’s 1.04 a.m. now)… hehe… The importance of being down to earth…

Just now, I had a shooting with a friend of mine, Muadz (I can’t resist from posting his name here)… In his short speech, I thought that he’s going to say something like working hard or some study tips… Instead, he astonished me by saying that the most important thing in the life as a scholar is to be down to earth… Then he went on by saying that we shouldn’t be proud, as everything, regardless whether it’s good or bad, came from god… There are always reasons behind any success and there are also reasons for a fall…

Something that I want to add here… Being humble doesn’t mean that you have to strip yourself of any sense of self-worth… Being humble means having enough self-esteem (Self esteem is not pride)… Because without it, you simply can’t operate to help others…

And one more thing, pretending to be humble and actually being humble are two very different things…

“It’s hard to be humble,” says an old country song (I can’t recall)… “when you’re perfect in every way.” Very few people, of course, actually think they’re perfect in every way, but it can still be pretty hard to be humble, especially when you live in a society that encourages competition and individuality… Even in such a culture, however, humility is an important virtue… Learning to be humble is of paramount importance in most religions… and humility can also help you develop as a person and enjoy richer relationships with others…

“In reality there is perhaps no one of our natural passions so hard to subdue as pride. Disguise it, struggle with it, beat it down, stifle it, mortify it as much as one pleases, it is still alive, and will every now and then peep out and show itself…For even if I could conceive that I had completely overcome it, I should probably be proud of my humility.” – Benjamin Franklin

Strange…

but true… This is in accordance to some people around me who have been acting quite strangely lately… I wonder why…

This was sent by my mak… I find it quite interesting… hehe… However, if you really give the calculations some thoughts, it’s quite easy actually… And it’s made even easier to be figured out by the fact that it can only work in year 2007…

• Firstly, decide how many times per week you would like to visit a restaurant for dinner… I’ll name it X
• Multiply X by 2 and then add it with 5
• Multiply the answer with 50
• If your birthday has passed, add 1757 to it… If not add 1756 instead…
• Subtract the answer with the year you’re born in…
• The final answer should be a 3 digits number…
• The first number is how many times do you want to go to the restaurant…
• And the last two numbers indicate your age…

Do pass it around before this year ends…

Eat-eat

I’m not a big eater by desire, but by ability, I think I am… hehe… These couple of weeks, I’ve been blessed with several eating-sprees, with a couple going to be held this week… So for now, let me do some reports on those I’ve experienced…

First of all, the Ecotrip Dinner held at Hilton KL… A posh and grand (as suggested by the organizing committee) place indeed… Had the chance to taste poached salmon and other various unnamed delicacies… xp… May be it’s an exaggeration to say all food here is all good because it’s not… I think the problem is not the food, it’s just me… I’m Malay and there’s no way that I’m used to Mat Salleh food… All in all it’s a good experience…

Secondly, my tutor group had a BBQ dinner… This time, my tutor introduced us with his new roast chicken recipe… Like last year, it’s far from disappointing… It’s really good… If not, my extra chicken (which I intend to keep for a friend of mine) won’t be stolen by a cat!!! Besides the chicken, we had baked potato with mozzarella cheese, Beatrice’s home made garlic bread, spaghetti, assorted snacks and other things… Compared to last year, we can’t use the swimming pool anymore… This is due to the fact that they (I don’t know who) have changed the lock… And it’s not the same as my tutor’s… Nonetheless, the water fight is still on… Hehe… And all of us ended up wet… and cold…

Before the water fight…

Sometimes…

the hardest thing and the right thing are the same…

It’s Been Long…

since I last posted in this blog… I can say that I’m a li’l busy with things… Hehe, to use the word busy here, it’s kinda overrated…

I guess I’ve mentioned in my previous post about how I have to make a video for something back in college… Basically, this thing kills me to the point that I’m feeling like a zombie (I think it’s just me, because I’m never used to be responsible of things…)… and it builds me too (you know, when things that you’re working at work the way you want it? And this is a fresh experience for me because I never had the opportunity to do something like this)…

I can say that it’s 33% done, and I’m still waiting for some shots (or is it shoots) from a friend of mine…

My motto for this project: It’s hard but it’s never impossible…

One more…

Hmm… One main reason that I love Rascal Flatts so much, apart from their genre being country, is the fact that their songs are so meaningful!!!

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Baby look here at me, have you ever seen me this way?
I’ve been fumblin’ for words through the tears and the hurt and the pain.
I’m gonna lay it all out on the line tonight,
and I think that it’s time to tell this uphill fight goodbye.

Have you ever had to love someone that just don’t feel the same?
Tryin’ to make somebody care for you, the way I do,
is like trying to catch the rain.
And if love is really forever, I’m a winner at a losing game.

I know that baby you’re tryin’ to find me somewhere inside of you,
but you know you can’t lie, girl you can’t hide the truth.
Oh no,
sometimes two hearts just cant dance to the same beat,
so I’ll pack up my things and I’ll take what remains of me.

I know that I’ll never be the man that you need or love,
yeah baby,
its killin’ me to stand here and see I’m not what you’ve been dreamin’ of,

Hmmm… Which song? Aha!!! This one sounds and means nice…

It has been quite a while since I last posted a song… So…

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You’ll Be Safe Here – Rivermaya

Nobody knows
Just why we’re here
Could it be fate
Or random circumstance
At the right place
At the right time
Two roads intertwine

And if the universe conspired
To meld our lives
To make us
Fuel and fire
Then know
Where ever you will be
So too shall I be

Chorus:

Close your eyes
Dry your tears
‘Coz when nothing seems clear
You’ll be safe here

From the sheer weight
Of your doubts and fears
Weary heart
You’ll be safe here

Remember how we laughed
Until we cried
At the most stupid things
Like we were so high
But love was all that we were on
We belong

And though the world would
Never understand
This unlikely union
And why it still stands
Someday we will be set free.
Pray and believe

Chorus:

When the light disappears
And when this world’s insincere
You’ll be safe here
When nobody hears you scream
I’ll scream with you
You’ll be safe here

Save your eyes
From your tears
When everything’s unclear
You’ll be safe here

From the sheer weight
Of your doubts and fears
Wounded heart

When the light disappears
And when this world’s insincere
You’ll be safe here

When nobody hears you scream
I’ll scream with you
You’ll be safe here

In my arms
Through the long cold night
Sleep tight
You’ll be safe here

When no one understands
I’ll believe
You’ll be safe,
You’ll be safe
You’ll be safe here
Put your heart in my hands
You’ll be safe here

Do You Consider Yourself As A Good Person?

Hmm… That’s a very powerful question… This one I got from Yahoo! Answers… Honestly, without even thinking, I do consider myself as a good person… This is without thinking, OK…

After giving a li’l bit of thought and consideration… I guess the right answer would be no… There are times when I’m so selfish and there are times when I did wrong things (such as talking behind other people’s back and lying)… And if I’ll have to list down all the bad things I’ve done, hehe, it would be very very very long and personally I don’t think any of you would be interested in reading it…

One thing that I really believe in is that there’s goodness, even if it’s just a kernel, in everyone, regardless whether that person is Hitler or Kim Jung Il… Maybe it’s kinda overblown to believe in such thing…

Let me just leave this question to you guys…

I’m not Powerless

That’s for sure… I’ll make it happen…

The World is Out to Get Me…

I woke up and it felt cold,
and I stubbed my toe,
With that I need not to be told,
I’m well aware and know…

The world is out to get me…

I got up and went to the bathroom,
I slipped and fell with a boom,
Instantly I’m in doom,
and gloom.

The world is out to get me…

My toast was burnt,
My coffee spilled,
I sipped and my mouth burnt,
Why do everything tastes like pill?

The world is out to get me…

Hmm… Exam’s Over…

Hi everyone… Today I had my last paper for this semester… Which supposedly make me feel happy… But I don’t know why I felt nothing… I’m not happy and I’m not sad… Nothing… Maybe because the weeks ahead will be very very very busy for me, with the Bakti Kenyalang drawing near… I have to prepare a 15 minutes video and everyone working with me has no experience in video editing what-so-ever… Looking in a very very positive light, I’m sure we can pull it off well… It’s hard, certainly… But it’s not impossible…

Internet Is Back!!!

Yea!!! Wahahahaha

Oh, Sorry

Sorry guys, it’s not that I don’t have anything to be posted here.. It’s just that the connection in the college is down… And I don’t know how long will be taken before they will restore the connection… It’s really depressing, living without the Internet, but maybe this is a blessing in disguise… Just like before I took Sociology Paper 1, there was no connection… And now there’s no connection too… See the correlation?… hehe…

xp… Read further and you guys will understand…

OK, so here I am in the IT lab, with super fast Internet connection… Unfortunately, I forgot to bring my thumbdrive and I have nothing to write on… So I guess I won’t be posting anything except for what I’ve written before this fullstop.

I’m Not Bored!!! No, Actually I am…

Hehehe… The title practically suggests what I’m feeling right now… Honestly… I’m not that bored… I can still maintain my sanity… I guess…

For the past two days, I’ve been surviving on:
a movie (Resident Evil Extinction),
a loaf of bread, two (yes, two) jars of Winny, a jar of Goober,
a trip to Tanjong Malim,
the Internet (Oh, thank god!) and its magnificent websites (Facebook, Blogger, Youtube, eSnips),
the games called Badminton, Basketball and Tennis,
and countless packs of Mee Sedap,
and lastly but not the least, one magical thing life can give, F.R.I.E.N.D.S…

Powerful

Powerful… Even all alone…

From Tiananmen Square, 1989…

Announcement

Dear readers (if any)… I just want to say that due to circumstances – exams and other things, I won’t be posting anything till tomorrow… Do expect my latest post on the day after tomorrow… In fact, I’d barely able to secure some time to write this…

Thank You…

Last.fm

I’ve just joined Last.fm, a social music community… It’s like friendster but is focused on music… It’s very neat, I think… It automatically records (not upload) whatever music you listen to and suggest to you, people who might have the same taste in music with you… It also automatically creates charts of what you listen to the most weekly and monthly…

It also exposes me to other kinds of music and groups such as Megadeth (Thrash Metal)… Wahahaha… Surprise, surprise, I feel like I kinda like it… The snarls… The bass guitar… The lyrics is, honestly, hardly understandable… But one thing is for sure, I can’t listen to it for a very long time, cause I’ll end up feeling sick… Nevertheless it’s good music…

The Earth Can’t Speak

The earth is the third rock from the sun, a place where we live… And our grandchildren will live here too… That’s what I believe… It’s a mere planet, it doesn’t get a vote in any congress or parliament… It doesn’t own blocks of shares in the market… It doesn’t rise up at a protest rally… It can’t… It can’t even buy a hybrid car… The earth has no voice despite the fact that it has been hurt so badly…

We’re polluting the earth as if there’s no tomorrow… When someone speaks about preserving the environment, other people would turn their back or become mad… These people who speak would be ridiculed regarded as being preachy and so on… There are also people who said that environmental problem is overrated… When the evidence is clear… Hmm… Let’s see how far we’ve come… And I hope when we’ve seen how far we’ve came, it’s not too late already…

Don’t Tell

Don’t tell me that you understand, don’t tell me that you know,

Don’t tell me that I will survive, how I will surely grow.
Don’t tell me this is just a test, that I am truly blessed,
That I am chosen for this task, apart from all the rest.

Don’t come at me with answers that can only come from me,
Don’t tell me how my grief will pass, that I will soon be free.
Don’t stand in pious judgment of the bonds I must untie,
Don’t tell me how to suffer, don’t tell me how to cry.

My life is filled with selfishness, my pain is all I see,
But I need you, I need your love, unconditionally.
Accept me in my ups and downs, I need someone to share,

Just hold my hand and let me cry, and say,
“My friend, I really do care.”

Colour

Almost everything in life has a color… Red’s for warning, fear is yellow… Death, mysterious and emptiness, black… And white’s pure… Blue means cool… Green, for me, means envy even though it actually means life and nature… Why is envy green, I don’t know… Maybe it’s because they say the grass is always greener on the other side… hehe… Maybe it’s because beige sometimes don’t work… And maybe, it’s because pink is just too gay… hehe…

Deformed Engrish hehe…

hehehe…

Cloud

I badly need my IXUS right now…

I love clouds… They seem stationary, but they actually move… I love to let the window open… Because it lets me look at the sky… They are just plain beautiful… Even though they are just steam… It’s just a good example of simplicity is beauty… Sometimes they seem so high up above… Sometimes they seem within reach…

Problem – Fight or Flight?

Everyone has problems… Big problems, small problems, personal problems, whatever… Problems are things that prevent us from achieving something that we want… Life without a problem is not life… Basically, if something that happened is different than what we actually desire, then it’s a problem…

Usually it affects us internally… However, even if rarely, it’ll show… A person having problem might try to hide his or her trouble… But somehow it shows… Even how hard you laugh, when you have a problem, it’s a different kind of laugh… And it’s more than what’s usual… Maybe to compensate for the sorrow inside…

Some may just sleep (what I always do) with the problem… Personally, even though I don’t think that’s a good way of facing a problem, I guess we need a way to step back, away from the problem… This will allow us to regain enough resolve to overcome the problem… It’s hard to wake up realizing that you’ve not found the solution to your problem… Like in John Mayer’s song… But that is ‘When you’re dreaming with a broken heart, the waking up is the hardest part’… Nah, it doesn’t matter…

Some may find other forms of escapism… Watching movies or sweat it out… Some may simply cry…

Unfortunately, these will never solve any problem at all… The only way is to face it… Sometimes we worry too much without actually thinking about the solution… Sometimes we just run away from it without knowing that they will one day come again…

Honestly, I’ve been running away for too many times… And I’m tired of it…