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#$ O Ren Ji

In me on July 21, 2008 at 1:21 am

My old man always said this:

We should speak only after our words have managed to pass through four gates… At the first gate we should ask ourselves, “are these words true?” At the second gate we ask, “are they necessary?” At the third gate we ask, “are they beneficial?” And at the fourth gate we ask, “Are they kind?” If the answer to any of these is no, then what we are about to say should be left unsaid…

But…

Well, as far as this post is concerned, I can only pass through the first door… All in this post are indeed, true… And they’re not kind nor mean… They are of minute necessity… And they are far from being beneficial…

But as M for Mucim is my blog… Who cares? Furthermore I doubt  that anyone would ever get what I’m trying to say here…

Lately… Found it hard to erect all five pillars… Everyday, at least one pillar will be missing… Sigh… Can’t seem to get up from the devil’s chain…

Yeah… It’s been decided… It’s going to be orange… The lady in charge put up a huge resistance but I came through…

Got something for the 10 fingers and their bodies… The old duo have done a very good job at damaging my feet… They made moi feet stink too… Hehe…

Ate the McD seasonal chicken Big Mac… So expensive, but as it’s on the lady in charge, it’s my pleasure… Hehe…

Went to see Fatt even though his shop is already closed… I’m an old client after all…

Twisted? Sorry… It’s intentional…

## – Of Code Geass & Of Magic

In me, thoughts on July 20, 2008 at 3:27 am

Hmm… Have been experiencing disappointment with Streamyx Narrowband…

K, of Code Geass…

Am currently enjoying Code Geass… Just finished season 1… Which I personally prefer over the first season of Gundam 00…

Gundam die-hards… Say what you want… For me, Code Geass is waaaay better than Gundam 00… Hehe… But nothing beats Gundam SEED though…

And things just couldn’t get better… It’s second round, Code Geass R2 is just as awesome, if not awesomer… But the anime is still on air… Can only watch up till Episode 14, for now… Hmm…

K, enough promotion for Code Geass… Now it’s of magic…

I was reading Doraemon : Penjelajahan Ke Alam Magik (If memory serves)… Haha… Been a while since I last touched a comic book (Overlooking manga, though)… Well, obviously it’s about Nobita and friends journeyed into a magical world… And got into trouble and stuffs… I know the storyline is good and all but those are not what I intended to write here…

When I was little, I used to think that magic exist… I don’t know that even now, even with all my scientific knowledge, whether I can simply dismiss its existence… Because if you can’t proof its existence, it doesn’t mean that it’s not there… But one thing is for sure… My belief in magic is pretty much restricted to things like Nasi Kangkang, Santau, Pukau and all that is bad… So for me, magic somewhat evil, so much different that the magic that I used to believe as a li’l boy…

Magic that I used to believe? Is that we can simply wave our hands and all chores are done… That I can effortlessly do my homework just with an effortless flicker of the wand… That I can use the flying carpet or broom and travel around the world… Haha… Imagination… There’s just no restriction nor borders to it… And imagination of a li’l man? It’s even more borderless…

To look back at history… Why do human invent the word ‘magic’ if it doesn’t exist? Why? Let’s leave the question there… It’s like asking who’s John Galt? (Haha, influence of Atlas Shrugged… You got to read it to understand this… Haven’t finished reading, though… But certainly am reading it…) And even for now, they invent more scientific names for it… Like psychic, telekinesis, hypnosis, premonition and dozens of others…

It might seem ridiculous if I say that magic gives birth to science… But that’s the only way that I can see it and relate them together… Mankind (Well, some of them…) have been trying to understand the world… This yearning gave birth to astrology… Which men studied the starts to make prophecies dealing with farming, disease or whatever… Astrology then paved the way for astronomy…

The same goes with alchemy… Which attempts were made by men to convert other elements to gold or other metals… These attempts ended in vain but it showed the way for chemistry, metallurgy and even physics…

In this world of scientific knowledge… Anything that has no physical attributes, can’t be touched, can’t be scrutinized by experiments is regarded as nonexistent… We seek explanation from every phenomenon and those which are unexplainable are labeled as unscientific and should be discarded from the scientific luggage…

Honestly, even though I’m perfectly aware that a magical world is far fetched, deep in my heart, I wish that such world exist… That currently, with our scientific knowledge, we are yet to discover it… And as it stands now, honestly, I am a li’l frustrated that with growing up, came the awareness that such world doesn’t exist… And the awareness strengthens day by day…

Zam Zam Alakazam!!!

#@

In lagha on July 19, 2008 at 7:12 pm

I listen to all kinds of music… As long as it’s good music…

Even to this kind (Eurodance)… Hehe… This is just audio, not video…

It’s by Basshunter, entitled I Can Walk On Water, I Can Fly… Other notable production of his are Boten Anna and DotA (Yeah… As in Defense of the Ancient)…

Haha… The only good thing I get from having a shuffler brother…

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In me, plagiarized, thoughts on July 18, 2008 at 12:05 am

Some parts of this post is plagiarized from an e-mail… But I edited some portions of the content so I can relate to it…

There is a story of a woman who sold fish all her life and knew little else… One spring she was invited to the king’s palace for a royal festival… When she was shown to her room, she found it filled with colorful flowers and sweet incense… She was repulsed… “How disgusting!”, she complained; “please let me go back to sleep near my pile of fish.” She chose the foulness of her fish, solely out of familiarity…

Me (or is it I?), too, sometimes cling to my hurts, my grudges, my illnesses, my sorrows, and my angers as if they offered me comfort or serenity… In truth, all they offer is the solace of familiarity and the surety of a self-image that I can hold onto in the face of the insincerity of a changing world… I sometimes chose to accept the meager rewards of sympathy, agreement, self-righteousness and attention, which are not really rewards, but actually snares or traps… And ultimately the clear price paid is that of inner tranquility, joy, and freedom…

The tragedy of life is that we do not believe that we have a choice, when we can actually choose…

. . . .

In Undefined on July 17, 2008 at 11:50 pm

Well, I am retarded in a way… Xp

Password : My favorite song… A meaningful one… Itu pon kalau tau la… Well, certain peole sure tau la… Semue dalam huruf kecik… dan ade space bar…

The test of courage comes when we are in minority… You never really lose until you quit trying…

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Side or Sides?

In me, thoughts on July 16, 2008 at 7:56 pm

Last night, something… Or rather, someone, made me think… And I think hard…

And honestly, I’m very bad at thinking… I live my life and made decisions on impulses… Really… I rarely think… Because like last night, it made me to become confused…

Firstly… I know, we all should listen to both sides of the story… Both sides have sound arguments… Both have their own stories… Regardless of the fact that one side is rhetorical while the other seemed to be populist… I know that… We should listen to both sides of the story anyway… And today, we don’t really have to look for them… We’re practically bombarded by both sides…

But in the end… Even if both opposite points of view are expressed in an equal intensity, the truth doesn’t necessarily will be lying in between… It’s possible… But I guess, there’s higher probability for one side to be wrong… In the end, we will still have to choose a side…

But…

Do we really need to take only and only one side?

Can I just sit in the middle?

I know, it’s kinda idealistic and to a certain extent, self-gratifying and selfish… And one might contemplate that this is just another attempt to keep one’s as* safe… I’ve seen such ideals (Sitting in the middle) in anime… Like in Gundam SEED… Kira and Archangel stand in the middle of conflicting sides and try to prevent the war to spread… I know, not a very a good example… But for me, it’s a good idea nonetheless…

I mean… Why should I pick any side at all? It’s not like any of these sides are clean anyway… It’s not the kind of world where it’s as simple as black or white… Good and evil… There are grey smudges between the black and white…

And furthermore… If you choose black… You won’t get white… Choose white, and you’ll miss black… Choose grey and you won’t get both…

Then, should I choose all?

One side will only stop destroying the other until the other side is completely eradicated… I don’t know whether this is true or not… Haha… I’m so confused right now…

Please, can someone say something?

Please?

Just Sharing…

In me, plagiarized on July 16, 2008 at 7:55 pm

I got this e-mail from emak…

I’m no economist… Econs pun amek AS je… hehe…

I know, it’s not like recession will affect me at all… Well, not directly at least (But it may actually affect my sponsorship to study abroad… Hehe…)… I don’t have shares in the stock market… I also don’t have any money in trust funds… And I’m not going to need any loan in the near future… And I don’t have an income at all… But it’s good to know that…

The e-mail is like this…

Recession is coming… Make your own judgment, don’t panic! Do what is wise…

The recession looks very eminent. It is really time to take pro active steps to avoid a painful time in the next two years which is how long the recession is expected to last.

Suggestions:

  • Don’t take any loans, buy homes, properties with loans, or even cash. Keep as much cash as possible.
  • Pay off as much of personal loans, private loans, as debt collection will be hastened.
  • Sell any stocks you can even at lower prices.
  • Take money off from Trust Funds.
  • Don’t believe in huge sales forecast from customers, be extremely prudent, lowest inventories, reduce liabilities.
  • Don’t invest in new capital.
  • If you are selling homes/ properties/ cars , do it now, when you can get good prices, they are going to fall.
  • Don’t invest in new business proposals.
  • Cancel holiday plans using credit cards.
  • Don’t change jobs, as companies will retrench based on ‘last in first out’.

Stay cool, wait, and if you took all of the above actions and more, you probably will be better off then many.
This is not a rumor. Bear Stearns is the first of many banking and financial institutions that will start falling in the not too far future. If Bear Stearns can fall, so can JP Morgan, Citibank, HSBC, and the whole world.

If US economy falls, the rest will crumble. India and all those self economies will be the most protected, but not gullible. Europe may be a little stronger, but not China, another giant! Malaysia, sadly, will see a significant impact.

But we can’t simply trust everything in the internet right? So I decided to google it… I found this… From NovaBankingHall.com…

Notice that counter arguments are written in blue… Again, I’m no economist… But I do think that the people in Nova Banking Hall make much sense…

1. Don’t take any loans, buy homes, properties with loans, or even cash. Keep as much cash as possible.

Take loan, but only those which has fixed and low interest. Example is installment plan that cost u around 5% per annum. You need to take loan so that you have more cash if recession really comes

2. Pay off as much of personal loans, private loans, as debt collection will be hastened.

This guy doesn’t know what he is saying about. First point says keep cash, second point says pay off all ur loan. Rule of thumb, just pay what ever u need to pay, during crisis cash is king not profit. Don’t be so silly to give away ur cash now. If u really want to do it, cash is still cash value, u can repay anything. No need to do it now… duh….

3. Sell any stocks you can even at lower prices.
OMG, this guy is same with the 80% investors group. Sell low (now) buy high?

4. Take money off from Trust Funds.
~!)(*&^&*%^ I am sure this guy don’t know a thing about unit trust. Have he ever heard of low risk fund before? What about fixed income fund? Or funds which are defensive against market down turn such as consumer goods or precious metal? OMG!

5. Don’t believe in huge sales forecast from customers, be extremely prudent, lowest inventories, reduce liabilities.

)&%$%^^&*( what the hack is this? On second attempt to understand, I guess he is referring to the business owner to reduce the investory buffer and reduce liabilities.

6. Don’t invest in new capital.
This is more prudent, but again look at the potential. Don’t simply shun all opportunities.

7. If you are selling homes/ properties/ cars , do it now, when you can get good prices, they are going to fall.
Ok… i’m kinda agree with this… since the price still high now. Just additional comment on property, if your property is meant for income purpose ( to collect rental only ) and not capital appreciation. Then you shouldn’t sell that property.

8. Don’t invest in new business proposals.
Have u ever heard anything call business cycle? Every business can work differently during different market cycle.

9. Cancel holiday plans using credit cards.

#$^&*()_*&^

10. Don’t change jobs, as companies will retrench based on ‘last in first out’.

If i am boss, i’ll make the decision based on the staff competency. If you have a lousy staff, wouldn’t you want to remove it and keep just the next and proactive/aggressive staff? Probably this guy don’t really know what happened during the pass recession. Normally there is a great tendency to retrench the senior management staff rather than the junior staff. This is because senior management staff are highly paid which will effect the cash flow/income of the company during recession.
Be thrifty!!!

Osama Is Alive!!!

In hehe on July 16, 2008 at 7:15 pm

After numerous rounds of ‘We  don’t even know if Osama is still alive’, Osama himself decided to send George Bush a letter in his own handwriting to let him know he was still in the game.

Bush opened the letter and it contained a single line of coded message:

370H-SSV-0773H

Bush was baffled, so he e-mailed it to Condoleezza Rice. Condi and her aides had not a clue either, so they sent it to the FBI.

No one could solve it at the FBI so it went to the CIA, and then to MI6. Eventually they asked the Mossad for help.

Within a minute the Mossad emailed the White House with this reply: ‘Tell the President he’s holding the message upside down.’

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The Day Before Today…

In me on July 16, 2008 at 5:51 pm

Was really tiring…

Went to JPJ in Pertama Kompleks to do some errands… Hehe… My second visit this month… Just have one thing to say… Kind people makes me believe in this world… Call me sentimental or whatever… These people made my experience there a nice one…

Finished the mission of the day… Decided to have a walk around KL as it was still 9 in the morning…

Walked through the road passing the Odeon, an old cinema nearby… I don’t know how, I somehow arrived at Jalan Sultan Ismail… There I saw a pedestrian signboard stating ‘Ain Arabia’… Curious, I decided to follow the lead…

I walked and walked and walked… I never arrived at Ain Arabia… I’ve never been there… So I don’t know how it looks like… I’m not sure whether I’ve missed it or there’s still a long way to go… Instead, I arrived at Pavilion KL… Again, curiosity got me… I went in…

Canteknye…

Instantly I felt kinda out of the place… I was wearing kinda decently… Well, actually, not decent enough even to be at par with the janitors… No, I’m not degrading them… They were wearing this nice shirts and shiny leather shoes… While I was wearing fading green t-shirt and a pair of slippers… Nah, I don’t give a d*m*…

Pavilion is just like Suria… Full of designer shops and concept stores… Except there are more compared to Suria… Definitely a better place to do window shopping… Didn’t have anything to do, so I decided to watch a movie… It’s GSC, so I’m on for good caramel pop corn (Waaaay better than TGV’s)… Hehe…

Hmm… Then I walked some more… And after a few times failing to get to Low Yat, today I got my chance to be there… Surveyed the shop where I used to look for ‘fake’ DVDs, hehe… But they are not selling such item anymore… It’s been converted to some kind of computer hardware store… Bought a 2GB thumb drive for RM20… Hmm… Kalo dulu, RM80 kot… Betol la, zaman dah berubah…

Then walked some more… Heading to Times Square… Didn’t do much there… But laughed a lot (In my heart of course)… Hehe… I noticed people dressing themselves in a very unconventional way… Well, good for them that they felt good of themselves… And good for me too, as I had a very good laugh… Isn’t that a win win situation? Hehe…

At 3, I went straight to Hang Tuah LRT Station… Remembered that I’ve not prayed… Frantically looked for a masjed… Alhamdulillah, I found one nearby… While praying (tak khusyuk betol kamu ni, Meor), I was wondering…

Nanti kat tempat orang (Kalau fly la…) macam mane la kan? Kalo kat sini, mane2 pon ade masjed… tak pon surau… Nak semayang senang… Kat sane nanti kene semayang merate-rate… Hmm… Cabaran… Am I ready? Ngahaha… Honestly, I can’t answer that… Not yet…

It’s true, kan? Mase semayang la yang kite nak terfikerkan hal-hal dunia… Masalah negara… Teringat itu teringat ini…

Got into the LRT… Stopped at Jamek, walked to Sogo and get on the Komuter… I was on my way home…

Wahaha… Ayah, I guess I got carried away last night…

Debate

In me, thoughts on July 16, 2008 at 12:56 am

It was fun… It was historic…

Winner?

I guess the debate itself is the winner… Hehe…

If your head is wax… Please, don’t walk in the sun… xp…

Haha…

In hehe on July 15, 2008 at 7:08 pm

Creative way of saying things…

Television

The early 21st century drug of choice… A shared illusion, making its addicts think they have friends, a life, access to good information, and the critical thinking skills to form valid opinions… Fatal in large doses…

Chevrolegs

The kind of vehicle you own when you can’t afford a car…

Parentnoia

Parentnoia is the irrational fear parents have that their children are doing something wrong, or being hurt in some way…

Tetris it
When you have a lot of stuff to fit in a little space like packing a suitcase or filling a trunk of a car with bags…
skeptic – “I don’t think we can fit the body, the chainsaw, the money bags, and the beer cooler in this little trunk.”
doer – “we’ll just have to tetris it”

Thesaurused
To use the thesaurus for every second word in order to make yourself sound smarter or to take up space and make an essay longer…
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Fakebook
Adding friends to facebook who you don’t particularly like, socialize with or think you are friends with.

I’m so gonna…

In hehe, me, thoughts on July 15, 2008 at 6:46 pm

get a Taser!!!

Watched the Future Weapons on Discovery Channel just now… This episode is about non-lethal weapons available out there… From flash-bang to tasers to non-lethal electrocuting bullet… I liked this episode because it means that less people (even though they are bad) will die from gun shots…

I never recalled the last time I rolled on the floor and laughed my a*s off (Sorry for the vulgarity…) when I watch documentary on weapons and killing people… Most of the time I’ll usually whine in front of the TV because, being a pacifist I am, hehe… I can’t stand people who are proud building things that kill people… I also take such programs as just another mind game by western superpowers to show us their superiority… But I want to know about weapons so I have to endure watching it…

Why did I laughed?

Haha… You’ve got to see it yourself… The face of the test subject who volunteered themselves to be tasered… They showed pure pain… And they fell just seconds after being tasered… Once they got tasered, they it’s not just painful, their muscles also became cramped… Resulting in an expression of raw pain… hehe…

Call me a sadist… Hehe… I just want to have a good laugh… Nothing more… Like those below…

See? I told you… It’s funny… And these people seems to be having fun too…

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Change

In hehe, me, politics, thoughts, you on July 15, 2008 at 7:37 am

I was made to believe that change is not good… They were very convincing back then… I was made to believe that their cause is just and shouldn’t be questioned… Man, they got me…

Wait… Wait a sec…

Change is good… When it’s really needed… And I believe, now is the time it’s needed most… Well, even if it’s not now, it should be near… If and only if the situation gets better…

And obeying them without questioning? That’s blind faith… If no one questions, we better all be like sheep… Docile and stupid… Insignificant entity behind an ID number (The ID they burn on sheep’s ear)…

If they are good, no one will question…

Kalau tak kentut takkanlah berbau?

I know that farts can sometime be odorless… Hehe… But if it’s already smelly… For sure someone farted…

Question and assess if you love the mother… And don’t be childish… Questioning is begging for an answer, not a cry for attention…

And one more thing, Meor, you shouldn’t side with any sides… All are corrupted, vile and obtuse… Haha…

Pueh hati teman mengutok…

In this matter, they say we shouldn’t be emotional… What the heck? You, me, we are all human… How are we suppose to be like robots?

WW?

In Undefined on July 15, 2008 at 7:15 am

You

Gave him,
The courage to be colorful,
The wisdom to let things go,
The patience to wait and see…

Just

Want to be,
Someone’s sweet dreams,
Somebody’s bright light,
Someone’s music and rhythm…

But

Sometimes he,
Felt sad,
Felt left,
Felt lonely…

Never mind

It’s OK,
It’s really really OK…

Like

He said before,
“I’ll come to you”

6.35a.m., BTN, July 11th

Haha… This is surreal!!!

How?

In Poem, hehe, me, thoughts on July 15, 2008 at 1:28 am

Oh, How Do You Do That?

No need for strain,
And without much pain,
Your smile feels,
Your smile fills…

Hehe…

Inches (well, not that I measured… xp) away,
You made me sway, and
Brightens my day,
That’s always grey…

It’s not this,
This is not that,
It’s more than this,
It’s more than just that…

Sometimes I wonder,
When I dream and I ponder,
How can I melt? And
How do you do that?

11.45 p.m., BTN, July 8th 08

Actually, I couldn’t believe that I posted this… Hehe… Never mind…

The journey of life is never meant to be a guilt trip…

Flavour of Life

In lagha, me, music, thoughts, video, you on July 14, 2008 at 3:40 pm

Honestly, I admire all those people who are always so sure of themselves… People who are so sure that they like blue and hate purple… People who their favorite flavor (I know it should be favourite flavour) is always chocolate and never something else… People who only drink coffee and never milk…

At times, people asked me, “what’s your favorite color?” I don’t know… Sometimes I like blue… At other times, green seemed dear to me… But when buying clothes, they would mostly be red… Not that it matters much, but sometimes assurance gives security… And security leads to comfort…

Today I venture on an experiment of some sort… I put yellow mustard (my favorite… But I’m still not sure though…), mayo, chili sauce and black pepper sauce on the plate… To each of them I dipped cocktail sausages… Well, I loved them all… But chili sauce is too common and I got bored with it… Black pepper, hmm… It’s spicy, of course… But it’s missing something…

Through my experiment, I found out that all, chili sauce, black pepper sauce, mayo and mustard can be eaten alone…

But what if I mix them together? I found out that chili sauce works well with mayo and mustard… While black pepper sauce works well with mustard… Mustards and mayo although tastes great on their own, work well with all…

But for me, the ultimate mixture is black pepper sauce with some yellow mustard and mayo… Spiciness and sweetness from the black pepper sauce, added with some bitterness and sourness of yellow mustard produced great effects when complemented with the thick and creamy mayo… Hehe… But I don’t think this is healthy… They surely taste good, but who knows about the side effects?

Like in life, it surely tastes sweet, bitter, sour and salty(?!)… Blend them all together… It makes life more meaningful… More worth fighting for… Hehe…

It’s bittersweet…

Lastly, enjoy this song by Utada Hikaru, entitled Flavor of Life… This song was featured in the second season of Hana Yori Dango (haven’t watched it, but going to…)… The lyrics… Hmm… No comment… xp… But great song nonetheless…

Whenever you tell me thank you
It’s somehow bittersweet
The spell doesn’t break after you say goodbye
Faintly bitter
The flavor of life

We’re in the middle, neither friends nor lovers
Green fruit dreaming of the harvest

We can’t take that one last step
So it’s so irritating or something, baby

Sweet words of seduction
Flavorless talk
That doesn’t pique my interest

Even when things don’t go your way
Life’s not a total wash

“What’s up?” you suddenly ask
No, it’s nothing
My smile disappears after you say goodbye
It’s not like me

The more I want to believe
It’s somehow bittersweet
Don’t you think “I really like you”
Suits you better than “I love you”?
The flavor of life

I suddenly remember
The scent of a person I’d almost forgotten
I want to be able to just sit back and enjoy
The white snow fall

I want a warm future
Softer than a diamond
I want to spend this limited time we have with you

July 13th

In me, real time, thoughts on July 14, 2008 at 1:42 pm

What’s up with July 13th?

Hmm… Nothing much happened…

At 3a.m. something occurred… Both of my parents had to rush to the clinic, because my brother was not well… Ultimately, the plan to go jogging this morning failed to be realized… Everyone was tired and everyone preferred the comfort of the bed…

Today, we(the whole family) made a chocolate cake… One good thing that I noticed from the Indon maid running away from our house is that we started to do things together… It’s not like we did things together all the time, but at least there’s something… However, Emak is still mad being the only person who feels the responsibility to keep the house clean and tidy… Hehe… We all miss you Kak Fitri (She’s not the maid who ran away)…

I can’t say bake as we didn’t bake it… I can’t say cook because we never cooked it… Can I say boil? No, it doesn’t sounds right… It’s a steam cake, so should I say we steamed a chocolate cake? Hmm… I’m confused…

Nak kasi senang kabo… Kami kukuih(kukus) kek tu…

I’m sure you guys can picture it right? One thing is sure though… The cake tastes fabulous!!! It’s moist and it melts in your mouth like a chocolate bar… Hehe… The time taken for it to be finished by the hungry mob led by my brother speaks of the fabulousness of the cake… xp

After that we brought my sister back to her school…

Then went home… Watched TV for the first time since BTN (As my li’l sis and bro are at home instead of at school, the TV is rarely not on Disney channel or Ceria)…

I really think that it’s going to be OK…

I Met The Walrus

In me, thoughts, video on July 14, 2008 at 12:20 am

Buang yang keroh ambel yang jerneh…

Most of the things said here are still, sadly, relevant… But just bear in mind, even if something is true, it doesn’t necessarily mean that it’s the right thing…

This short movie has also been nominated for Oscar 2008…

July 12th

In me, real time, thoughts, you on July 13, 2008 at 11:34 pm

Woke up early this morning (July 12th, not 13th)… Maybe because my biological clock is in tune with BTN… Am so glad, because I didn’t miss the Subuh prayer…

Emak asked me to go downstairs and buy some nasi lemak from the stall on the ground floor… I refused… Hehe… Not because I’m lazy or I’m being rebellious, I’m just craving for a good RA nasi lemak… After 5 minutes or so, I managed to convince emak to drive me to Kg. Baru…

Hmm… It’s very relaxing, really, KL in the morning… Weekends only, of course… There was no car… Nor bus… Nor motorcyclist… Just me, emak and our car (and of course, a few others)… The complete opposite of what we have to face about 30 minutes later (well that actually caught us by surprise)… I went to buy some roti canai before ordering my nasi lemak bungkus… First surprise of the day…

*Drum roll*… xp…

Nowadays it’s RM1 for a piece of roti canai… Really?!… Yeah, really… I’m not bluffing… However, I’m actually quite glad because RA haven’t increased their price…

Then we head to Segambut to do ’stuffs’… But quickly got caught in a traffic jam… Well, it’s not the kind of traffic jam that you can’t move at all… But compared to 30 minutes earlier… It at the least surprised me… So second surprise of the day…

After breakfast… Hmm… Went to watch Gundam SEED for the xth time (x is definitely not 1, nor 2, nor 3, nor 4, nor 5)…

In the afternoon, went to see the optometrist, in Rawang (I don’t know why must Rawang… But dad insisted so I can’t refuse)… The actual intention is to check my eyes and replace one of my broken lenses… So apparently my left eye has a power increase of 50 (I’m not telling what’s the actual power… hehe…)… So we decided to just make new glasses…

Also learned about ‘lazy eye’… Hehe… Rings a bell, Wan?

Lazy eye or Amblyopia… A condition when the vision from an eye is actively blocked or ignored by the brain… This may be due to the vision created by the defective eye is blurry or the power of the eye is higher than the other… As my left eye has a higher power in comparison to the right one, I’m on the right track to have a lazy eye… Hehe… More over, the fact that I rarely wear my glasses, made me even more susceptible to this condition…

At night, played Red Alert 2… I know it’s a very old game… But you’ve got to settle with what you’ve got… It feels good, killing Soviet conscripts using Tanya and a couple of snipers… Then unsuccessfully watched V for Vendetta… Slept in front of the laptop…

The plan tomorrow was to go jogging at Taman Tasik Perdana… We’ll see what happened…

It’s OK… I’ve said this so many times before… I’ll come to you…

It’s Not as Easy as EZ

In crap, me, nothin, self pity, thoughts, you on July 12, 2008 at 11:02 am

Another post on self pity… So if you know that you won’t like it… Don’t read…

I’ve been drawn by fate and my own incompetence to do some unimaginably wrong doings… Or at least, brought into situations I’ve never imagined I’d be in… But I survived… Thank god for that… And even more, these events made me stronger… Made me more resolved… Now, I can safely say that I no longer take refuge in my comfort zone… And I can safely say that I’m now dancing along the perimeter of the zone… However, I don’t think that I’m ready to go beyond the zone… I’m still learning… I still have so much to learn… And I need to learn fast…

I’ve been always brought to think wrongly about something… I’ve been ‘perasan’ for so long… I’ve been trapped in such fake bliss for a very long time… I’ve been caught in indecisiveness for quite a long time… But thank god, that He showed me things and events that brought me back to reality… So that I can at least, fully accept myself… For what I really and merely am…

Along my life, I’ve let precious things go… People… Things… Ideas… Chances… Dreams… It’s not easy, but sadly, I rarely fought back… I rarely asked anyone to go slow so they’ll never leave me… I never redeem… However, I’ve no regrets… Losing them made me appreciate things more… Up to the point of being obsessive of things… So if anyone felt annoyed with me… Sorry…

Entoh le… Ape nak jadi dengan kite ni kan?

Really… It’s not easy…

Don’t

In Rhythm, me, thoughts, you on July 12, 2008 at 10:01 am

Being a pessimist I am (Hehe… I’ve a huge confidence problem… I’m not pessimistic of life… Nor am I pessimistic of people… I’m just pessimistic of myself…) I’ve come to the realization that one shouldn’t expect much of anything… And my experience for the last five days strengthens such realization…

Rightfully, no one is under any obligation to grieve for anything… But when they expect too much… Grieve comes… And even if it’s rightful to grieve, we chose to grieve for what we don’t have, instead of choosing to celebrate what we already have…

And I also learned that there are always more in this world than what I can see… Than what I can merely touch… Than what I can possibly imagine…

And lastly, as I won’t expect too much from you…

Don’t expect too much of me…

BTN – Summary

In crap, me, real time, you on July 12, 2008 at 9:03 am

1st day

Hmm… Best jugak la… Sampai-sampai dah ade budak Petronas… Pastu jumpe kawan lame, Naim… Dapat kawan2 baru jugak, kebanyakannye student yang nak pergi Jordan… Lepas tu penceramah untuk malam tu memang best… Kelaka… Dan taklah serius sangat…

2nd day

Waktu ni agak tak selesa sebab terpakse kuar dari komfet zon (awal-awal je la)… Kena masuk kumpulan LDK… Masuk kumpulan 5, bersama-sama Pua, Amirah, Athirah, Aishah(So, 5 from KY), Shaffique (INTEC US), Rejam(INTEC US), Faiq(ITEC Jordan), Faiz(KTJ UK), Azah, Zulaikha, Aida, Farah, Faizah, Aimi… Wahaha, ingat juge saye name2 diorang ni…

Ceramah hari ni, bosan… Memang percubaan nak institutionalize saye dan rakan-rakan… Sempatlah saye tulis poem sebarang due… Sampai mase nanti saye post, k? Sebab kalau post sekarang… Hmm… Takpe lah…

Pastu hari ni buat abseiling… Sejak pegi PKN yang saye x penah berjaye buat dengan betul… Lutut asyik kena dinding dan sakit sangat… Tapi kali ni takde kena lutut… Abang kat bawah tu pun kate, “cantek”… Huhu… Bukan nak berlagak, k?

First LDK… Hmm… Takpe la, biar orang yang pergi je tau… Hehe…

3rd day

Hari ni hari fizikal… Pagi kena lari 2km… Hehe… Saye tak lepas mase yang ditetapkan… Petang tu ade macam fitness test… Umur saye kalau nak ikutkan tahap kecerdasan, ialah 40-45 tahun… ngahahaha…

Hmm, got to do something about that…

Pastu dekat LDK, memang hangat la isu-isu yang dibincangkan… Tapi saye kagum dengan budak kumpulan saye… Diorang dengar je bile sorang tu nak cakap… Pastu takde la nak bangkang ke… Nak kate die ni salah ke… Nak kate orang laen salah ke… Jadi saye pon jadi tak ragu-ragu nak bagi pendapat saye yang tak seberapa ni…

4th day

Pagi tu tengok video… Sebenarnye tiap2 pagi tengok video… Walaupon dah tengok banyak kali sebelum ni… Tapi video ni buat saye rase sayang sangat kat Malaysia…

Pastu LDK…

Petang tu ade kembara… Ade banyak periuk api… Pastu masuk paya… Yang ade… Ade… Hmm, takpe la… Yang bestnye, kontijen KY seramai 4 orang (Wan, saye, Firdaus, Afiq) telah sampai paling awal ke kem… Sian jugak rasenye bile tinggalkan orang laen kat belakang… Tapi respect la dekat Pua, ade satu ditch yang dalam gile, die lepak situ dari awal dan selamatkan sume orang… Hehe…

Malam tu ade nyanyi-nyanyi… Ade belajar pasal kepentingan memberi… Dan kagum dengan beberapa orang pejuang… hehe… Diorang ni, saye rase, kalau ade ape2 yg berlaku kat negara… Harapkan pade diorang la…

5th day

Ade ujian, ade naik bas, ade skip solat jumaat, ade pegi sogo, ade makan kat McD, ade nak naik komuter tapi naek teksi..

I’ve come to know so much about you, and one thing that I know about you is what I know about you is not as much as  what I don’t know…

Penat bebeno… Sakit bebeno… Ghase nok patoh je kaki dengan lengan teman ni… Jiwe pon menjadi tak berape stabil…

School of Life

In me, thoughts, video on July 6, 2008 at 5:13 pm

This may be my last post, as I’m going to BTN tomorrow…

Wow… This short film is very good… It gives me the creep… And the ending is just… Awesome!!! I can’t help to watch it over and over again… All the symbolisms in this motion picture… Ahh… They fit rather perfectly…

Have you ever wondered about the mysteries of life?

Everyone was looking at their papers, trying to get the answers to life… They were all doing it singularly, not sharing and discussing their findings with other people… Some people, like the boy, are left out… They feel completely lost… When we’re lost, we become the boy and rather than thinking our own answers we run to higher authorities such as teachers and presidents and anybody, to tell us what to do and how things work… But they don’t necessarily have the answers to life we want either… Most of the time, other people seemed like they know the answer, but in truth, they actually don’t…

But is it really that hard to find the answer? Maybe the answers are actually just in front of us… Something that we already know but never aware of…

Confessions

In me, self pity, thoughts on July 6, 2008 at 3:39 pm

OK… I have two confessions to make… As a part of the cycle is acceptance, I hope, with accepting this facts, I’d be content… Not happy… Just content…

Firstly, I had a bad haircut, just now… Not that I care of other people’s perception… It’s just too short and makes me look funny (well, after a haircut, who doesn’t?)… No more hair waving when blown by the wind… No more morning hair… But looking at the bright side… xp… It will be longer before my next visit to the barber… I can also save some money too later… And more over, it’s not like the hair is gone and lost forever… It will eventually grow to its original length…

Stop whining, will you?

Secondly, what this post is actually intended for… I don’t want to be a doctor… I’ve voiced about this before… But I want to say it again…

Really, it’s not about the working hours… It’s also not about blood or organs… It’s never about the pay… It’s not about the six years of medical school… Not about the two years of internship… And definitely not because of leaving Malaysia…

I just don’t want to be a doctor… At least not the kind of doctor who works in those big hospitals… Not some of the doctors I’ve seen for my whole life…

Honestly, if any of the doctors have ever influenced me in my medical pursuit… They only make me hate being a doctor… Hehe…

And if I ever remembered… The first time that I’ve ever think about being a doctor was when I was filling in the form to get a shot for MARA interview… And more over, when filling it in, apparently, I didn’t state that I took Kimia(a core subject for medics)… I wasn’t even called for the interview, then… Luckily emak called MARA and clarify them about the discrepancies… Hehe… I could say that  I’m being so reckless with my life… I was this close to losing the chance of being sponsored…

Why then did God let me embark on this journey? Coincidence? Nah…

Sungguh, teman idok menyese(menyesal)…

Actually…

In hehe, me on July 6, 2008 at 12:56 am
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Images – Jalan-jalan Around KL

In malaysia, me, photo on July 6, 2008 at 12:55 am
Can anyone spot the barber and his customer?

Can anyone spot the barber and his customer?

Central Market Series – Voice of Rakyat

First let me clarify here… This post has never been intended to show my political stance… I just post what I saw… That’s all…

Whatever…

CM I

Central Market (CM) I

CM II
CM II
CM III

CM III

CM IV

CM IV

The Downfall (2004) & The Counterfeiters (2007)

In me, movie, plagiarized, review, thoughts on July 4, 2008 at 9:14 pm

First of all, some portions of this review are plagiarized directly from IMDb, as an article there is already parallel with my views…

Der Untergang makes you live the craziness of war… And how it affected people and made them do the unthinkable… It tells the story from the German side… Something that we rarely find in movies… It’s original… Not exclusively about war(not so many war scenes)… It’s more than that…

The acting is top class… Especially the Hitler… Bruno Ganz’s interpretation of Adolf Hitler is worthy of an Oscar… He is completely believable… Also the rest of the cast delivered admirably…

A very clear insight and impression on how the military decisions were taken during those final days of the war… It’s like history played itself for my watch… And it’s also brave for the Germans to make a film about their own history…

Balanced and thorough… Between large-scale effects of bombs exploding in ruined streets and depictions of different persons going though the experience – from Hitler and his staff in the well-protected bunkers to the principal military commanders torn between reason and loyalty and German civilians trapped in an inferno…

Factual and unbiased… The movie is neither pro-Nazi nor does it depict all Nazis as mindless monsters… It gives an impression of utter realism… The strongest of the movie’s strength…

Download it if you want to watch it… Not in the cinema anymore… Hehe…

9/10… My top WW2 movie…

About the dilemma of to survive or not to survive…

Is it worth to survive when you’re actually doing something that breaks a principal?

Or is it worth fighting for a cause that may cost one’s own life?

It’s trying to be different but for me it’s still another holocaust movie… Good story, but not a good movie…

If you are in to know about the holocaust… You better go and watch Schindler’s List… Some people say that this movie(The Counterfeiters) is one of the best holocaust movies, but I beg to differ to such assertions… As for me, Schindler’s List is the best of holocaust movie…

If you are in for the insights on moral dilemma… This could be the right one for you… But bear in mind… Moral dilemma is a dilemma… And a dilemma will and forever be a dilemma… Because neither choices are wrong… And neither choices are without their supporters…

6.5/10… I want to like it… But I can’t… I want to hate it… But I can’t too…

Speed

In Poem, Rhythm, me, plagiarized, thoughts on July 4, 2008 at 10:52 am

No offense… Really… xp…

One thing that I noticed during my walk around KL is I walked fast… I myself don’t know why… Is it because I don’t wanna miss the bus? Is it because I don’t want to waste my time? Or is it because I’m so used to walking fast? I don’t know… Walking fast results in more perspiration… And sorer legs… But I get to my destination faster…

But is it destination that matters? Or is it the journey?

Looking at the computer these days, we’re putting faster and faster processors into them… Faster planes and trains are better… Faster service, faster food, faster everything… Everything is done quickly… But yet, our lives move at a frantic pace while keeping up with the speed standard… And most get high blood pressure as their blood is simply trying to keep up too…

Pentium For Duel Kor ke? Kuad Kor ke? Teman pon udoh penin(pening)…

In the race to the finishing line, speed rules, but quality gets blurred and lost… I believe that speed is just overrated… Faster isn’t necessarily better… Hehe… I know, sometimes, faster can mean better… But again, not necessarily…

Persevere – By Anonymous

The fisher who draws in his net too soon,
Won’t have any fish to sell;
The child who shuts up his book too soon,
Won’t learn any lessons well.

If you would have your learning stay,
Be patient — don’t learn too fast;
The man who travels a mile each day,
May get round the world at last.

Speed is the silent killer of ‘enjoying the journey’…

At Last…

In me on July 4, 2008 at 10:33 am

Finally a chance to stay at home… A chance to slow down… This week has been very tiring… Serves me right… Hehe…

Just finished watching ‘My Name Is Earl’ season 1 finale… Earl was fun… The only bad thing you get after watching Earl is that you have nothing else more fun to do afterwards… It’s something that I looked forward to everyday… I have no favorite chapter, because every chapter is one… The theme of Earl is quite simple… Do good things and good things will happen to you… Do bad things it’ll come back to haunt you…

Simply said, what goes around comes around…

Goodbye Manchester!!!

In crap, me, thoughts on July 3, 2008 at 11:27 pm

I have to reject the offer… Can’t get the green light from the sponsor…

It’s the place where I actually wanted and dreamed to be, but hey, look at the bigger picture… It could be a blessing… Who knows?

No regrets…

Hancock

In me, movie, review, thoughts on July 3, 2008 at 7:43 pm

Today I and Wan (or is it Wan and me?) watched Will Smith’s latest production, Hancock… It was A.W.E.S.O.m.e… Notice the small M and E? It’s because the last 25 minutes is kinda a let down… Not that I hated it… It just felt weird to change from laughing out loud to being dramatic… Hehe…

It brings a new outlook on superheroes you know… The character is a total a**hole and truly conflicted… Not the all-macho kind of hero… And apparently a drunk and a loner…

Looking at the reviews in IMDb, Hancock didn’t receive very good comments… Most of the reviews bashed it to bits… Just because the last 25 minutes is disappointing… It’s so unfair… Because the movie as a whole is F.U.N…. One think I learned about reviewers is they behave like a herd… Or more respectfully, an angry mob… When the consensus is established, that’s it… No one wants to be different… No one wants to say “I disagree”… Come on… A 6.4/10? That’s bull… That’s injustice… I wish that Hancock will come from the sky and bash those reviewers to bits… Hehe…

Everybody loves to hate… One quote that came out at the start of the movie… Somehow fits nicely with the critics, isn’t it?

I don’t care what other people say… I liked it… So much…

I don’t care about the shaky camera or what not… I liked it…

I liked it because it’s U… Yes, it’s for tontonan umum

I liked the soundtrack… No matter what you say…

I liked Will Smith and Charlize Theron and Jason Bateman… They delivered…

I liked the twist near the end of the movie… Never expected it… Not even a clue… Not even in the trailer… And I’m pleased with it…

I liked Hancock… It’s fresh, original, funny and at the same time heartfelt… It’s balanced… And more over he ain’t joining the Justice League… Hehe…

There are so many quotable scenes… So many funny moments… Very nice special effects… I’d give a solid 8.5/10…

Good job… Haha…

Random

In crap, me, thoughts on July 3, 2008 at 7:08 am

Firstly, sorry for the skepticism…

What some people I met along my life had said to me is somehow very flattering… Day after day, I realized that they are just saying things without meaning to say it… Just like the icing on top of a cake… Tastes pleasant… Looks nice… But is actually fake and empty…

What they say is not what they really want to say… What they say is simply what you want to hear… Who knows?

Talking about this blog… Everything I said in this blog may be true…

But they can also be lies… I may also, lied about lying… Saying that I lied about lying is maybe a lie too, after all… But who knows?

No one knows, so I guess we just have to simply trust…

Liar… It takes one to know one… xp…

What I Saw, What I Noticed, What I Learned

In me, thoughts on July 3, 2008 at 4:42 am

K, I went out to KL yet again… Damn!!! I’m getting restless at home, so I need to go out to channel all the energy safely…

I can’t write in a diary style as I just walked around the Petaling Street area without any real destination… It would be a pain if I have to write all the details here… Ampang Park > Dataran Merdeka > Pasar Seni > Petaling Street > Pasar Seni

S&M Plaza, Petaling Street – It’s very existence was initially so insignificant to me… I thought it’s just another shopping mall… Well, you know… Electrical appliances on one floor, male apparel on one floor, women’s on the the other and a supermarket on the lower ground floor… I thought it’s just like that… But I’m wrong… Up to the second floor, S&M is indeed your average, innocent shopping mall… But the real deal is on the third floor… Here they sell drugs… Ngahaha, just kidding… Here they sell comic books… Regardless whether it’s in chinese or malay… Also, there are ‘unauthe***c’ DVD… xp… But I say no to piracy…

Oh, really? For real?

DVD of games, movies, series and anime… Something I thought had disappeared from the face of KL… Even in Sungei Wang Plaza, I can’t find this… Not anymore(until the last time I checked)… I didn’t buy anything but the thoughts of having the knowledge that these things are sold there made me somewhat relieved… Why? Because, hehe… I haven’t played game for a while, not because I’ve lost the desire… It’s just because I haven’t got the chance to buy a new one… And more over, I’m aware that I can download all the series from torrent but it’s a very painful process…

Agro Bank – Well, not that it concerns me… Bank Pertanian is now Agro Bank!!!

Malaysian and honesty – Hehe… This one, for me, is so funny… I was walking and then I saw this huge banner saying “Kedai Barang Kemas Tiruan”… I mean, why did the shop make such confession? If I were the customer, I can ask about it myself… And having the huge banner, I won’t go into the shop, just to be labeled a cheapskate… Hehe… Not for me… But good thing though… It shows there’s still a kernel of honesty in the grain of ‘Malaysian’s Psyche’…

Bus Stop – They are hard to find… If you don’t know where to find it… Hehe… It took me 30 minutes to find the bus stop… It’s in a place just 5 minutes away from my original location… For my case, it’s in front of Pasar Seni LRT station…

Longkang Gombak… Oops… Sungai Gombak – How much I despised this abominable feature of KL, I am somehow attracted to it… No, I never loved the teh tarik coloured river… I just find its inhabitants rather interesting… Immigrants, the homeless, drug addicts, anglers and so many more… I was having my brunch by the river(well, it’s not the best place to have breakfast+lunch but… I can live with that…)… These people live in sewers… They wash their clothes from the water that other people used to wash theirs… Without the bridges spanning across the Sungai Gombak, they won’t have shades to shelter them from rain and the sun… When they saw me, they made taunts and shouted, just to scare me away… It’s not that I’m threatened, because I think they are the ones who should be worried… Well, they are harmless… Suddenly I’m angry, not towards them… But towards the people who made them to be that way… But I don’t know who’s to be blamed… The government? The drug dealers? Their parents? The school? Suddenly I realized that if I think to much of this… I’ll end up hating everything and everyone… Because we’re all a part of this rotting and rotten system…

Hisap gam – No… I’m not into it… I never thought that hisap gam is actually smelling the glue… I thought it’s just a generic name like syabu and ice… Ganja and what not… Kristal and what not… Heroin and what not… I thought that ‘gam’ is just one type of the pills or substances that make your system goes haywire… Not until I saw this young man smelling a can of glue… And he is so out, he even offered me to smell the glue!!! Hehe… Thanks, but no thanks…

Graffiti – In KL, I have never seen a single beautiful graffiti… Except for in Time Square (the legal ones… Not the illegal ones…)… Not till yesterday, at least… So when I was on the Pasar Seni LRT station, I got a very nice view of KL and the Sungai Gombak… Along the concrete bank of the river, I saw art… Beautiful, simple and stylo… Hehe… I will upload the pictures but not now… Not with this crappy PC…

Well, that’s all… And if all is OK, I’m going to watch Hancock tomorrow… Nak ikot?

Jauh berjalan, luas pandangan… Indeed…

1 July 08 – Then… Then… Then…

In hehe, me, real time, thoughts, you on July 2, 2008 at 2:45 am

Sorry if this post sounds annoying… And sorry if it’s too long…

Today is a lucky day… There is no doubt about that… At least for the first half of the day, I’m a lucky guy…

So I begin my day at 0645, like usual… Just in time for the solat… I then rushed to prepare for the day… By 0800 I’m already in my dad’s car, cruising to the nearest bus stop…

But then, I was so hungry, so I decided to buy some kueh from the food court nearby… Damn, everything is so pricey now… A very small cucur udang costs 40cents… No such thing as one for Rm0.40, 3 for RM1 Crazy!!!

Then I ate all the cucur udang at the bus stop… A bus came but it’s not the B(Bandar) one… It’s the U(Utama) bus… As I’m still a newb in naek bas, I decided to not to take it… I then asked the driver (of the U bus), “Will a Bandar bus pass through here?” He answered by saying that I should wait somewhere else… Another bus stop, which is quite near to the place…

Then I walked heading to the bus stop the driver has mentioned… As I was walking a Bandar bus passed me, not to the place I was heading, but rather, to the bus stop that I’ve waited at before… Oh, now I’ve been a mangsa keadaan… I missed the bus… But, thank god for that…

Why?

Let me continue… Then I took another Bandar bus to Masjid Jamek… After five minutes or so, I noticed the bus that I missed… It’s stalled by the road… Got a mechanical problem or something… And I’m glad that I’m not on board…

Then I arrived at Masjid Jamek… I took the LRT to Bandaraya and walked from Sogo to Medan Mara… Then I walked in and went to see the guard as I need a visitor pass to see Mr. Khaizan… But I was wearing round-neck t-shirt so the guard won’t let me in… The mak guard smirked at me in satisfaction… Well, in my heart, I said to her, “laugh all you want… But be prepared because whatever it is, the last laugh will be mine… ngahahaha”…

Why?

At 0745, I got a hunch that I’m gonna need a collared t-shirt… So I packed it into my bag… When the mak guard asked me to wear a collared t-shirt I have to simply change… Lucky, huh?

With a visitor pass in my hand I went upstairs… There I met Alifa and Pam, who were there much earlier… Mr. Khaizan said I’ve got to stick with Czech, considering the future of others… He also said that for BTN, bring things that you plan not to use anymore… And he said about not pushing oneself too hard, just know the limit and know when to stop…

Then I when downstairs… I noticed something very ‘neat’… There were free newspapers… Except for the fact that they were all pasted to a notice board… But who cares? I just want to read… And for free? Made me want to read even more… Hehe… Call me a cheapskate… I don’t care… xp…

Then I walked to Sogo to have my lunch… Well, it’s not really a lunch… I had a glass of fresh orange and that’s all… Then went to Masjid Jamek through Masjid India…

Then I thought my luck is running out… A thug(I think) came to me and asked me money… Hell no!!! No way I’m giving him all my money… So I gave him RM1… But he said that’s not enough… I hesitated and looked around… People noticed this happening but they just wat wat tak tau… So I dropped some coins on the ground, with the hope that this guy will fall for it… He then knelt to get the coins so I took this chance to escape… Now I think he’s a mat lalok, because he didn’t even chase after me… Fuh… I guess I’m still lucky…

What the? I’ve been conned and extorted for so many times… Do I look too nice or what? I just don’t understand this… It seemed like I have a magnet that attracts all the liars in the world…

K, let’s get on…

By 1145 I’m already on board the LRT to KLCC… And by 1220, I’m already in the most front row of Box 3… I watched Sepi…

Memang sepi… Panggong tu pon sepi… Ade lime oghang je kot…

Decided to not have lunch, as I’m still full of popcorn… So I head back to Masjid Jamek… Then I walked to Dataran Merdeka… Then I walked to Perpustakaan KL… My luck story still doen’t seem to end… I was fined RM7 for my overdue book, but I thought that’s not as much as I had really expected… Borrowed two more books, in addition to the two yesterday…

Then, at 1700, I walked to one of the buildings that you must see before you die (as a book has proclaimed)… Stesen Keretapi Kuala Lumpur… I ate Nasi Ayam there, to compensate for lunch… Then I got on board the Komuter to Stesen Segambut… What happened will be written in Bahasa Malaysia…

Masuk-masuk je… Dah bau semacam… bau peluh ade… bau perfume nak ilang ade… bau ket**k pun ade… sesak nafas aku ni, confuse nak bau yg mane satu… Dah la panas pulak tu… Naseb baek ade air-cond… idok le aku jadi seksi sangat… Mule-mule tak sesak sangat (tapi still sesak)… Pastu sampai je kat Bank Negara, dah ramai gile orang masuk… Mulelah karier aku sebagai ikan saden… Sampai dekat putra… Masya allah… Sangat-sangat ramai orang… Jadi ikan saden hancur la nampok gayenye… Rapat gile nih… Ade mamat nigger nih… Beso bebeno… naseb baek ade die… kalau tak aku dah terjatoh dah (sebab benda yg tergantung for support tu dah fully occupied)… Yang gantung tangan dekat penggantung tu pulak… Pergh… Aromanya… memang fobia aku dibuatnye… tren tu pulak terhuyung hayang je setiap mase… macam kena tiup dengan angen… macam terlanggar pothole pun ade… So ikan-ikan saden sekalian pun berlaga-lagaan… Mak ciks yang dekat sebelah aku dah mula pandang slack… Buat muke ketat… muke saden… sori la makciks… saye tak sengaje… kalau boleh pon tak hingin saye…

K, that’s all I guess… I need to get back to sleep… Because tomorrow, the plan is to accompany my mom to an X-ray specialist in Ampang Park… Nak ikot x?

Ciao…

I just want a friend… Not more… Really… And sorry if I’m being too pushy… Or not pushy enough… I don’t know…

A…lone…ly

In crap, me, self pity, you on July 2, 2008 at 1:25 am

First of all, this post is on self pity… Hehe… So if you guys want to judge, you don’t have to read this… And if you hate to read about self pity, please skip this and proceed to other posts… And more over, I’ve said this before, this problem of mind is merely emotional, rather than physical… Compared to my problem, the rest of the world are doing a lot worse… With famine, terrorism and everything plaguing the planet… So, please don’t pity me as I wrote this just to vent off this feeling… And also, I just don’t think that the thing that’s been bugging me is heavy enough to end the world… Sounds corny? Better be… xp…

Hoho… So much for an intro, eh? Well, today I went out… Well, I’m used to go out alone so I guess the lack of company is not the cause of this ‘problem’… Well, even if it is the cause, I felt a different kind of lonely today… And definitely not because I watch Sepi… Hehe… I just don’t know the source of this feeling…

There was constant lurch of the stomach…

A deep broken-hearted feeling…

An incomprehensible guilt…

A very dark and silent hatred…

A pinch of cynicism and a dash of anger…

Which can be summarized as D.E.S.P.A.I.R….

Hehe… I kept asking myself “Is it?” (Ye ke?)…

Sepi (Lonesome)

In lagha, love, me, movie, review, thoughts on July 1, 2008 at 8:07 pm

Hmm… Laghonye hari ni…

If you know me, I’m never into Malaysian movies… Not that I’m proud of it… It’s just so natural of me to prefer English movies to their local counterparts… But wait, if you think that I simply brush off Malaysian Movies, beep!!! You’re wrong… You simply don’t know me well enough… Hehe…

There are a few Malaysian movies that I dearly loved… First, because they are funny… Perfectly tuned to the mind of a layman Malaysian, I rarely failed to laugh… Secondly, they are usually ‘clean’ from the not clean… So there will be no regrets in watching them… From the old pearls like Bujang Lapuk and Nujum Pak Belalang, to 1990s movies like Sembilu, Ali Setan and Azura, to the pearls of tomorrow, like Cinta, Sepi, Buli, Mukhsin, Gubra, Sepet and Baik Punya Cilok (Sebenonye banyok lagi)…

Most of the movies listed above are serious movies, but I also liked Malaysian comedy, even though some of my friends despised them so much (Especially the ones from Professor Razak something)… This is as my family enjoyed it so much, so I can say that I grew up with this kind of movies… During weekend, in the car or in family gatherings, I will usually be forced to watch these movies… Well I can’t escape, can I?

The most notable among all is the Anak Mami series… Besides that, there are also movies like Buli and Buli Balik, portraying a serious issue (Bully) in a hilarious light… I’m not advocating these movies but I do believe that our film industry is transforming… More over, the emergence of talented directors like Afdlin and Yasmin makes things even more promising…

K, let me get back to business…

Hmm, Sepi… It’s a love story… Suitable for the lonely and compassionate me… xp… Chewah!!! So if you don’t like romantic stories, you’ll just be wasting time and money… Sepi is primarily about second chance, loneliness and redemption, and this movie didn’t have to force these themes into the audiences’ minds… There’s no getting around the inevitable conclusion that the main cast do find someone to love by movie’s end, but not everything resolves in a syrupy sweet aw shucks moment… Love is pain, and second chances don’t come cheap…

I watched Cinta with my emak and fell in love with my emak and the movie… Hehe… So when Sepi came out, I made a promise to myself that I want to watch this movie no matter what… Not what you say nor other people say… Hehe… Sepi is a movie backed by three stories… Kabir Bathia repeated the same formula that give him success in the film, Cinta… However, there’s no deja vu… At least they (Cinta and Sepi) don’t share the same feel… In Cinta, the five stories are linked more strongly while in Sepi, the three stories stand well on their own…

First thing first… I L.O.V.E. this movie with all my heart… It’s undoubtedly one of the best Malaysian movies of the year… If you have to watch a Malaysian movie, this has got to be it!!! This movie made me cry for so many time… T.T… And even when I was crying, I can still laugh… As it’s full of unintentional and dark humors… This film is bittersweet throughout… It’s kinda cheesy and somehow ‘cliche’-ridden… But a strong script, beautiful OST, amazing cinematography and the passionate acting lifted up the quality of Sepi… Really, credits to Kabir Bathia, the shots in this movie is aesthetically  top-notch… It’s almost as good as in Sepet… Perhaps, better…

The casts were amazing… But I think Afdlin is the best… Afdlin acted with the absolute quality expected of a rare talent… But it shows in the movie that he’s trying hard to hide his funny self… Hehe… This movie is a proof that Afdlin is versatile… All the adult characters are believable and passionate with their acting… Hmm… Truly amazing stuff…

However, even for me, Sepi is not without its flaws… The first story is kinda abrupt, with the two falling in love in moments… The second story is quite ridiculous because for me it’s so unethical if they continue with their marriage (Can’t tell much, don’t want to spoil the story to those who plan to watch it)… However, the third story is the best, not that I can relate to it (I can’t), but it’s because the twist at the end of the story… Never expected that to happen… Besides the storyline, the young actor (Sufi’s son) is not really up to the standard of the movie… But nonetheless, good try!!!

Huh, that’s a mouthful… Finally, just watch it, because who knows? You may like it… Watch it because you want to, not because I say it’s good…

Seeing all these miserable characters made me become even more assured that compared to human’s love, His love is ultimate… His love is forever… His love is definite…

Oh, I forgot one thing… One phrase to sum up Wanted… Style waaaaay over substance… Oops… Hehe…

Vamos Rafa!!!

In me, thoughts on July 1, 2008 at 1:59 am

It’s been a while since I last wrote something on sport… No, I’m not writing about Euro 2008… As yesterday night ended up with me sleeping in front of the TV at half time… It was a YAWN…

So, as I’ve successfully watched the match between Rafael ‘The Machine’ Nadal and Youzhny, I guess I’m going to post about the match…

I supported Rafael Nadal since he started winning the French Open from 2005 up till now… But during that time, I didn’t pay much attention to him compared to Justine Henin… But now, as Justine has decided to end her tennis career, I can now give him my full support… Hehe…

Rafael Nadal is extremely athletic, looking forward to return any ball directed to him or away from him… He’s a good retriever and the best of all, his tennis is improving over the years… He’s been the world no. 2 for as long as I can remember… I really hope that this year would be his year…

Watching this match just strengthens my belief in Rafa… Seeing him playing today, I know that he’s playing his best tennis… Despite the knee injury, he kept his focus and fortitude to boss the game from the start… The first two sets are amazing, as it was a tight affair… The last set is even more unbelievable, as Nadal brisk through with a whooping 6-0 win…

Nadal finally won the match in straight sets… The score? Can’t remember…

Fail!!!

In hehe on June 30, 2008 at 10:22 pm

Interpretation Fail

Protest Fail

Phone Phail

All credits go to failblog.org

XD…

Beach Invasion – Fail!!!

In hehe on June 30, 2008 at 10:14 pm

Hehe… This is funny…

Insensitive Sensitives

In me, thoughts on June 30, 2008 at 10:30 am

Sensitive people are easily hurt… And they are usually hurt… I mean even if they are easily hurt, if people don’t hurt them they won’t be hurt, right?

Let me establish something… More often than not, sensitive people aren’t as sensitive as what he/she expects from others…

But is the blame is on them alone? Think about this…

Is it that the world is so insensitive towards them, that they start to become insensitive towards others themselves?

Or… Maybe the blame is theirs after all…

That as they are insensitive at the first place, people become desensitize towards them? This in turn, makes them in a higher probability of getting hurt…

Hmm… i don’t know… The world is really about balance… But how do we know what’s balanced and what’s not?

Sigh…

I’m still learning…

Seruan Sudah Tiba

In announcement, me on June 30, 2008 at 1:23 am

Got an e-mail from Mr. Khaizan… I bet all of you (MARA scholars) have received the same e-mail too…

Salam semua.

Berikut adalah alamat KEM BTN yang akan dihadiri oleh awak semua pada 7hb hingga 11hb Julai 2008.

Untuk pengetahuan awak semua, perkhidmatan bas tidak disediakan. Oleh itu saya amat berharap agar awak semua dapat pergi ke kem tersebut pada tarikh di atas.

Insyallah saya pun akan ke sana pada tarikh tersebut.

Jika ada apa2 sebarang perubahan atau apa2 yang berkaitan dengan BTN ini, saya akan maklumkan kepada awak semua.

Alamat :
Kem Bina Negara Tanjung Rhu,
Biro Tatanegara,
Sg. Pelik, Sepang, Selangor

03-3141 4126/03- 3141 4970

This, however, applies to MARA scholars only… I hope that some, if not all, of you are reading this… And please pass it around, k?

Sungai Pelik… Topan, doesn’t it ring a bell?

29th June 08

In me on June 30, 2008 at 12:45 am

Today is a sorrowful day…

An old friend of mine lost his father… While the other lost his mother…

Let’s give Allahyarhams our sincerest prayers and Al-fatihah…

28th June 08

In me, thoughts, you on June 30, 2008 at 12:40 am

Today(26th June)… T’was fun…

I woke up at around 6.45 a.m…. Again, just in time for Subuh… Alhamdulillah… I slept rather late yesterday, so I thought I could settle for a quick nap, while waiting for the time to go out… I was just lying on the couch when emak asked me to follow her to Kg. Baru… Today she planned to not cook, so we’ve to get some food outside… Like usual, we bought some Nasi Lemak and Roti Canai at R.A. Nasi Lemak, which is located at Jalan Raja Abdullah, near Kg. Baru… FYI, R.A. Nasi Lemak is arguably the best Nasi Lemak I’ve ever eaten in KL… However, some people said the best is Nasi Lemak Antarabangsa… But as for me, I fell in love with R.A. Nasi Lemak at the first bite… Hehe…

By the time I finished eating, it’s already 9a.m., so quickly I prepared myself and got my emak to send to me to Masjid Jamek… Firstly, I was so confused whether to take Putra or Star in order to get to KLCC… Even as I found out that it’s Putra, I still can’t find the entrance, as the one I usually took is barricaded… After about 15 minutes of confusion, I finally got into the LRT…

Around 10a.m., with my vintage, non-digital camera, I arrived at theKLCC… At first, there were just Husna, Wan and me (And Husna’s niece… Yes, her niece!!! She’s old…)… So as we’re waiting for the rest(Pam, Alifa Aina), we decided to go to the movies… After an indecisive 15 minutes, we decided to watch Wanted, as there was an express lane for it… We don’t have much time and time is money, k?

At around 11.30 a.m. everybody was there… So we went into the Petrosains… Hehe… It’s been a while… We enjoyed ourselves till it’s 2p.m…. We did a lot there, from playing the simulator, throwing ball, sliding down the tube to jumping and skiing…For me, the mind-ball is just amazing… I never thought such thing exist… It’s the closest to being a psychic…

We rushed to Zuhr before going to watch the movie…

When I came out of the cinema… There were a lot of people… A lot!!! I, being a claustrophobic(well, somehow) felt so threatened and insecure… Hehe… I even canceled my plan to go to Low Yat, seeing the number of people swarming into KLCC… The line for buying LRT ticket seemed endless so after saying our goodbyes, I went straight to the bus stop… Drenched with sweat and stinky to high heavens, I walk through the throng of people(there are benches but they don’t want to sit… Why? Oh, I wish I know why…) and find a seat…

There I joined two Mak Ciks cussing our transportation system… I pitied those Mak Ciks as they have waited for almost an hour to get to their bus… It’s either they missed their bus or the system is not well… And I’m opting for the latter… It was fun really, talking to strangers, because I don’t have to mind my words (It’s not like I mind my words when I’m with people I know… xp)… We just voiced our opinions honestly… Ahh… It felt good to laugh with those Mak Ciks… And it’s not that hard (Wan, difficult actually… Hehe… Mind your English!!!) to join in a conversation… A simple smile and a hi… And in no time, you’re in…

As our conversation went on, deeper and getting more honest (too honest, I believe), my bus (105) arrived… So I hopped on, sat and quickly opened my book and started reading… Reading is good, but this had its consequences… I’m supposed to stop at KL Sentral, but I missed it… Sigh… So I have to stop at Mid Valley Megamall… And the time is already 7.45 p.m…. And my curfew starts after dark… Hehe, screw the curfew…

Performed my Asar, despite feeling a li’l bit uneasy… Well, considering the amount of fluid(Teh Ais, Coke, Cendol) I took for the whole day and still didn’t go to the restroom… Hehe… Hmm, I noticed there are also a lot of people in Mid Val, and there are as many people in the praying room… Alhamdulillah for that… Maybe the leaders are secular, maybe the country is secular, but thank god that the people are still pious as ever…

Then I indulge myself with more waiting… Now it’s the KTM Komuter… The time stated on the clock is 2013 but it said there that the next train arrives at 1932…

What?!

While waiting, I think about things that I saw today… About belonging, consensus and company… And I really am glad that Husna invited me to this so called activity… After about 30 minutes or so of lamenting… The train finally arrived… And I got home in one piece…

Tiket LRT – RM1.40

Tiket panggung – RM11

Tiket Petrosains – RM9.60

Cendoi – RM3.50

Berteh Jagung – RM8.00

Tiket Beh(Bas)- RM2.00

Tiket Komuter – RM1.10

Time with and the company of friendsPriceless

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Maap le, takde gambo… Tak cuci lagi… Ari ni teman tak pake kamere digital…

Wanted

In me, movie, review on June 29, 2008 at 4:00 am

Went to watch this movie with some of my friends at KLCC… It’s quite disappointing, actually… I guess it’s just because I expected too much from this movie…

I know, it looked and sounded great… With the trailer, bended projectile and everything… This movie definitely has the WOW factor… Truthfully, this movie is WOW… But nothing more… I’m not complaining though, I liked it… But I’m looking for something with more… Substance…

First half… It was awesome… well, I know a lot of the actions are ‘bull’ but those are expected… I mean, that’s the point of watching movie ain’t it? To be wowed by things we hardly see in real life… And I want to like them… The main character seemed so likable, being a loser and all… The character development was almost like ‘Fight Club’, which make this film even more lovable… Honestly, half way through, I am so excited to see the next half… Surely it will only get better…

Beep!!! Wrong!!!

The second half has a lot of potential, but I guess it’s the script(actually I don’t know any other things to be blamed) that lets this movie down… For an actress of AJ’s caliber, because of the lines are so hollow with no substance, she looked daft… Even for Morgan Freeman, he delivered but his lines… They lack ‘ummph’… And for me, it made him looked… Ordinary? All in all, the latter half is a YAWN…

Lastly, I never mind the ‘clicheness’ of this movie… Zero to hero(Too many to name a few)… Son finally kills the villain just to know it’s his father(Like in Star Wars)… Slow motion scenes(like in Die Hard)… But what I do mind is the part when the father said, “I’m your father”… Oh, come on Timur Bekmambetov(The director)… You don’t have to copy the line directly from George Lucas… The script in Star Wars is already very bad… Why must you spoof the line… Can’t you let Cross say something else? Like “I’m Something-Gibson(So they have the same family name)” or “You’re my son”…

K, maybe some of you might say that I’m a li’l bit too harsh on this movie… But I do hope you guys understand this… I’ve been looking forward to this movie since five months ago… If I’ve not been waiting and expecting too much, I’d definitely give this movie a very high credits and say that this is one of the must-watch movies of the year…

But who knows? Just watch it and you may like it…

My verdict? Well, I’d say it’s 6.5/10…

Bull****… Oops!!!

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27th June 08 – Just Crapping

In crap on June 28, 2008 at 1:36 am

Hari ni… Teman ghase, teman nak meghapu la dalam blog ni…

And the category this post falls into, explains everything…

Hmm… Today is full of surprises… And changes…

K, let me tell about the ‘change’ part… First let me establish something… I don’t like change… Even though I know that changes are good but I never really liked them… Any changes that I have to make, will be faced with a very heavy heart by me… I would say that I a have routine, love it and hate to compromise…

And the changes that I’m about to write down may be downright ridiculous for you guys… But they are changes nonetheless… And for me, they are big deal… Just bear with them, k? Truly, I’m still learning…

Today I ‘improvised’ my life a bit… First, I changed my position in the mosque when I went there for Jumaat prayer… I know it sounds ridiculous, but I think it’s hard for me to not sit at the left back corner of the mosque… Since I first move to KL, I’ve always sat there… The reason for preferring to sit at the the last row is that nobody would see my back and no one would notice me (hehe, I know… it’s just me who’s perasan)… Today, instead of sticking to my norm, I chose to hang somewhere else… It’s not bad actually, having your backs to other people’s view… It’s not like they are looking anyway… It’s not like I have to please them… Even if I have to, I can never please everyone…

Secondly I decided to grow up (It’s not like I woke up this morning and suddenly decides so)… Oh, I can’t believe that I’m posting this… Hehe… Before this I used to think that I am still a young boy… A crybaby… Well, I’m not saying that you’ll see me being all macho and gentle (as in gentleman)… I just want to think of myself as a young adult… I want to see things from bird’s eye view ( although they never actually looked at the world below while flying, as they are monocular or panoramic…)… I want to be responsible of myself… I’, tired having people worry about me when I never actually give a damn… I want to get to see the bigger picture of things that happened (or going to happen), regardless if they are pleasant or not… Because before this it’s always first person view or second person view… So it’s always too selfish or too selfless… Which is really harmful to me and other people…

Not much sense and maybe absurd? Sorry…

Surprises… Hmm…

First they were airing Chronicles of Narnia the first, tonight… What?! Tonight? And the second Narnia is already out…

Secondly I got an unexpected phone call… And it’s from a stranger… And for the first time (Exaggeration detected!!!) in my life, I answered a call from a stranger… I swear to god, if your phone number is not in my phone book (hence your name is not shown in the screen), don’t ever think that I’d pick up the phone… Hanta mesej sudeh… But don’t take it wrongly, I’m not being a b**ch (sorry for the vulgarity)… I just lack the confidence (I guess… If I were to name this feeling I’m having…)… For me, this phone call is the highlight of the day… It’s about… Nah, just keep it for a later date… So you guys might have to wait before I spill the beans… Well, not that it matters much… Not that I can do much to not reject it… But the thoughts of being accepted… Ahh, it’s delightful…

Thirdly, well it’s not a surprise really… But I suprisingly found myself caught off guard after watching the trailer for Hancock… It’s not that I find it funny or what… It’s just there was a pesanan penaja by Schick… It said “Even superheroes need to shave”… Hehe… What was that suppose to mean?!

K, I feel like stopping here… And this post is kinda long already… Moreover, I’m looking forward for tomorrow… So I need to sleep early… And wake up early…

Oh, so much for trying to be Meor the Wise… ngahahaha… It’s more like Meor the Heavy Crapper..

Enough about me… Enough about you… Now it’s about us…

The Outcome

In crap, me on June 27, 2008 at 11:59 pm

Hehe… Hehehehehe…

I woke up for Subuh prayer… But then resumed my sleep… And at 11a.m., I woke up…

So basically, I failed in sticking to the plan…

Luckily, this is a predetermined non-elimination round…

The Plan

In me on June 27, 2008 at 12:31 am

Tomorrow… I’ve got a plan… But it’s a detour (like the one in Amazing Race)…

Walk or Jog?

In Walk, team has to take a bus to The Mall from Kompleks Kerajaan Jalan Duta (after having breakfast in the food court nearby)… Then team will be required to walk to Stesen LRT Putra… From the LRT station, team can choose to go to stations Masjid Jamek, Bandaraya or Ampang… Upon arrival to any of these three destinations, team would be handed with their next clue… Team with money and time will want to try this…

In Jog, team has to get some breakfast first… Preferably something not too spicy… After that team will have to read a newspaper, in order to let the body to take care of the stuffs eaten… After about 30 minutes, team can start jogging for a kilometer home… At home, team will be awarded with the next clue… This task may be strenuous but it certainly will favor team with good stamina…

The last team to arrive at the checkpoint, may be eliminated…

Hehe…  Just wait for the outcome, k?

I can’t wait for this morning!!!

26th June 08

In crap, lagha, me, movie, real time, review, thoughts on June 26, 2008 at 11:45 pm

Hmm… What a boring day… Hmm, so much for a ‘transition’ eh, Pidah? Got stuck in front of the computer for one whole day… But I’m not whining really… I guess I’m way off better than other people… Somewhere where there is no electricity nor clean water… xp…

Woke up at around 6.45 a.m., just in time for the subuh prayer… Alhamdulillah for that and I’m also grateful that I didn’t continue my sleep like always did for the past few days… Well, I’m up, but I didn’t really do anything fruitful… I can go jogging or do something productive… But I chose not to… Besides, I’ve finished downloaded Gundam SEED Stargazer… Hehe… It’s review time!!!

Aww man… Again?!

This is a 3-episode side story of Gundam SEED series… So those who are not into Gundam SEED, please bear with me, k? It’s about Stargazer, a Gundam with A.I., which for me, makes things interesting… As previous gundams are only manually piloted… With Stargazer, it has A.I. mode and non-A.I. mode… Interestingly, the plot starts after the fall of Junius Seven, in Gundam SEED Destiny… Moreover, there’s lack of battle scenes, mainly due to the primary objective of building Stargazer, which is to explore deep space, not to kill people… Stargazer also uses unconventional technology, using a blanket of force-field to capture solar burst to create propulsion… Aww… How I loved physics… I wish I don’t have to drop physics… But no regrets!!! Honestly, I was kinda disappointed with Stargazer, because I think this is just an effort to sell more gundam to those innocent kids out there… Hehe… I know, I know, it’s just good business…

Then I went to watch Earl, carefully and subserviently following the scheme of watch-only-and-only-four-episodes-of-Earl-a-day… Damn!!! Earl was really good… It’s neither too heavy nor too light… It’s just sweet and somehow, heartfelt… But, honestly I don’t have much faith in karma… I’ll write a review later, k? Together with my view on karma…

Then… Hmm… I watch a movie entitled Drillbit Taylor… I wonder how did it get into my external… It was entertaining (but nothing more…), with Owen Wilson being one of the anchors… I’m not really recommending it to anyone but… I actually liked it, even though it’s a typical zero to hero movie… May be because it’s been a while since I last watch this kind of movie…

Later, I went online some more… Just to read other people’s blogs… And read Air Gear… Which is… OK… I liked it… But it can’t compare with Naruto, One-Piece, Death Note and Eyeshield 21…

Hehe… You see?! I’m so bored that anything seems good (I’m simply enjoying anything that I can lay my hands on…) But I bet you, they are good… Well, for me at least…

Then I watch another movie…

What?!

Yeah… Another movie… Called Shaun Of The Dead… It’s a comedy horror… Well… Indeed, I laughed out loud (especially the part when they pretended that they were zombies) and I shouted… So it basically served its purpose… Moreover, I’m a big fan of Simon Pegg and Adam Frost, so anything from them will be regarded as good for me… Maybe I’m a li’l bit biased here… But I do feel that the pair is doing a very good job in this movie… Want more of them? Then watch Hot Fuzz… Hot stuff, really… I would honestly say that it’s a classic(Hot Fuzz)!!!

Nape le teman suke bebeno buat aktiviti lagho ni ye?

Tomorrow I’m going for a jogging, while seeping the not-so-clean air of Kuala Lumpur!!! Insyaallah…

Knowing, saying, doing… They are three very different things… Thinking?

Random…

In crap, me on June 26, 2008 at 2:05 am

Well, not really…

It’s fine to be angry, but it isn’t healthy to be resentful… We can learn to deal without anger in ways that are healthy for us and for those around us…

You hurt me… But never mind, it’s OK… I understand…

The Air I Breathe

In me, movie, review, thoughts on June 26, 2008 at 1:25 am

Huh?! That’s my reaction to this movie’s ending…

It’s not mind blowing… It’s not clear… But It glued me to my seat nonetheless… That’s a sign that this is a very good movie… It’s unconventional… It’s unique… And almost weird… I don’t know why… Maybe because there are constant references to butterfly effect… Maybe because this movie is artistically amazing… Maybe because in sociology, I learned about Interactionism(It’s not like it’d make sense with the link here), and this movie portrays it beautifully…

This movie is based on a Chinese proverb that says that for one to live fully, you have to experience four emotions… Happiness, pleasure, sorrow, and love… By doing so, we’re one way or another interconnected… This emotions evolves like energy, they didn’t simply go into the air… They actually are passed on to people around us… Just like the law of the conservation of energy, emotions can neither be created nor destroyed…

One thing that I liked about this movie is that it’s full of surprises… When you expect things to happen this way, it either didn’t happen at all or they happen in different or unique styles… This unpredictability gives this movie some elements of humor… Which I think is very cleverly done… The plot seemed twisted, but it’s actually beautifully woven…

However bear in mind… Don’t ever watch this movie with the thoughts of comparing it to Crash or The Departed… Don’t watch it to look for moral of the story, because you’d find more of it in Lord of Wars or To Kill A Mockingbird… Just free your mind and watch… Somehow, miraculously, tonight I managed (It was hard, but worth the try) to just watch this movie without being too cynical…

My (Mine, not anyone else’s) verdict? A solid 7.5/10… Minus one for ‘18PL’ness… Minus another one because it won’t fit my top 10 list… Minus another half for being too short… Hehe…

We need a way out… Hmm… Sooooo true…

Maap le kalau asyek-asyek pos pase muvi… Teman tok tau nok wat pe doh ni… Tengok muvi je le… Takkan nak dok melangut je kot?

Ignorance Is Ignorance

In me, plagiarized, thoughts on June 25, 2008 at 2:11 am

It’s not bliss… For me, at least…

Why then they say that ignorance is bliss?

Well, I think it’s because if we don’t know or aren’t aware about something, it can’t hurt you… Children, for instance… They know nearly nothing of pain and hate… Hence they get along much better… Hence they are in bliss… They are innocent… They are carefree…

Sadly, as we grow older, we became too aware of suffering and pain… From being innocent, we start to become compassionate… We start to care for other people’s feeling because we don’t want them to suffer… We pity others more… We lose our innocence… And become compassionate… At the expense of our own bliss… We gain understanding of all the world’s bads… Also at the expense of our own bliss… Ultimately, we gain knowledge… As we become wiser, things seem to have less value than they were before… Before this, I’m usually excited about playing sorok-sorok… Now, no more, as the experience is no longer very new… I need something more complicated… Badminton, perhaps… CS, maybe… In fact I fear that I’m going to get bored of games, animes and movies… As for magazines (like Gempak and Utopia), I’m no longer interested with them…

Hence we say that knowledge is pain, as its opposite, ignorance, is happiness…

But does it simply stops there?

Think again…

Is the sole purpose of life is to be happy? Is there happiness in being happy only? I don’t think so… When happiness is a norm… It’s no longer valuable… No longer looked forward to…

However are ignorants happy? We can’t say that, right? So ignorance is not necessarily bliss… Ignorants never learned the hardness of reality of life… They never faced reality and never had the opportunity to accept it… Regardless whether its good or bad reality… Hence, as a large part of happiness comes from acceptance (not denial nor ignorance), how the hell can ignorants be blissful? They must simply be just ignorants… No more nor less…

Indeed… Ignorants are happy as long as they know nothing… But what if they start to know? Won’t it be so shocking, as it’d be their first time facing such ‘truth’? Compared to the wise and knowing(not ignorants)… Any harsh realities are just another reality so they won’t give much of a shock to them( the not ignorant)… So I guess they are better off than the ignorants…

In this regard, when thinking about the long term, ignorance is actually an inhibitor of bliss, not a cause… While the ignorant may feel happy for a time, they are actually just unaware of the things that suppress bliss… Meaning, they are not truly happy, they are simply ignorant…

Oh, come on… We’re not animals…

Yeoman’s Service

In crap, hehe on June 24, 2008 at 3:54 pm

Got an e-mail from A Word A Day… An interesting word I believe, as it consists of someone whom I know… Hehe… I think this would be easy to be remembered…

So basically the meaning is efficient, useful, or loyal service… Hmm… Efficient? Useful? Loyal? xp

Tu je… Teman memang doh ketandusan idea nie… Ngahahaha…

Mind Those Cans!!!

In me, plagiarized, thoughts on June 24, 2008 at 3:22 pm

Hmm… Maybe some of you have read this in an e-mail… Like me, I’ve gotten this e-mail twice in this year alone… So I guess it might has some credibility…

So the e-mail I got from emak went like this:

This is Serious!

This incident happened recently in North Texas .

A woman went boating one Sunday taking with her some cans of coke which she put into the refrigerator of the boat. On Monday she was taken to the hospital and placed in the Intensive Care Unit. She died on Wednesday.

The autopsy concluded she died of Leptospirosis. This was traced to the can of coke she drank from, not using a glass. Tests showed that the can was infected by dried rat urine and hence the disease Leptospirosis.

Rat urine contains toxic and deathly substances. It is highly recommended to thoroughly wash the upper part of soda cans before drinking out of them. The cans are typically stocked in warehouses and transported straight to the shops without being cleaned.

A study at NYCU showed that the tops of soda cans are more contaminated than public toilets (i.e).. full of germs and bacteria. So wash them with water before putting them to the mouth to avoid any kind of fatal accident.

Hehe… It sounded plausible, but I’d rather not take my chances… I just don’t want to simply believe what I heard, especially what’s heard in the Internet…So like usual, I went to Snopes to check it out… So these are my findings…

Rat urine contains toxic and deathly substances… This is false, as rat urine is only toxic if its produced by sick and diseased animals… It doesn’t apply exclusively to rats only… Diseased rabbits, frogs, dogs, snakes and pigs, all of them can produce urines as fatal as diseased rats… However bear in mind… In a city, there would be a large population of rats or whatever animals… Hence there’d be a higher probability of the disease to be contracted… And their habit of living in the dark(stores, sewers and such), aren’t helping us much…

However, there is a very low possibility of rats urinating on the cans, as most canned drinks are packaged into a box and sealed sealed with plastic coverings… And they(the rats) has got no time to do that too… As most canned drinks are passed to consumers as quickly as they are produced… So unless your house is rat-infested, you wouldn’t have to worry… Hehe…

Whatever it is, if you somehow buy canned drinks at shops or from vending machines, it won’t hurt if you wipe the can… This is as their human handlers are still as dangerous…

Better be safe than sorry…

Schindler’s List

In me, movie, review on June 24, 2008 at 3:52 am

What the hell was that? That’s what I first thought when I finished watching it… It’s so good… It’s just a 1993 production… It’s in black and white… I just can believe how I was glued to my seat… And it’s a three-hour movie… But I still watched it to the very end… This movie is so powerful, I believe…

It’s about a German industrialist who used Jew labors for his factory… He made a lot of money… People thought he’s just another opportunist who takes advantage on cheap labor force the Jews provide… But he didn’t only take people who are able bodied and skilled… He took children, handicapped, women and men… Regardless whether they are skilled or not… Like a blessing in disguise, those who were taken to work with Schindler were saved from gas chambers like many have to face in Auschwitz… His factory is regarded as a heaven…

What did he do with all the money he gained in exploiting Jews? Well, that… You have to watch it yourself… But bear in mind that this movie is full of profanities and violence… Head shot scenes are a norm… Ehem ehem scenes are there… There’s not much but they are there… I would rate this movie as 18PL, so I don’t recommend this to anyone’s viewing…

This movie is not without its critics… Some claimed that the history in this movie is not accurate and unjustly portrayed all German S.S. members as ruthless demonic animals… Some accused Spielberg for playing on people’s emotion, without paying enough attention to its accuracy in the history behind it… I personally believe that it’s kinda unfair to say that every single German soldier is vile and cruel…

Me? I’ll give it an 8/10… It’s a.w.e.s.o.m.e.

Hmm…

In crap, me, thoughts on June 23, 2008 at 1:22 pm

…Nak gebang ape ye kat sini?

Honestly, I’ve nothing to say at all… Zen zen arimasen(‘Nothing at all’ in Japanese)… Because I’ve been doing nothing… All in all, I’d say that I’m brain-dead… But is it really ‘nothing’? Well, nope… It’s empty… It feels hollow… I wanted to go out… But I haven’t got money…  Hehe… Mak, boleh la ye?

And one more thing… If there’s anyone who lives around KL and wanted to go out… Just roger(give a call or text) me, k? I’m so bored and so tired of being alone (not that I’m lonely… not that He is not there…)… More over, most of my friends who live in KL are already overseas… I liked going jalan-jalan around KL alone… But once in a while… Some changes are good, right?

What happened yesterday? Trust me, it’s uneventful… Head to Salak Tinggi to visit my sis… On the way there, went to KFC, Pizza Hut and Mc D for lunch… Unbelievable? Believe it… Went to Pizza Hut to take away some Pizza… Instead of waiting for 20 minutes, I went to the Mc D next door to buy Happy Meals for my li’l bro and sis… The service was quick so I then went to the KFC… People were staring as I had Mc D plastic bags clinging to my hands, and yet I’m here, in KFC… Nah… It may just be my feelings… But, I don’t give a damn, really… Besides, my stomach is grumbling like mad… Made a quick decision to eat Meltz (It’s my first time, after being endorsed by Mior… xp)… Uhm umm… Good!!!

About 30 minutes later… Arrived at the destination…

On the way back… We took the route through Putrajaya… Saw my school… Memory rushes in… Of SAS… Of KYUEM… And before I realized it… I’m crying… Which made me somehow mad… Because I vowed once… I don’t want to be a crybaby anymore…

But Lacus Clyne once said… It’s OK to cry, once in a while… However, just make it worthwhile…

KYUEM – Snapshots

In me, photo on June 22, 2008 at 11:17 pm

OK, this may be my last post on leaving KYUEM…

Except for the first picture… All are captured on my final days in KYUEM… Wanted to put them in Flickr but finally decided not to… Why? Nobody knows…

Lastly, do visit my Flickr page, k… Its link is on the sidebar…

Let’s move on…

ENCORE : A Poem For You

In Poem, me on June 22, 2008 at 10:34 am

K, some of you might have read this… But it was when the internet is cranky (June 17)… So I feel the need to post this poem again…

First of all, you know who you are… I wrote this this morning… No reference, just purely from my heart… hmm… It may be a bit out of rhythm here and there, as this is my first poem since a while…

Goodbye, See You Later!!!

by Meor Muslih

A gentle touch, a warm embrace,
You’re something can’t be replaced…

You touched my heart, felt it, grabbed it,
And effortlessly win it…

Your cynical thoughts, your unique views,
Oh, how much I hope to be like you…

Wearing it right, wearing it tight,
You stayed cool from day till night…

The way you whimper, you whisper,
Taught me that different is beautiful…

But the time has come,
For this sailor to continue his journey….
Which its very route,
Is laid down by you…

If I can only watch,
Then watch those angel eyes I will…
If I can only lament,
Then lament those times I will…
If I can only listen,
Then listen to your voice I will…

So, as what’s left of me is to remember,
Then… Remember I will…

T.T

Parti Jejans

In me, thoughts on June 22, 2008 at 10:06 am

This is in the hope that I can look back at it when the needs arise…

11p.m. (June 20th)

Parti Jejans started… First of all, thanks to Mazzein and Fer for organising this event… Hehe…

Initially, there were like 6 of us only… After about ten minutes… More people flocked in and we have almost 20 people there… Najib, Nazri and me went to the vending machine to buy some canned drinks (8 or so…)… My ban on Coke is also temporarily lifted up… xp… We also lit some candles… To create a feel… Hehe… Then the feast begin… It consists of (what I could remember…) marshmallow, cookies, snacks… Hmm… Ape lagi ha?… Tak ingat la…

In the midst of Sesi Luahan Rasa (my Luahan Rasa, to be specific), a guard came and said that Pn. Rog is on her way… We decided to not take the risk… We moved to the tv room… Which is much better… Air cond… And privacy from prying eyes and ears… Hehe…

In the tv room we’re joined by Iman… We continued our so called party and sharing our final say… Which I felt honored and obliged to keep it just in my heart and thoughts… Most of the things said that night touched my heart… They also strengthens my feelings towards you guys… It’s like we shared something… Something more than just a friendship…

Then we sang along the songs by Sudirman, Salam Terakhir and Avril Lavigne, When You’re Gone… I was holding back tears… Then we decided to gather around the laptop to just listen to Salam Terakhir… That 5 minutes would be the saddest moment that I’ve ever encountered… So many memories rushed into my mind… Good memories… Precious memories… Memories of being alone, just to be saved by friends… Memories of being mad, just to be cooled down by my nakamas… Looking at the bright side… Thank God, for giving me memory… So I can, at least, relive the memory… And cherish it…

It ended at almost 2a.m…. Nazri and I then decided to spend our last night at Najib’s chalet… Then off to sweet dreams…

Honestly, Parti Jejans is my true graduation… And I’m grateful I’m a part of it…

Tadaima!!! (“I’m home” in Japanese)

In me, thoughts on June 21, 2008 at 5:40 pm

Oh, how do I miss this place called home… It has been about a month since I last went back… I never thought that I’d miss this place so much… I missed my mom and dad… I missed the sweet smell of new laundry… I missed the Internet… I missed downloading movies using torrent… I missed the elevator to the apartment (Hehe… The smell is just… Distinguished… xp)… I missed my brothers and sisters… Their laughs, their cries, their fights… Hehe… Bittersweet they are!!!

More over, I missed KL… Particularly walking around Masjid Jamek area, looking, observing strangers… Also missed taking the bus from Dataran Merdeka to destinations such as Mid Valley, Time Square, Pudu, Ampang Park and KLCC… I miss everything about KL, from the sickening smell of smoke and poisonous gas from the exhaust… To jogging or strolling around KLCC park or Taman Tasik Perdana…

Well, that’s it for now… Let me sleep away this sadness first,k? Next post would be, insyaallah, on the final days in KYUEM…

Carve your name on the hearts and not on marble… A good character is the best tombstone…Those who loved you and were helped by you will remember you when forget-me-nots are withered…

Summary

In me, thoughts on June 20, 2008 at 4:16 pm

My college is… Life changing…

First Sem…

Hmm… Ape ade dalam first sem ni ye? Takde ape-ape sangat kot… Aku cume duduk dalam bilik… Entah apela yang aku buat waktu tu ye? Nak kate study tak jugak… Nak kate maen internet… Waktu takde laptop lagi… Boleh kata aku ni duduk sorang-sorang je la waktu nih… Boleh kate jugak, aku benci kat kolej ni… Rase macam kalau boleh nak balek hari-hari… Naseb baeklah waktu ni ade epi, jo, ngan aimran sebagai chaletmate… Ade la jugak aku bercakap dengan orang… Kalau tak, nak harapkan dekat kelas je la… Cakap pasal kelas… Nasib baik jugaklah jimah satu kelas dengan aku untuk sume blok… Kecuali Blok 6, zaman tu aku masih amek fizik… Die kelas laen dengan aku… Hmm… Naseb… Naseb… Waktu first sem ni jugaklah aku struggle gile nak cakap omputih ni… Maklumlah… nak gi UK(actual plan) la katakan… Waktu sem ni jugaklah petang-petang selalu aku lepak IT lab… Sebab internet kat bilek memang hampeh… So, first sem memang hampeh!!! Tak, ade satu benda yang tak… Iaitu jogging pepagi sengsorang… Best sgt… udara segar… bagi burung makan roti… penat… peluh… lapar… memang best…

Tapi… Waktu tu tak terpikir pon yang kite akan berpisah…

 

Second Sem…

Sem ni, boleh dikatakan sem yang terbaik… Waktu ni dah ade laptop… Waktu ni walaupun sem yang ade exam, sem ni lah aku dah mula berkawan dengan orang… Sebelum ni asyik tengok dan senyum2 je… Sekarang aku dah boleh dikatakan boleh je cakap ngan sume orang… Ye ke? Entahlah… Sem ni boleh dikatakan life changing sem… Sem ni lah aku mule berkawan dengan budak-budak L-8 (Najib, Wan, Nazri, Jimah)… Aku ingat lagi macam mane aku boleh termasuk chalet korang… Waktu tu… Aku sorang je tinggal kat chalet aku… Epi, Jo ngan Aimran ade yang balek… Ade yang gi rugby… So korang jemput aku tinggal dekat common room korang… Sampai habis 2nd sem, memang aku rase aku dah established sebagai ahli chalet L-8-E… Waktu ni best… Maen winning, ade main cs (Aku ngan nazri kalah teruk ngan Wan ngan Najib)… tengok movie memanjang… Waktu second sem ni… Pegi makan same, surau same2, swimming same2, makan burger same2… Kelas pun gerak same2 (kadang2 la)… “Leave no man behind”… Hehe… Honestly, mase kene pindah mainland… Aku sedeh sangat9 tinggalkan korang… Menyesal pun ade… Sebab tak masuk bilek korang awal-awal… hehe…

Waktu ni jugak, maklumlah… ade exam… so selalu la pegi rc… tapi kdg2 bukan sebab nak study… sbb internet laju je… cume aku ingat yang waktu tu… 8.40p.m. mesti internet terpadam…Satu memori yang aku rase x sume org perasan pon… Takpe la…

Waktu ni aku dah tak balek rumah sgt dah… Sebab dekat kolej amat best… Amat amat best…

Tap… Waktu tu tak terpikir pon yang kite akan berpisah…

 

Ecotrip…

Amat best… Sebab ade kawan2 yang amat baek… Sort of perkenalan sebelum pindah ke kampong mainland… Waktu ni la aku rase aku makin rapat dengan kawan-kawan aku sekarang… Niezzam ngan mas, jasa korang terime aku masok chalet korang mase kitorang kene merempat kat dorm tu, aku takkan lupekan… Mungkin korang rase bende tu bende kecik je kot, tapi aku rase, benda tu la yang buat aku rase terhutang budi sangat dekat korang…

 

Third Sem…

Entahlah… Takde ape-ape sgt pun sem ni… Aku jadi balik aku yg first sem tu… Kurung diri dalam bilik… senyap sunyi je… tapi kureng sket la… Cume waktu ni aku first time turun MPH dan maen badminton… Mule-mule tak reti maen… Sekarang, boleh tahan la… Selalu maen dengan mas, najib, eddi, mazzein, syafiq… Mas, thanks banyak-banyak sebab sudi maen dengan aku, daripada masa aku tak reti sampailah dah reti sikit… Terime kaseh jugak sebab rela jadi partner aku bile maen doubles… Amek shuttle yg susah2 sebab kengkadang aku malas… sorry kalau ade game yang aku tak semangat sangat, sampai mungkin ko pun affected… Badminton boleh kata jadi pintu buat aku cari lagi ramai kawan… terutama juniors… Banyak betul aku belajar daripada badminton ni… Dari bertolak ansur sebab court yg amat sikit, sampailah berendah diri sebab asyik kalah je…Waktu ni aktif jugak lah badan aku… Isnin rabu swimming, hari lain badminton… Waktu sem ni boleh kata terlebih enjoy la kot… Segala yang lagha, itulah yang dibuat… Sebab org laen ade exam, aku takde… Cume socio ngan econs… AS je… hehe… Waktu ni jugak, kawan dah agak ramai(walaupun tak seramai orang laen)… Rupenye ade jugak bagusnye pindah ke mainland ni ye… Start sem ni, aku dah tak pergi langsung assembly… Aku pun tak tau kenape… malas kot… Lagi satu, waktu ni memang aku tak lunch dekat DH… dari kelas terus turun kafe, tapau dan terus balik, habis cerite… Senang kan? Tapi malam-malam pegi jugak la DH… Nasib baik ade najib… Hari-hari ajak aku pegi makan… hari-hari ajak aku pegi surau… Walaupun kengkadang aku lambat, die tak kesah… die tunggu jugak… Lagi satu, die selalu bagi aku part die, sebab die tak makan byk sgt pon… hehe… Waktu aku sedih2 tak tentu pasal, die jugak yg suruh aku cheer up… Thanks!!! Hmm… Lepas ni, sape la nak ajak aku gi makan pulak ye?

Tapi… Waktu tu tak pikir pon yang kite akan berpisah…

 

Fourth sem…

Sem yang sangat best… Sebab aku rase aku dah tak kekok sgt berjalan depan orang… Nak gi mane2 pon tak kesah… siap pakai kain je kot… waktu ni aku boleh dikatakan lebih tak kesah pandangan orang terhadap aku dari segi luaran… Well, ni kolej je, bukan KL… Waktu ni keseronokan berkawan tu memang amat terase… Thanks korang… Korang memang paling best… Paling-paling best… Waktu ni, boleh kata aku start amat rapat dengan chaletmates aku, Kim, topan ngan Jo… Pastu datanglah Mior… Selalu study Econs, sampai aku pun tau la sikit2 pasal economies of scale dengan diseconomies of scale… Bende yang aku ingat pasal kim ialah die tak penah marah… Walaupun aku kacau die gile7… Ibarat kata-kata dia… “Stay cool”… Hehe Kim, sorry la ye… Topan pulak, memang best la… waktu aku nak share ape2, die dengar… die layan je… pastu die akan cube bagi solution to the problems… memang a very good listener… Thanks topan… Jo pulak… Jo, thanks for everything… Sebab bila you study, I pun terstudy jugak… Naseb baek jugak you suke selalu tanye soalan… Ade la jugak dapat ilmu bergune… Setiap minggu bile balik, mesti Jo bawak dunkin donut ke… Ape-ape ke… Thanks Jo… Sem ni jugak amat best, sebab banyak jugak la maen cs… Dengan Apen, hilmi, wan, mior, jimah, nazri, najib, fendi, syuk, fiqri, aizat, mas, eddi, pidah, jpah, afiq… Ade la satu malam yang best sekali… Aku, wan, mas, eddi, haziq telo lawan jpah, afiq, najib, pidah… Team work memanjang… Hmm… Sorry la kalau aku ter’carried away’ sket kadang2… Sorry…

Tapi… Waktu ni… Macam menghitung jam je…

Mintak maaf banyak-banyak kalau aku terlepas kata… terkasar bahasa… teramek makanan atau minuman korang… terbuat ape-ape yang korang rase tak patut… terbuat sombong kalau terserempak dekat mane-mane… terbuat don’t know bile dekat bilek… terberlagak dengan sape2… Mintak maaf banyak-banyak…

Ukhuwah itu indah, jika ia kerana Allah…

UNIC – Kawan

In me on June 20, 2008 at 3:38 pm

Kawan bertahun kita bersama 

Bagai semalam baru bersua 

Kawan di hadapan oh indahnya 

Kita bersama berkelana 

 

Namun kita jauh 

Di dunia sendiri 

Bekalan sendiri (semangat sendiri) 

Impian sendiri 

Meski pun jauh namun 

Kita tetap bersama 

Dek ruang yang memisahkan kita 

 

Kawan hidup ini umpama langit 

Yang tidak selalu cerah 

Kawan hidup ini bagaikan awan 

Yang tidak selalu putih 

 

Ingatlah (ingatlah kawan ingatlah) 

Takkan terus berkelana 

Ingatlah (ingatlah kawan ingatlah) 

Pasti akan hilang 

 

Kawan jangan biarkan dirimu 

Seperti rama-rama 

Cantik namun akhirnya 

Menjadi perhiasan di dinding 

 

Kawan jangan biarkan dirimu 

Umpama lipan dan kala 

Berbisa namun akhirnya 

Menjadi perhiasan dimeja tulis 

 

Oh kawan jadilah seperti si matahari 

Membakar diri demi insan sejagat 

Oh kawan jadilah seperti bulan purnama 

Menerangi malam yang gelap gelita 

Menunjukkan jalan demi umat semesta 

T.T

Yesterday’s Yesterday…

In 1 on June 20, 2008 at 3:37 pm

Yesterday was filled with happiness… And sadness…

I don’t know why every morning, I woke with an unsinkable mixture of feelings of despair and joy… Despair for the time that’s unconsciously shorten… From years, to months… From months, to weeks… Then it become days… It will become hours… Minutes and then seconds…

Joy? Hmm… I think it’s safe to say that I had fun… Went to Bukit Beruntung to play bowling… 

Line Up : 

Team Harmony – Jpah, Hafiz Po, Meor, Mr. Azman

Team The Next Table – Jimah(Juiet), Syauqi(Romeo), Hazman, Pida

Hehe… Managed to get two strikes… Not bad ain’t it?Well, I mean… For a newb (urban slang for newbie)…

Then we headed to Restoran Anjung to eat… There’s only one Wira Aeroback… And there are about 11 of us… So the 4 girls went with the first round… And 7(?!) of us, the boys and Mr. Azman in the second trip… Hehe…

There we ate a lot… First it’s Nasi Goreng Pataya with Siakap 3 Rasa… Then when Mr. Azman insisted, Po and I shared another Nasi Goreng Daging Merah… More over, we finished everything with Udang Goreng Tepung… Thanks Mr. Azman… You’ve been a great teacher… Countless times, you’ve made my day… You truly are different…

At 11 p.m. (I guess…) we arrived at Lembah Beringin…

Without paying, I joined the BBQ party held near the field… ‘Burger’ed Mior and Bob… Ate some chicken… Drank some syrup… Cleaned up the mess… And went back to take a shower…

At around 11.30 p.m., went to watch Ironman at Najib’s chalet… Well… I didn’t really watch it, so I can’t really make a review here… Sorry… I’m not fully healed yet from the disease called ‘Sleepititis’, a disease that’s most virulent went I’m watching movie…

Tik tok… Tik tok…

The failest!!!

In hehe on June 17, 2008 at 9:39 pm

First of all, sorry for the profanity!!! This is just too good to be left alone…

 

Must Read!!!

In Rhythm on June 17, 2008 at 12:46 pm

This is a very good article… Found in Ustaz Pali’s blog… 

A Poem For You

In Poem, me, thoughts, you on June 17, 2008 at 11:47 am

First of all, you know who you are… I wrote this this morning… No reference, just purely from my heart… hmm… It may be a bit out of rhythm here and there, as this is my first poem since a while…

Goodbye, See You Later!!!

by Meor Muslih

 

A gentle touch, a warm embrace,

You’re something can’t be replaced…

 

You touched my heart, felt it, grabbed it,

And effortlessly win it…

 

Your cynical thoughts, your unique views,

Oh, how much I hope to be like you…

 

Wearing it right, wearing it tight,

You stayed cool from day till night…

 

The way you whimper, you whisper,

Taught me that different is beautiful…

 

But the time has come,

For this sailor to continue his journey….

Which its very route,

Is laid down by you…

 

If I can only watch,

Then watch those angel eyes I will…

If I can only lament,

Then lament those times I will…

If I can only listen,

Then listen to your voice I will…

 

So, as what’s left of me is to remember,

Then… Remember I will…

T.T

Remarks

In Poem, me, thoughts on June 17, 2008 at 10:45 am

Time is very slow for those who wait,

very fast for those who are scared, 

very long for those who lament, 

very short for those who celebrate. 

But, for those who love, time is eternity.

(William Shakespeare)

 

Remarks… They are sometimes a life line… A boost in a pledge… A catalyst…

But often, they are thoughtless… And thoughtlessly, they hurt hearts… And hard…

It’s unintentional… But it still hurts… They come in many faces… Like senyaplah… Blahla… ***** la… ******* la ko ni…

I know… It’s member member… But sometimes they are the last thing to be said in the worst possible moment…

So Meor, watch your mouth… This simple and unnoticeable things can wound hearts…

Thanks for everything!!!

Horsea?!

In me, movie, review, thoughts on June 16, 2008 at 11:43 am

Hehe… It’s not horsea, k? It’s Water Horse… I wrongly called it horsea because I was so into pokemon last week… Which took me a solid 3 days to finish it…

K, the full title is The Water Horse: Legend of the Deep… It scored a respectable 6.7 in IMDb… So it must be something, rather than what some people unjustly commented… Some friends didn’t even watch it and say it’s boring because someone else said it’s boring… Come on… Your views are yours… Lidah laen2, rase laen2

Enough with being an advocate for this film… Let me get to the review…

Cast? Well, it was just OK, nothing spectacular… But I want to give credits to the lead boy, Alex Etel… I think he did well… But the two travelers at the start and end of this movie… They are… Honestly speaking, horribly horrible…

CGI? For me it’s just… Perfect… It’s beautifully integrated to the movie… And it fits the surrounding rather perfectly…

Story-line? Well… There are some humor… Some melancholy… Some surprises… Which is enough for me to call it a decent movie…

OST? The bomb!!! But only if you like the likes of Enya… And only if you like Scottish bagpipes… And only if you like flute and piccolo… 

My verdict? It’s 6/10… It’s hardly boring at all (not like what other people said)… Recommended for viewing… No profanity but only beauty!!!

I hope the movie is longer… Like 2 hours and a half, maybe?

Anger

In me, thoughts on June 16, 2008 at 11:20 am

The Prophet Muhammad (peace be upon him) said: “The best of you are those who are slow to anger and swift to cool down…Beware of anger, for it is a live coal on the heart of the descendants of Adam.” 

Al-Tirmidhi, Hadith 1331

This post is simply a reminder to myself… Who sometimes lose the control over his self and unintentionally hurt even the people closest to him… Because when someone who are close to us, didn’t act as what we expect him or her to be, it triggers frustration… Which leads to anger…

Yesterday I learned that one shouldn’t let his mind took over by anger… If we simply go along with anger it’ll just be like pouring oil on fire… It feels good somehow to go on with rage, but from my experience… It’ll soon be followed by guilt… And it never recedes, if let to grow…

More over, anger is usually followed by something physical… Usually inflicted upon someone (the subject of anger or innocent bystanders) or something (innocent things)… Well, it’s quite fair if it’s the subject of anger but it’ll also affect other innocent people… But being in rage, who will not lost control? But I don’t think going physical gonna benefit anybody… Both will be hurt… The beater may even have his or her hands bruised… 

Thank god, because for me, it’s easy come and easy go (normally)… And it’s never physical… If the subject of anger come and extend his hand for an apology, it’s settled… A smile also works… This little insignificant things, are magnified as the angered will usually have extreme care for details…

But what if the subject of anger won’t utter one of the magic words? Will it be fair to our selves for us to continue being angry and ketat? Will it also be fair to the subject of anger? Because after all, he or she himself or herself is a mere human… He or she might have never been aware that he or she is hurting you… Anger never felt good… Before, during and after…

Hmm… Yesterday I’ve got the answer… It didn’t worked fast… But it certainly and finally worked for me… Just think of all the good times you spend together with him or her… Just look at the picture when both of you are smiling together… Or better, think of all the good things that he or she has done to you… When I did this… I soon smiled and felt like “Oh, stupid me… Why are you doing this?”

But what if the subject of anger is never close to you? Never did good to you? I don’t know… I’m still learning…

I’m still learning…

Today

In me on June 15, 2008 at 8:26 pm

 

It has been years since I last wrote a composition in a diary format… So, sorry if this confuses you guys…

12.00 – 4.25a.m.

Hmm… Last night and this morning, some friends and I played… Surprise surprise… CS…

Terrorist line-up – osmanladen, Raksasa_Doraemon, susu(primarily, before changing to various names), mustafa kamal, bloody valentine(primarily, before changing to various names)

Counter-terrorist line-up – dettol, sunsilk@momo, Dato’ Brad@michael@yahn@brad@Michael@steve, sabun

Last night’s game was flawless… The server seemed to tune up pretty good… The first round lasted for almost 200 rounds… While the second round ended after 69 …

Then we (Wan, Fendi and me) paid a li’l visit to P-27, just to check on our battered and heavily injured opponents (Luqman, Apen and Dato’ Helmi)… xp… Then I took my stuffs and head home… My sweet chalet…

The intention was to continue staying up, so that I can go for Subuh in the surau… But it seemed like my worn out body has a bigger authority, hence can’t help but to sleep rather soundly… It just can’t be helped…

Off to land of dreams…

Titis… Memang titis… Ngahahaha…

 

8.50a.m.

Najib came to woke me up… It was very fortunate for kim and me… As for me, it’s the last nasi lemak… But for Kim, he’s indeed one lucky man because he’s just 10 minutes from being left behind by bus for the trip to KL… See? That’s luck…

Hmm… Last nasi lemak… But as usual, the taste is disappointing… However, an empty stomach never judged… And I don’t think it’s much of a problem… As long as it’s edible… Moreover, I think I should appreciate this gift graciously… To honour lord and to honour those in any parts of the world, Who had to starve, usually, to their own demise…

 

9.30 – 11.30a.m. (I guess)

Najib, Eddi, Mazzein, Nazri and I started walking to Mak Cik nasi lemak (not because DH’s is not good… Well, not really… xp…)… We’ve been planning to walk for quite a while… I’m glad that today I’ll get the chance to finally eat nasi lemak there(I never went there… Never participated in the marathons, either…)…Along the way back we stopped a few times to snap some pictures…

Najib, sorry… Hehe…

As we grew tired and wary, a saviour arrived… Ustaz Maliki!!! He invited us to come into his car… We hesitated at first… But finally we decided to accept the invitation…

Jual mahal la pulak…

In the end (not quite, really), we arrived and as we walk up from the parking lot to the surau, we took more pictures… Suddenly someone noticed the ripening coconut and Nazri decided to climb and get it… Found a long piece of wood and Mazzein used it to get more coconuts… We were tired… And thirsty like hell… Like a survivor in an abandonded island… Ferociously we smashed the coconuts against the concrete to cut it open… Water bursted out… And flows into our very mouths… Ahh… Refreshing… That wasn’t enough… Due to lack of tools, with all our might, together we pull each coconuts apart in order to get the ‘prize’… The ‘isi’… Alhamdulillah, it tastes so good… Honestly, I’m so glad to live in the tropics…

Survivor… xp…

Dahlah… Teman dah penat le…

Sorry, I still cannot acknowledge you… Ngahahaha…

 

Unwell

In me, real time, thoughts on June 14, 2008 at 9:35 pm

Hmm… My immune system is under constant attack… One after another… First, I was suffering from sore throat… I suspected that the culprit is water polo, in which I shouted like there’s no tomorrow… Hehe… It was funny and fun…

Then, as I was on the verge of having my voice back, flu bombarded my casing (body)… There was a time when watery mucus will flow out of my nose into my mouth… This happened especially when I’m praying… 

Waktu laen idok le kamu nok keluo yek?

Sroot sroot…

Furthermore my nose felt like there is something that’s coming out… I tried to scratch it but the nuisance won’t go… I even thought of cutting off my nose!!! 

Sroot sroot…

As my line of defense is tested continuously, I noticed that people around me are starting to catch up… While playing CS, I noticed sounds like sroot sroot and frmphh (?!)… Hehe… I felt guilty… And somehow proud too (I don’t know why…)… Hehe…

Sroot sroot…

I was thinking that everything will recede… But the siege won’t end there… Not so fast, Meor… I don’t know how, but someone or something managed to transmit some cough-causing-bacteria into my system… Now I have both flu and cough… Thank you so very much… Hehe…

Sroot uhuk… Sroot uff…

As I thought that the butchering is over… As I was writing the previous post, I received one final blow with open arms… Fever… I was shivering when showering in the bathroom… Then temperature starts to rise… And then it went down… Just to get up again… And down… Again…

Hmm… When will it be over? Never mind, diseases are cleanser of sins… And I guess that befits me as I’ve sinned so much… To the lord… To my parents… To my friends…

Oh lord… Alhamdulillah for making me healthy during the exams… And Alhamdulillah for not testing me with these at that time…

Najib, I need my paracetamol back…

Softball

In me, thoughts on June 14, 2008 at 8:19 pm

I was aching my head to come up for a title for this post… And ended up putting that lame title… Yeah, we played softball this morning… At 7a.m…. A testament that I didn’t skip my Subuh prayer… Hehe…

There were 12 of us (excluding Wan as an observer… Hehe…)… So we made it six a side… My comrades were Pida, Jpah, Mas, Nazri and Syukri… The opponents consist of Jimah, Najib, Mazzein, Khairul, Zaim and Syafiq…

We hit, we ran, we slid, we shouted, we jumped and we threw… That’s basically it… The best of all is the fact that we laughed together… Well, being competitive I am… I think I got just a li’l bit carried away… Hehe… Sorry…

For me, it was very tight… With both teams showing perseverance and desire to win, it’s a fight fought hard…

Determinasi… Ngahahaha…

The match ended 9-11 (I guess…) after Khairul landed awkwardly when sliding to try to reach a base…

The Injured and The Posers… Hehe…

Whatever it is… I guess this is happiness…

Learned Yesterday…

In crap, me, you on June 14, 2008 at 1:53 pm

That the word ‘cool’ can’t be applied to anyone (Well, maybe two exceptions to Dr. Hannibal Lecter and Michael Myers)… Only things are cool… We can try… But… Sometimes we prevail… Sometimes we fail…

Can you feel the distance? Sorry… Not my slightest intention… I need to graduate from you…

Bored? Not Really… Not Anymore…

In me, real time, thoughts on June 14, 2008 at 1:49 pm

Last night some couples of friends and I planned  to play CS together… We tried to create a game that everyone can join… But to no avail… Unfortunately, after almost an hour of cuss words and sighs, we gave up trying… In my heart, I felt disgruntled… So very sad…

Hmm… Then we went for the alternative, which is watching movie… We watched H2O, the continuation of Halloween 5… I won’t recommend this movie to anyone, but I don’t think it’s as bad as its predecessors… What I loved about this movie is the struggle of the victims before being killed (Because it doesn’t make sense if they didn’t)… They at least fought for their life… They don’t simply mati katak in the hands of Michael Myers… More over, his sister then faced her fear… She went to face Myers… And won (even though she didn’t actually killed him (according to Halloween Resurrection))… And for me, that’s satisfying enough… Just like in life… Don’t simply hand over things to fate… We’ve got to fight… And fight till the last drop of blood… Hehe…

Then we played CS, again… When everyone else is watching EURO at the TV room… Without trying so hard, we were able to set up a game without much fuss… With Mas, Po and Fendi, I teamed up against 8 CT Bots… The plan was to roll their heads… But the opposite happened… Hehe… We were thrashed by the Bots… 24 to 9 (If memory serves)…

Finally, I looked at my watch… It’s already 3.42 a.m…. I need some sleep if I want to pray for Subuh… And if I want to play sofball… Which I’m looking forward to dearly…

Happiness has to be searched… It won’t simply come to you… You don’t deserve happiness if you expect it to come from others…

Bored, but less bored…

In crap, me, thoughts on June 13, 2008 at 1:23 pm

Finally I actually did something, apart from reading…

Some friends and I played CS at Pidah’s chalet… But it took us almost one hour to set everything up before we can even start… Hmm… Time that’s lost, that can’t be redeemed in any way… It was fun, nonetheless (If 2 hours seemed like 30 minutes, that’s fun…)… Hehe… I think that I, somehow, got carried away as the game progresses… Sorry… 

Then I went to watch Halloween 5… No comment (I didn’t really watch it), but it took me less than 30 minutes to fall into a very deep slumber… Only to wake up with a flu… And now my nose is watery and this morning the sputum was bloody… Now I know that the sore throat that I’ve been having since yesterday is not because I shouted during water polo last wednesday…

Ayah, tolong belikan ubat selesema…

Well… That’s it… Boring? Maybe… Maybe not…

Hari ni memang…

In me, self pity, thoughts on June 12, 2008 at 8:27 pm

membosankan…

No Internet… Bored…

CS… Boring…

Movie… Boring…

Tidur… Boring…

Reading… Boring…

Hmm… I’ve no other word to describe today…

It’s b.o.r.i.n.g…

Naseb baikle meke ade badminten ngan ping pong… Kalo idok, melangut je le…

Sorry if today’s post is so empty… Because today, my life is also empty…

Fin

In me, thoughts on June 11, 2008 at 10:17 pm

Hmm… From the title itself, I guess, you guys for sure can already predict what I’m planning to write here… Yeah, it’s about the exam… For me, it’s the end… And indeed, I’m a happy man (or boy, whichever you want to put it)…

As if it’s celebrating this day with me, the internet, miraculously came back from a very long hiatus… Albeit being erratic, it’s there… Hehe… Another reason to be happy!!!

The end of the exam marks for something else… The end of everything… The end means parting ways… I’m not going to be sentimental here… At least, not yet… Hehe… There is just one thing that I want to say here… Let’s just enjoy this moment together, k?

Let’s enjoy it together, k?

Sorry…

In me on June 11, 2008 at 8:16 pm

I want to say that I’m sorry… Previous posts have been so selfish… So inconsiderate… So negative…

K, I guess I can password-protect the posts… I don’t want to unintentionally hurt the ones I love…

Sorry…

You’re right, Luqman… I’ll look back at the post and laugh at it… Hehe…

Laughter Is Always (Trust Me On This) The Best Medicine

In hehe, me on June 9, 2008 at 7:07 am

Thanks emak… You’re the best!!!

Not So Little Anymore, eh?

This one caught me off guard… Hahahahahahaha

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Youtiao… Bukan Youtube…

In me, thoughts on June 7, 2008 at 7:51 pm

At approximately 3.45 p.m., I got a call from emak… I thought it’s because I’ve not called her for a while… Actually, emak is coming to visit me!!! 

My parents came once more to visit me… Apparently they’ve got to attend a wedding ceremony in Teluk Intan… So they decided to come and visit me on their way back to KL… On the way, they stopped at Tanjong Malim to buy stuffs at the pasar malam…

Which are cakoi, roti John, dodol, lemang, Yong Taufu, pulut panggang and tepek… But among all of them, for me, the best of all is…

It’s a chromosome! It’s a sister chromatide! It’s a bivalent! No… It’s…

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

It’s cakoi!!!

Why?

First, because it’s sedap laa… Secondly, because it’s rare!!! Thirdly, because of memory… Hehe…

Cakoi… mmmmmm… Its taste is the bomb!!! For anyone who don’t know what is cakoi… This post is exclusively for you… 

Cakoi is a malay rendition of  it’s chinese name you char kway… In mainland China, it’s known mostly as youtiao…

Cakoi is a street food that’s made of a dough of wheat flour and deep fried until it expands… It’s usually made in pairs, so that it can be torn to two when eaten… This gives it its look of a chromosome… xp…

It’s cantonese name, yauhjagwai mean “Oil fried devil”… Which for me is very cool…

According to folklore, cakoi is an act of protest against Song Dynasty official Qin Hui, who is said to have framed the general Yue Fei, an icon of patriotism in ancient China… So when Chinese people first made the dough, it originally takes the form of two human… However, throughout history, it later evolved to two doughs joining in the middle, represents Qin Hui and his wife, both having a hand in collaborating with the enemy to bring about the great general’s demise… Thus cakoi is deep fried and eaten as if done to the traitorous couple… In keeping with the legend, cakoi are often made as two foot-long rolls of dough joined along the middle, with one roll representing the husband and the other the wife…

K, la… I want to eat first… Ciao…

Sorry man, I don’t get it…

What I Did Yesterday…

In me on June 7, 2008 at 12:30 am

According to the title, it’s clear that this post will not have much impact to anybody… 

Yesterday was refreshing… That’s all I can say… New resolution… New room arrangement… And apparently, I’ve got a new spokeperson… Thank you very much… xp…

If I can’t watch (may not have much sense to most of you guys)… Then what should I do? Hmm… I can read… I can listen… I can even play pokemon… Hehe…

Compared to what I can’t do… There’s literally thousands that I can do…

Just say it if you want to… Just say that I’m being childish or what… In fact I can see you guys playing pokemon in your rooms… Hehe… I just want to share this… My thirst for RPG game is finally, at the very least quenched by this game called Pokemon FireRed… It’s nowhere near Final Fantasy… But as a substitute, the adventure (actually an escapism) it provides is enough for me…

Macam mana Ditto nak lawan Ditto?

 

My best 6 (for now) pokemon… Together, we’ll bring down the elite four… And Mewtwo… And Red…

  • Dragonair
  • Gyarados – bred from a level 5 Magikarp… From zero to hero!!!
  • Dugtrio – magnitude!!!
  • Hypno – no surprise… hehe…
  • Onyx
  • Charizard
I know there are two water pokemons (Dragonair and Gyarados) but I just… Love them so very much… Firstly because both are dragons (and I plan to be a dragon master, xp)… Secondly because Gyarados (not Dragonair) look strong and both are strong…
Is there any psychic dragon? Just if any of you guys know…
K, enough about pokemon… Now I want to talk about Bio Paper 5…
Hmm… Just a reminder (To myself mostly)… Paper 5 is not as easy as it may seem… If it’s easy… I won’t get a D in the trials… It can also be a deciding factor whether I get an A or a B… Mr. Azman once said, every single mark counts… So I plan to scrap anything that I can lay my hands on…
Right now, I’ll just do a minimum of two past papers everyday… It’s not that much ain’t it?
Really, I don’t give a damn…

Books = People

In me, thoughts on June 6, 2008 at 8:41 pm

I love reading books… And I love to observe… Hmm… Well… People… But I never stalk, k?

I thought I can equate books to people… Because of these…

There are millions of books in this world…

Some are thick while some are thin…

They also came with so many categories… Just look at the MPH Book Store… Self help, religion, business, fiction, language and many more… Even if they are from the same category, their content are not the same… Sometimes the contents contradict each other too…

Some are serious while some are downright funny…

Background? Well, they came from different authors aren’t they? 

Books sometimes contain the truth… Sometimes they also contain lies and deceit…

Some have very beautiful cover, even when the content is not… Others, however, have simple paperback cover, but contain very enlightening information… I know it’s cliche but I still want to say these… There’s more than meets the eye… And don’t judge a book by it’s cover… Cliche it is, I tend to do the opposite…

They also come with different languages… 

We can never read all books in this world… Just like we won’t know everyone in this whole world… Even if we know them, we can never understand them…

I thought I can equate books to people… Because of the reasons above…

But I guess I was wrong…

Books don’t kill each other… Right now, I feel like doing so… Hehe…

Books don’t hate… But sometimes I do feel hate…

Books never get angry… Me? I guess at certain times…

Books have copies and can be copied… Apart from my own shadow and my own mirror image, no one can ever copy me perfectly… Hantu ghaye boleh le kot…

Books don’t judge… Me? Even when I tried not to… It’s easier said than done…

Books ≠ people…

Just For Laughs

In hehe, me on June 5, 2008 at 9:29 pm

Hehe… This one of the things that I remembered from the time when I was a really really young boy (8 or 9 or so)… Well, kids say the darndest things, aren’t they?

During weddings, my aunts and uncles used to come to me and poke me in the ribs and guffawing, telling me, “You’re next”… I thought it’s something normal to be said in any event… So I did the same to them during a funeral and at that time I wasn’t aware why did they stop poking me after that…

Now I know…

Even as for now, I’m still learning…

p/s: If you don’t think that the previous post have much sense… Neither do I… xp

Oh Meor…

In Bahasa Perak, me, monolog, nothin, thoughts on June 5, 2008 at 8:43 pm

IMPORTANT : IT is one too many…

From my observation, people love to be told things that they aren’t aware of… And they don’t like it if it’s the other way around… But I don’t mind… Known or not, never mind…

Hence, this post is for me, because I think everyone has already aware of this perfectly… If you still want to read it… You are most welcomed…

Oh Meor…

Why do you prefer to pick and choose when it came wholesome?… It’s complete for the past, for now and even for the future… It’ll never become obsolete… Why?

Teman tau le… Tapi kalo nak ikut die betoi-betoi… Payoh beno ghasenye…

Idok aih… Mane ade susohnye… Mau tak mau je…

Oh Meor…

Why do you still look at that? I know it’s small… But li’l by li’l it’s gonna be big… Don’t you remember? Sikit-sikit lama-lama jadi bukit…

Maen Pokemon lagi baguih…

Oh Meor… 

Do you realize how long has it been since you last read it? Too long that you can’t even remember, right?

Oh Meor…

Just one mouth but you talk too much, too loud of things better left unsaid… Of things too trivial and superficial…

Hmm, maleh la nak bisin-bisin…

Kubo sendiri, sendiri mau jage la kan?


*Sigh* Sume Bende Nak Naik…

In hehe, me on June 5, 2008 at 12:50 am

Ghege(Harge) minyak naik…

 

 

 

 

Ghege tepong naik…

 

 

 

 

Ghege gule naik…

 

 

 

 

Ghege sayo pun naik…

 

 

 

 

Tomato pun nak naik jugak?

 

Tomato, don’t be rude!!!

We’re The Happiest Of People!!!

In crap on June 5, 2008 at 12:31 am

Stolen from Wikipedia… Green indicates the happiest… While red indicates the least…

Then why so grumpy?

Udoh gaharu cendane pule

I know it’s not easy… With the exams and rising oil price…

But rest assured… He knows best

It’s not our position but our disposition that makes us happy…

Re(Reformat)

In me on June 4, 2008 at 4:19 pm

My paranoia of having my laptop running smoothly and virus-free took its toll again…

Surprise surprise… My computer is once more attacked by a virus… Well, I don’t think it’s a virus actually… Maybe something has messed up with the registry…

So I was having this problem… Whenever I close down something that’s opened with explorer, regardless if it’s My Document or Program Files, an error message will come out… Then the taskbar will refresh and all startups will come out, except for download manager… Which is a nuisance because I can’t download anything if I accidentally closed a window… So I was like having 4 windows almost all the time…

Which is a nuisance… I tried everything… Every single software under the sun… But I found nothing… So I guess, desperate times call for desperate measures…

Need to reformat… Need to reformat…

Luckily I’ve stored everything(Installers, anti virus, pictures, movies, songs and games) into D: and my external… So I simply pressed F10 during rebooting and happily(tawa dalam tangisan) clicked “Restore System Drive”…

There the story goes… Second formatting in the span of 1 month… Fuh… Gimme a break!!! Please…

Come and get me, ugly virus!!!

Send It To An Island!!!

In crap, me, self pity, thoughts on June 4, 2008 at 12:03 pm

Me and my friends’ messenger status:

“susahnye Math…”

“what the fish!”

“mengapa begitu susah?”

P3 was hard… Simply put it was h.a.r.d.

I just want to give a middle finger salute to the paper (I know it’s innocent)… Sorry for the profanity…

Hmm… Maleh le nak bisin-bisin (bising-bising)…

T.T… Betullah… Kalau suke-suke sangat, mesti nak nangis…

p/s : The paper self-banished to CIE… Chance of saving? 2/10… Because unless if you have money, willing to pay and want to re-check your paper later, say bye-bye to the paper…

Meor Potter And Solving e^x + e^2x = e^3x

In hehe, me, thoughts on June 4, 2008 at 12:02 pm

Meor Potter fought he-who-must-not-be-named bravely, even though he knew that his chances are 50-50… Blazes of fire and lightning passed through the air… Towards he-who-must-not-be-named, he casted a few spells, only to be deflected by Matherrorio… With his broom, he took off to the sky above and due to gravity, he dived, lunging towards he-who-must-not-be-named… Remembering the counter-spells for the three forbidden curses (refer to previous post) in his mind, he continue his dive while yelling, “Expecto Vektorium!!!”.

Flashes of light followed by a deafening explosions… Meor Potter hovered around the sky… He looked for traces of his enemy but his view is smeared by the smoke… He thought that he surely has got he-who-must-not-be-named for sure this time…

Suddenly, someone (Which of course, is he-who-must-not-be-named) yelled, “Wingardium Verisusakh!!!” It’s a new curse developed by he-who-must-not-be-named with one sole purpose, to defeat his nemesis, Meor Potter… Almost instantly, a beam of pulsing light cuts through the smoke, darting towards the unsuspecting Meor Potter… Surprised, Meor Potter’s body became numb and he failed to dodge the curse…It hit him at point blank… In his eyes, Meor Potter saw sparks of light, then darkness, then… Nothing…

Kalo nak buat pon tak dapat, macam mane nak careless? Macam mane nak over-confident? Macam mane nak terlupe?

Down, but never out!!!

Meor Potter And The Differentiation Of ln x

In hehe, me, thoughts on June 3, 2008 at 7:13 pm

Thanks Opal(my cousin)… You gave me idea!!!

This morning Meor Potter woke up a li’l later than Syuruk… He woke up full of guilt… He went to his cupboard and took his watch… It says 3rd of June… Suddenly he felt goosebumps and started to shiver…

Why?

He didn’t forget… But the thought of tomorrow being the ‘day’ freaks him out… The day he’ll have to face he-who-must-not-be-named… One of the big bosses lurking and terrorizing the level of A, the country where Meor Potter and his friends live…

After qadaing his prayer, he quickly practiced with his wand… His wand is not like other people’s which usually has hair as core… His has the core called knowledge… Together with a flying broom (namely fx-570MS), he practiced fighting against bosses from the past (which are captured beforehand by his teacher, Professor B)… He cast spells such as integracio and differencio… Not to forget, he also has mastered substituting his enemy into parts using the spell integracio… He loved the most when he defeated an enemy by dividing them into partial fractions, only to expand them using binomiallo… However, he is still not confident in conjuring loci over complex enemies… All in all, Meor Potter didn’t believe that he can easily defeat he-who-must-not-be-named… That’s why, the moment you’re reading this, he went to see the ‘master’, Nazri Granger…

Even if Meor Potter prepared himself for this, he should be wary of the capabilities of he-who-must-not-be-named… With forbidden curses such as Carelessiatus, Avada Forgottara and Over-Confideus, Meor Potter will fail, if he lets the curses hit him… He-who-must-not-be-named is also well known for its ruthlessness…

That’s why even with all the preparations he still needs the prayers of all of you… So he and all his companions will go pass he-who-must-not-be-named with flying colours… He needs them!!!

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Propaganda

In me, plagiarized, thoughts on June 2, 2008 at 9:44 pm

Firstly… Sorry if this post is too long… But I really want to share this with all of you…

Propa? Speku? Have you ever heard of these words uttered by someone? Hehe… Today, even as P3 is around the corner, I decided to write about this… I read about this in a political blog, so I decided to digest the article and try to remove any essence of bias in the original post… So I finally came up with this…

‘Us’ vs ‘Them’

Propaganda… How does it works? How can it poison the minds of the whole nation? Even with her intellectuals, professionals and elites… Propaganda can unite the whole country as one… As a unit, the people is no longer people… Collectively they are a mob.. And an angry mob is the last thing that you want to mess with… Individuals think, but mob… Cannot… And I don’t think it wants too…

But as easy as it is to create a mob… It is also as easy to make it crumble to its knees… Well, considering the fluid nature of a mob… If one piece drops, the whole mob loses it’s energy, as the domino starts to fall… Hehe… This is what I read from In Dubious Battle by John Steinbeck… A brilliant book… Simply moving…

Back to propaganda… It works by appealing to three things… Narcissism, tribalism and emotionalism… It plays with our most animalistic instincts… It does not appeal to our better nature, although one of the purposes of propaganda is to convince us it does… It pretends to appeal to our reason, when in fact it appeals to our most primitive emotions… As perception travels through the emotional brain first, and sadly, to the rational brain last… But thank god for that too… Because that (the rational brain) separates us human from animals… 

Well this is true for me…I often wake up in the morning and between conscious and unconscious, I felt so weak, melancholic and useless… That’s the moment I’m closest to committing suicide… Hehe… Trust me on this… If you think you’re one of the intellectuals who claim to think rationally all the time… I disagree… Even the coolest of people lose it sometimes… Well, this happened in front of me… xp

Tribalism… Usually we’ll establish a leader for everything… A group, a family, a class, a house, a nation… All have its hierarchy, rules and taboos… In psychology, the need for us to look to a leader to take care of us is one of the most firmly established of its many principles… Regarding tribalism and rules, those who breaks the law or refuse to follow are often punished or ostracized… And even, kicked out of the group…

How words like ‘Destroy’ seems so casual…

Narcissism simply is about our innate nature to devalue other things or other tribes as bad and flawed… In propaganda, two extremes are created… With nothing in between… Words used are “the nation”, “the motherland”, “the greatest nation”, “the people” are used against “the evil”, “the insane”, “the tyranny”, “the traitor”, “the animal”… When the enemy is deemed as not quite human, no wonder it’s easier to kill them… Which makes war seem legitimate… Seen as an act of ‘cleansing’ the world…

Finally… When you combine those three concepts, you have the basis for all propaganda… The leader will tell his (or her) people their goodness is under attack by insane, evil people who want to destroy them, they will react just like animals and attack… And full scale war erupts… At times like those emotion usually will take full control… For example, the Nazi noticed all you had to do to get people to march off to war is for the leaders to tell them they were under attack… Then denounce protesters as traitors exposing the tribe to danger… In fear, the people would slander, ostracize and expel the protesters… Slaughter all these ‘traitors’ and go straight to war…

All in all… In propagating war… A leader…

…Will tell the herd they are the Humans, or the People, or best of all, have God on their side… Paint their enemies as insane and evil… Again, this would appeal to people’s narcissism, the tendency to see everything as either good (us) or evil (them)… And importantly, nothing in between… Instill paranoia and hysteria in them by convincing them the insane evil ones want to destroy them… What will happen? You can get them to march off to war by the millions, just as Goering of the Nazi noticed… The truth doesn’t matter, only the manipulation of perception… 

Goering quoted :

 “Naturally the common people don’t want war; neither in Russia, nor in England, nor in America, nor in Germany. That is understood. But after all, it is the leaders of the country who determine policy, and it is always a simple matter to drag the people along, whether it is a democracy, or a fascist dictatorship, or a parliament, or a communist dictatorship. Voice or no voice, the people can always be brought to the bidding of the leaders. That is easy. All you have to do is to tell them they are being attacked, and denounce the pacifists for lack of patriotism and exposing the country to danger. It works the same in any country.”

To make it as simple as possible, everything that is needed for a successful propaganda campaign can be summed up in those three words I have mentioned before… Emotionalism, tribalism and narcissism…

We con ourselves we are so advanced… We ‘think’ we are… In reality, the human race is still stuck in 10,000 BC, except there’s no Camilla Belle in a fur clothing… hehe… A flick of the wand of propaganda, then emotion will take control…

So, think rationally…

Hehe… Cakap senang le…

Winning In Losing

In Rhythm, me, thoughts on June 2, 2008 at 7:23 pm

Winning is ‘good’, but losing is ‘good for you’…

Sape-sape yang tengok Hachimitsu to Kuroba mesti tau… Kalo meke ingat le…

Like when encountering a bear in the wild… Instead of striving and fighting the bear to win over it, people say it’s better to pretend dead… Or in other way, lose to win yourself your life…

Be a winner in a losing game…

Bisingnye… (People Who I Want To Send To An Island)

In crap, me, thoughts on June 2, 2008 at 1:27 pm

Hmm… Why must these juniors come up here and make a ruckus? Sensitivity… Nearly non existent… Noise… It’s their expertise…

Kang aku tampal jugak mulot diorang ni…

Kang aku hanta korang dekat pulau asing…

It’s not like you never made noise in the public library…

Oh… So it’s an eye for an eye? Is it?

Wanted to send them to the island but as the break is over, they self-banished themselves to their respective classes…

Fuh…

Maybe that’s why we create rooms… And furnish them with tables and chairs… So that we can study in the chalet… 

And also, maybe that’s why mp3 players are invented… So we can blast it and shut our ears from the commotion the world provides…

I’m not mad… Just angry… At least I didn’t get physical nor… personal…

Anger and guilt are like fork and spoon…

Chance of being saved (out of ten) : 5 (They might or might not come back upstairs and terrorize life again…)

T.T

In Him, family, song on June 2, 2008 at 2:07 am

I tried to put some widget but to no avail… So I guess, I’ll just put the link to eSnips, just in case, if you guys want to download this song…

1, 2, 3, 4 – Aris Ariwatan

Satu

Kasih nan abadi

Tiada tandingi

Dia yang satu

 

Dua

Sayang berpanjangan

Membawa ke syurga

Kasihnya ibu

 

Tiga

Lapar dan dahaga

Rela berpayahan

Setianya ayah

 

Empat

Mudah kau ketemu

Berhati selalu

Beza antara

Kasih dan kekasih

 

Ibu

Ku ingat dahulu

Menyisir rambutku

Kemas selalu

 

Ayah

Menghantar ke sekolah

Bergunalah ilmu

Bila dewasa

 

Sayang

Dengar lagu ini

Untuk kau sandarkan

Buat pedoman

 

Jangan

Manis terus ditelan

Pahit terus dibuang

Itu bidalan

Harus kau renungkan

 

Andai

Kau beroleh bahagia

Ingat itu bukan

Untuk selamanya

 

Andai

Kau dalam sengsara

Ingat itu bukan

Untuk selamanya

Hidup ini sementara

Adoi… Sedihnye lagu ni… 

Hidup ini sementara…

Change

In Rhythm, me, self pity, song, thoughts on June 1, 2008 at 8:52 pm

Hmm… I’m not really in the mood for writing right now… Not with my eyes still hurt and emotion still running wild… Hehe… 

Abeh tu ape he kamu tulih jugok ni?

Entoh le…

Change is good… Because it is… … … Simply good!!! Hehe… Butterfly is a good example…

From an egg, it hatches a caterpillar… The caterpillar then eat, eat, eat and eat… Initially it’s small… Now it’s big and strong… As the time comes, it changes again… Temporarily, so it can later be magnificent… Now it’s a pupa… It lays low inside the cocoon… Doing nothing… Maybe just thinking… Reminiscing… I don’t know, I’m never a butterfly… Hehe…

After quite a while, when it’s ready… It transforms again… Into a butterfly… A very, very beautiful butterfly…

 

Butterfly, well you landed on my mind 
Dammit you landed on my ear and then you crawled inside 
Now I see you perfectly behind closed eyes 
I wanna fly with you and I don’t wanna lie to you 
Cause I, cause I can’t recall a better days 
I’m coming to shine on the occasion 

Butterfly, Jason Mraz

 

Fly, fly, fly, butterfly!!!

~ Self Pity ~

In crap, me, monolog, self pity on June 1, 2008 at 8:27 pm

Please don’t read this… Please don’t…

So finally, the mind speaks to the heart… Or in other people’s term… Self pity… You guys don’t have to read this, if you don’t want to… I’m hurt for so long… I need to write this here…

To those who are having a very good time all the time, up till now… I’m not trying to scare you… But my mere 20 years life have told me one thing… Life is tough… To those who haven’t felt it yet… Wait… Emak always tell me, “Ha, suke la sangat… Nak nangis la tu”… I don’t know… This, for me, is miraculously true… This sadly, makes me wary, even when I’m happy… 

To those who can still laugh up till now (Fortunately, including me)…

Dear Meor,

Savour the happiness while you can… You must not expect happiness… Prepare for the worst… Because it’s not something you deserve… When life goes well, it’s a sudden gift, it can’t last forever… So treasure the gift while you can…

But life is not unfair… Meor, deep inside, I know you are crying… Maybe not out in the public, but rather in your room or even just in your heart… Within the the confinement of the room, the warmth of your comforter and the support of the mattress… But worry not… The time will come for you to smile again…

“Tapi bile?”

Only time will tell… Whatever it is that makes you cry… Better make your tears worth falling for it… Better make worth of your puffy eyes… Make worth of your plugged nose… And what’s more important is for you to pick yourself up from every fall, Meor…

Lastly, hope is a good thing… There’s nothing wrong with hoping…

Random

In Poem, Rhythm, me, thoughts on June 1, 2008 at 1:50 pm

Yesterday I learned to play ping pong… I noticed that it’s not much different from tennis, only that it requires less strength… In ping pong also, players don’t have to move as much… I also learned that in ping pong,in order to know how to play (let alone to master) the game, staying calm is paramount… Quoting Kim, “Stay cool”…

Yesterday also, emak, ayah, opah, Khalis, Hanis, Wazif and Iqah came to visit me from their trip to Langkawi… Got some t-shirts and a healthy amount of chocolate products… The visit was brief, maybe due to the fact that ayah needs to reach home fast so that he can rest and recover… Also, got some much needed money… xp… Thanks emak! Thanks ayah! Thanks opah!

Yesterday also, my iTunes has a problem… Some files are missing it says… Maybe, just maybe (bukan dengan nada mungkin), it’s because I installed MPC Star (which deletes all codecs for Quicktime, in turn affects iTunes…)… Or maybe it’s because my Spybot deleted some essential registry… Hence, maybe I just need to uninstall and reinstall iTunes… Thank god it worked… And I didn’t lose any playlist at all…

About exams… First of all, friends… Please move on… Because if we don’t, society will still move on… The world is not going to stop… If we stop then we’ll be left alone… Do change things that we can and leave what we can’t to Him… It’s the hard cold fact… They say life is a m***** *****r… Much apology for the vulgarity…

I can see the storm… They call it P3…

Hmm… I can see the storm coming this sailor’s way… Observing the rain clouds from the deck, I don’t know if the lone ship can withstand the tide…

I’m Not Sure, but the Ship Is

By Meor Muhammad Muslih

I’ll never know whether the stern of focus will hold or not,

I don’t know if the hold can store enough supply of knowledge,

I can’t be sure if the hull of focus won’t be tempted by the rocking waves,

I’m not sure if the rudder of idea will lead this sailor to his much needed, desired destination,

I can’t tell if the masts of understanding and confidence will prevail the gust of doubt and callousness,

But I do know one thing… This ship must move forward,

And best the rainstorm… Just like it always did before…

 

Sorry if it does not have much sense to any of you… And sorry too, if I bored you all… Much apology for any of you who had to endure my ramblings… hehe…

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Write to express, not to impress…

Difference

In me, monolog, thoughts on May 31, 2008 at 11:31 am

In biology, I learned about biodiversity… Which essentially means variety between species… And also variety within the same species… So morphologically, physically and metabolically, a species differs from another species… In these differences, there is harmony…

Like human, there are different races… Colored and non colored (Even though if you’re colorless you’re transparent)… The straight haired and the not so… Hehe… The oriental eyed and the big eyed… Some may be small and timid while the other might have a big body build-up…

We don’t have to look too far to see this ‘phenomenon’… In my chalet, there are four people… Four very very different people… For starters, we all came from different backgrounds… In my room there are one from Ipoh, one from KL, one from Johor and one from Selayang…

From my observation (I tried to be objective in this), I lived with someone who knows not how to be angry… There is also one who is so poyo at times, but is a very good listener… Not to miss, one who somehow doubt himself at times (from what I see) but always scored in exams… Me? I don’t really have much say in how I fared in this department… Well, those are just a few differences we had among dozens others…

Actually if we are looking for difference, than that’s what we’ll find… Now let us look on similarities between my chalet-mates…

Hmm…

Hmm…

Huh…

Susoh jugok sebenonye nak caghi kesamaan ni ye… Tapi kalau nak diikotkan, ade je…

Ahha!!!

One thing that we have in common is that all four of us love Honey Stars… We’ll usually eat it together in the common room… Complete with milk and sometimes drinks… When it comes to stuffing in our stomaches, we put aside our differences… Well, effortlessly… (I don’t think I ever noticed that we’re somewhat different from each other)

Secondly, we used to love dancing… Inspired by Step Up 2, there are nights when we will shut the light, close the curtains, locked the door and let the music blasts… We’ll make moves and taunts… Which are most of the times stupid and embarrassing… But we did it anyways… Hmm… Missed those days… Now we didn’t do it no more… Not because of our differences… Instead it’s because of the need to focus on the exams and unavailability of good music to dance to…

So I guess differences don’t really hurt ain’t it? In fact it provides variety… Quoting Topan, “Lagi banyak attitude lagi bagus… Lagi banyak to be picked and chose from” Well, at least in a micro scale such as my chalet… I don’t know (and don’t want to know… xp…) about what happened in other chalets…

But this world is not a fairy tale (nor it a chalet tale)… In other parts of the world, differences are magnified and often used as an instrument for propaganda, for one’s own end, for fueling hatred… Difference can fuel hate and… Well, you do the projection… But what I fear the most is that I can see droplets of ‘difference’ gasoline being put into the flame of hatred by mainstream media… If any of you noticed… A known news paper has recently feed the people with the mentality of you vs me… The articles clearly forced Malaysians to pick sides… When the sides are actually creation of the emotional, not intellectual part of the human mind…

Tapi sebenonye teman takut kalau teman tak leh fly… Pase tsunami politik sekaghang ni memang melibatkan sume oghang… Berseranggoh!!!

Find similarities in differences, not further detailed differences within differences…

Maen Hujan…

In hehe, me on May 31, 2008 at 4:23 am

…memang best!!!

Hehe…

Thanks to Najib who took this picture… And thanks too to Wan for the camera…

Mr. Mraz Did It Again… (For me, at least…)

In lagha, me, music on May 30, 2008 at 11:54 am

We Sing We Dance We Steal Things

This is the latest album from Jason Mraz @ Mr. A-Z… Which I’ve been anticipating for quite a while… Since he released the first EP of I’m Yours, I’ve been waiting for this to come out… And finally it is out!!!

For any fans of Mraz or people who used to listen to his music, this latest installment might give surprises… Firstly, the second track “I’m Yours” (which is released waaaay earlier) is rejuvenated with some reggae style singing and music… And I personally love this new version… It’s more upbeat and energetic…

And Secondly because, in comparison to Waiting for My Rocket to Come and Mr. A-Z… There’s less emphasis on the guitar… And more usage of techno and funky music… And horns and harps too (If my ears are correct)… Which I believe deviates his genre from being Indie to Pop (a little, not entirely)… But his music is still definitely contemporary… With the way he used his mouth to give beats (Like pa rappa pa pap pa… hehe)… All in all, his music and lyrics are still his… Like Kim said, “He’s a music genius”… Can’t agree more…

Moreover, his collaboration with Colbie Caillat and James Morrison are sterling… Like in biology, cross pollination promotes heterozygosity… Hence promote hybrid vigour… Like in this album, it worked wonders…

I don’t care if people said that Mraz has lost his ‘Indie’ touch… For me he didn’t lose anything… He simply evolved… For the better, obviously…

Favourite track? All of them…

Random…

In Bahasa Perak, Him, me, plagiarized, thoughts on May 30, 2008 at 11:09 am

Alhamdulillah… Chemistry finally came to its end, well, as far as A Level is concerned… I bet there’ll be more Chemistry ahead… Waiting for me somewhere (If I manage to get there)…

So how did it (the practical paper) went? I can say it went wrong now… I can say it went well too… But in the end, the result that will come out later that matters… Like Najib (bukan Najib Razak, tapi Awang Najib) said, “Tengoklah result nanti”…

Today I want to talk about nothing in specific… Well, generally what I’m gonna write is about a man’s/woman’s worth… And what determines it?

First of all, I’m going to clarify that man/his/him that I’m gonna use beyond this point doesn’t refer solely to man… Where applicable, it might be used to represent both sexes… I’m no sexist… I’m just too lazy to write man/woman, his or her, him or her, he or she… So bear with it…

K, back to business…

Let us calculate the composition of a standard human body… 60% of the human body is water… The remaining 40% consists of proteins which are largely made of carbon, hydrogen, oxygen, traces of phosphorus, calcium, zinc, copper and nitrogen… This 40% is used to form our eyeball, muscles, organs and brains…

I noticed that most of the materials needed are free…  Water, carbon, nitrogen, hydrogen, nitrogen and oxygen are all free… The rest all can be obtained or bought from Pasar Malam… Some spinach and lettuce will do… If we buy in bulk, the seller might introduce some discount due to second degree price discrimination (may not make sense to anyone, but this is what a friend (future accountant) told me)… So instead of RM 220, we may end up spending only RM200…

Due ghatoih(ratus)? Mughoh beno… Kambeng kat kampong teman pon lagi mahe(mahal)… Sekor, lime ghatoih(ratus)…

What then, is the worth of a person in this world? Like Osama Laden, is it $25 million (Due to his bounty)? Or maybe $250 million for David Beckham (His L.A. Galaxy contract)? Is Beckham then, worth more than any other person in this world? Is Beckham any better than a doctor who saves lives… Or is he any better than a biotechnologist who will design a cure for AIDS (Insyaallah)? What is Beckham’s worth when compared to a teacher? No… They are incomparable…

Conclusively… I guess you all know already what’s the worth of a man… It’s obvious… And I hope you all are aware we can never say that “I’m better than him…” or it’s permutations… And I also hope that you know that our measure of someone’s worth is worthless compared to His measurement…

Oh Lord, forgive me, for I have sinned…

Baba’s

In hehe, me on May 30, 2008 at 10:07 am

Baba’s serbuk kari ikan serta ayam dan juga kambing,

Baba’s tepung kuih-muih yang sungguh enak sekali,

Baba’s memang sudah terkenal di seluruh Malaysia… (This is the part that Jalur Gemilang came out in the adverts)

Baba’s…..

 

Hmm… This is the song that’s currently loved by me and my chalet-mates… Hehe… Lyrics is courtesy of Mior…

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My Kryptonite

In me, thoughts on May 29, 2008 at 1:03 am

My kryptonite is not my boo… Hehe… I don’t even have a boo, by the way…

 

When I say that I’m weakened by the thing that the person did, It can be funny to some and unacceptable to the other, but I truly feel weak too… Literally… I do…

Which leads me to making fun of this person… BEHIND this person’s back… Day in day out… This person is my source for laughter and jokes… I’ve made fun of every aspect of this person’s life (well… Almost…)… I never thought of this person like other people – emotional, normal human being… Just because of that funny thing… I forgot…

Then came yesterday morning…

It feels very bad when a person who you made fun of all the times, turned out to be one of the people who cared about you… Who wants to know what’s happening in your life… Who cared to know… Who took the time to sit down and talk to you…

Sorry… 

I’m still learning…

Don’t Look Away…

In Poem, hehe, me, thoughts on May 29, 2008 at 12:40 am

Because it hurts… 

 

As you passed, quickly…

Time paused, agonizingly…

Expecting something,

But I’m getting nothing…

Hoping to see your face,

Your back that’s in place…

 

Hmm…

 

Heading opposite directions,

As we become nearer, there’s commotion,

I looked and you can too,

But you chose not to…

 

Why?

 

Turn to me,

So I can see…

Your face…

Your gaze…

If there’s a sweet smile,

Instead of a penetrating gaze

I can smile back… And be relieved…

 

Doesn’t make any sense? Hehe… It never meant to have sense!!! As long as I understand it, it’s perfect!!!

We learn much from the disagreeable things people say, as they make us think, whereas the good things only make us glad, nothing more… 

Badminton and Tennis

In badminton, me, thoughts on May 28, 2008 at 10:59 pm

Today, officially it’s my sixth time (if memory serves) playing tennis in this college… Once at my old school in Cheras… Back then, I thought it’d be my first and last time playing tennis, when I sent the ball over the fence, into the bush, never to be found… Hehe… So, in total I’ve played tennis 7 times…

K, back to business… First of all, I am not comparing this to racket game in terms of their gameplay… I just want to outline their little differences… That’s all… They are both awesome in their own way… And I want to master both… I want to enjoy both…

One stark difference between playing badminton and tennis is their pace… Honestly, in badminton, the game is fast paced and at times abrupt… On the other hand, while I was playing tennis, time seems to slow down dramatically… I don’t know why… I guess tennis is slower compared to badminton… It’s obvious as badminton needs greater reflex in comparison to tennis…

Some data I manage to steal in the internet… Statistics don’t lie… But the people who made the statistic might be clouded in their judgement (What I learn in Sociology)…

At the 1985 All England (Tennis) Championships, Boris Becker defeated Kevin Curren 6-3, 6-7, 7-6, 6-4. At the 1985 World Badminton Championships in Calgary, Canada, Han Jian of China defeated Morten Frost of Denmark, 14-18, 15-10, 15-8. The following is a statistical comparison of those matches:

Time: Tennis, 3 hours and 18 minutes. Badminton, 1 hour and 16 minutes.

Ball/Shuttle in Play: Tennis, 18 minutes. Badminton, 37 minutes.

Rallies: Tennis 299. Badminton, 146.

Shots: Tennis, 1,004. Badminton, 1,972.

Shots Per Rally: Tennis, 3.4. Badminton, 13.5.

Distance Covered: Tennis, 2 miles. Badminton, 4 miles.

Badminton player played half the time, yet ran twice the distance, if you noticed…

But what tennis lacks in pace and stamina, it makes up with strength… Tennis racket is waaaaaaay heavier… There’s one time when I went to the MPH to play badminton after playing tennis… The badminton racket becomes so light, as light as if it is made of paper… Moreover, to hit an incoming tennis ball, you’ll need more might to send the ball over the net, while at the same time enduring the impact from the ball… In badminton, you can engage in a net play… Which significantly uses less strength… The only time you need real strength in badminton is when you’re smashing or doing back hand…

All in all… For me, while playing tennis there’s more joy when the ball is sent over the net… May be because I’m still new in tennis… A small step like that seemed like a giant leap…

I am not saying that one sport is better than the other… This is all about personal choices, about what kind of sports will fit each individual… So, if you love both, both it is… After all, variety is the spice of life…

A little piece of advice… If you want to play both, start with tennis first… Because in my case (the other way around), it didn’t went too well…

Am I bored of badminton? Maybe… Maybe not… Is there any joy left in it? Definitely!!!

Parents’ Wish (Must Watch)

In me, plagiarized, thoughts on May 28, 2008 at 4:20 pm

T.T…

Another good e-mail from Mrs Iffath Hasan…

This slideshow is soooooo sad… I’m never a fan of Josh Groban, but this song of his fits the slideshow… It breaks my heart… Please visit it… It’s important… For me, at least…

These wishes of theirs should be known by us all along… Should… But sometimes, reminders are needed… Because as a human, we always forget…

T.T

Two More To Go!!!

In Bahasa Perak, announcement, event, me, self pity, thoughts, you on May 28, 2008 at 4:05 pm

Alhamdulillah, at least three things went fine today, if not all… (One is still going on while I’m writing this)…

Oh lord, alhamdulillah for giving me the consciousness and sensibility to check and re-check my answers…

On both occasions (Chemistry P4 and M1), there were ten minutes left and by then only I realized my mistakes… Coincidence? Nah… God doesn’t play with coincidences…

I have nothing to say actually… Today is uneventful, excluding things that I prefer to keep to myself… Except for Miss (walaupon sebenonye die doh kawen) Shree reminded me to spread the words that as reaction kinetics didn’t come out today it might (no promises) come out later in the next paper…

Looking at the nature of reaction kinetics, it’s highly likely that it’s popular to come out as a practical question… (This is my just humble opinion, NOT Miss Shree’s, k?… So kalau nak maghoh(marah) nanti, maghoh teman… Usoh(usah) maghoh Miss Shree) However, she also reminded me (and all of you too) to not neglect other things as well… Be prepared for everything but be extra prepared for reaction kinetics…

This timid blog has little to no ability to spread the words… So if you guys don’t mind, please tell other people so that they can benefit from this information too, k?…

Why?

Doakan Kami…

In me, thoughts on May 27, 2008 at 10:10 am

Tomorrow, we, all the Chemistry students will be facing a monster (or big boss) called Chemistry… If all goes well and there’s a need for it, then we’ll have to meet another small boss, M1…

Swords, are yet to be polished… But it will be… hehe… Hopefully in time…

Skills, refined and refined… Again and again after years of countless battles…

Horses… Hoofs replaced… Saddles fastened, secured… 

Shield… Scarred but steady… Withstanding…

Armor… Heavy… Blindingly shining… 

Hehe… I’m far from ready… Just want to create the feel and elevate my confidence level…

Lastly… Pray for us… This paper is the turning point of everything…

Sometimes I wonder why are the birds singing… Today I finally got my answer… They are happy and cheerful… They feel alive… They don’t care about it’s still 5 in the morning… They don’t care that my alarm still has not gone off…

All in all, they are enjoying life…

Even if it rains… They can simply wait so they can sing again…

God knows better…

Dah… Gi study!!!

ENCORE : Smile!!!

In me, thoughts on May 26, 2008 at 5:42 pm

From the archive of M for Mucim, presenting… *Drum roll*

 

Ala Meor… Kalau meke udoh maleh tu kabo je le… Tok soh le meke beralasan lagi…

 

Genuine, sincere Smile is the noblest attire a man can have… You cannot compare it to all the branded clothes… Nike, Adidas, Gucci, Louis Vuitton, Von Dutch… Just name it, all the designer brands…

 

Smiling is a language that exists in every language in this world; you can naturally understand what it is in his head when you see an African aborigine smiles and even when a German smiles… You don’t need to actually know and understand the language to know that they are happy… For me the feeling of knowing that someone is happy, instantly makes me feels the same way… Which ended up with me smiling also…

 

Smile, grin, smirk, beam, they are all synonyms… Smile is a form of sedekah in Islam… By smiling you lose nothing but in return you gain a damned lot… You gain pahala, you yourselves can be happy, people can be happy as well… Smile does not consume a lot of your time, but sometimes the memory of it lasts forever…

Call them what you want… They are just the same… They are smiles…

Even when you are sad or in trouble, please smile even though people will think that you are maybe crazy… So what? What can their thoughts do? Smiling when you are in trouble shows that your inner-self is strong… It shows perseverance… It can perk up the weary, brings cheer to the discouraged, a sunshine to the sad and it is nature’s best antidote for trouble…

 

Hmmm…

 

Lastly, you cannot buy, beg, ask, borrow or steal a smile from somebody… That shows the value of a smile… When somebody smiles to you, you will return that smile… When other people saw you smiling at each other, he or she will start to smile too… Smile is a contagious disease… Supposedly… So spread this disease…

Chup! Coca-Cola~ Yeah~

In Bahasa Perak, health, me, thoughts on May 26, 2008 at 2:09 am

Tak nak!!!

One night… Two friends went to the vending machine… They then bought a canned tea and a can of Coca-Cola… Both of them went back to enjoy their drinks…

Then come another friend of theirs… The one who’s having Coca-Cola offered him the drink… Suddenly he said… I felt guilty drinking this… The one who’s offering it asked, “Why?”

He then said about Coca-Cola contributing some of their profits in helping Israel in building their military might… He said that he felt like he’s killing and hurting Palestinians for every penny spent on Coca-Cola… He ended up declining the offer…

Hehe… That’s what happened tonight in my chalet… Mior refused my offer because of the fear of hurting fellow Muslim brothers and sisters… This event really made me think… Very deeply… Next, came guilt…

Before this, I’ve received e-mail about boycotting American products for they have links with Israel… Honestly, I never took them by heart… Because no one ever did what Mior did to me and to himself… He declined my offer and stated the reasons… Right on my face!!! I guess, this is one of the many lessons learned the hard way… hehe…

Thanks Mior… Thanks soooooo very much!!!

I then googled about this… Just to seek information on this issue… To make things clear… Here are my findings…

What should I do? Should I trust Snopes which has been very helpful up till now? Or should I trust and official statement by Coca-Cola? Or should I trust the alternatives?                                                                   
Boleh je kalau Snopes tu nak tipu… Kalau tak betul la cerite ni, orang takkan bising kot…

I find this situation largely political… It’s amazing to see how people make everything political you know? Global warming, war, food shortage, natural disaster and now a beverage named Coca-Cola…                            
If the fact that Coke may have made Palestinians suffer still can’t stop you from consuming it, let’s look at what happen when you drink Coca-Cola… According to science… Perhaps you’ll consider not drinking Coke anymore… I found this when I was looking for evidence that Coca-Cola supports Israel… Which made me think even more…                                                                                                                                                  
In The First 10 minutes: 10 teaspoons of sugar hit your system. (100% of your recommended daily intake.) You don’t immediately vomit from the overwhelming sweetness because phosphoric acid cuts the flavor allowing you to keep it down.                                                                                                                              
20 minutes: Your blood sugar spikes, causing an insulin burst. Your liver responds to this by turning any sugar it can get it’s hands on into fat. (There’s plenty of that at this particular moment)                                   
40 minutes: Caffeine absorption is complete. Your pupils dilate, your blood pressure rises, as a response your livers dumps more sugar into your bloodstream. The adenosine receptors in your brain are now blocked preventing drowsiness.                                                                                                                           
45 minutes: Your body ups your dopamine production stimulating the pleasure centers of your brain. This is physically the same way heroin works, by the way.                                                                                         
>60 minutes: The phosphoric acid binds calcium, magnesium and zinc in your lower intestine, providing a further boost in metabolism. This is compounded by high doses of sugar and artificial sweeteners also increasing the urinary excretion of calcium.                                                                                                           
>60 Minutes: The caffeine’s diuretic properties come into play. (It makes you have to pee.) It is now assured that you’ll evacuate the bonded calcium, magnesium and zinc that was headed to your bones as well as sodium, electrolyte and water.                                                                                                                             
>60 minutes: As the rave inside of you dies down you’ll start to have a sugar crash. You may become irritable and/or sluggish. You’ve also now, literally, pissed away all the water that was in the Coke. But not before infusing it with valuable nutrients your body could have used for things like even having the ability to hydrate your system or build strong bones and teeth.                                                                                      
Tak kesoh le… Pase Israel ke, pase bahaya ke… Teman berazam beno nak ghentikan minom ayo coke ni…
Nothing excessive is good…

Kain Pelikat

In Bahasa Malaysia, hehe, me, monolog, real time, thoughts on May 25, 2008 at 1:28 pm

Kain Pelikat… Kain Sarong… Kain… Kaen… Longyi (in Myanmar)… Kain Sarung… Whatever… They’re all the same… They are a large sheet of fabric that’s usually wrapped around the waist… It’s a skirt in most westerners’ eyes…

Talking about skirt… It can be long and short… For men, example of short skirts are like scottish and celtic kilts and malay sampin… Long skirts, on the other hand, are our Kaen Pelikat, Indians’ Mundu and Madagascar’s lamba… More over, it’s also popular among women too… In Malaysia, my emak can be an example… In the west, female swimmers use it as a cover-up over swimwear…

Conclusively, it’s global and unisex… There’s no need for hesitation if you want to wear it… Because the whole world is wearing it anyway… Sadly, one thing that I notice is that wearing Kain Pelikat raises eyebrows, even in Malaysia… There was an occasion when my father and I had to go out at near midnight to Bank Islam near Masjid Jamek… Because he needed to deposit some important cheques… And people looked at us in amazement, just because we’re wearing pagodas and Kain Pelikat… Hmm… Malehlah nak cakap… Buat sakit ati je… I know it’s KL but it’s home too… It’s 30 minutes to midnight and they expected us to dress to heavens? 

Bukannye nak tayang dekat akad blok pun… (Reaksi penulis apabila ditego oleh akak kafe, berkenaan kaen pelikat yang dipake(pakai)nye) Teman pon tau bateh-bateh(batas-batas)nye…

Let me clarify… I’m not mad… Both of us (in both ocassions, me and my dad and me and akak kafe) had a good laugh, actually…

Hehe… Kain Pelikat I believe, is the epitome of practicality, if Ralph Lauren is the epitome of classic fashion… With Kain Pelikat, you simply wrapped it around your lower body… A few simple foldings later and there you are… A perfect ’skirt’…

Kain Pelikat also symbolizes freedom… Freedom of the what’s unseen and unsaid… ngahahahaha… Sorry for the profanity… xp… Ventilation is also top notch with Kain Pelikat…

It’s also because of it’s good fabric… It’s smooth as cotton and silky as silk… It comes with various qualities and brands… From 5000 threads to 10000 threads… From Gajah Duduk to Gajah Kursi (I don’t know what’s the link between elephants and textile)… But personally I prefer Atlas… Because it’s comfortable and simple… And most importantly, reasonably priced…

Kalau meke peghasan le… Ade sorang budak junior yang pake seluor yang buat daripade kaen sarong… Memang kemah(kemas=cara(cakap orang Johor)@gerek)!!!

One thing that lacks in a sarong I believe is the absence of pockets… With sarong, you’ll have to carry your wallet and phone in hands… Money bills, however, can be slit into the foldings…  Hmm… When will sarong maker introduce pockets into their products?

Pardon my Pelikat, k?…

Fail!!!

In hehe, me on May 25, 2008 at 3:31 am

 

Fail!!!

Hehe… Got this from The FAIL Blog… 

WordPress vs. Blogger

In me, monolog, review on May 25, 2008 at 3:27 am

I’m not comparing these two very amazing blog hosts… I’m not trying to say that Blogger users are cooler than WordPresser… The reason, then, for me writing this is because maybe, just maybe, some people who read my blog since those days (When I was still using Blogger) wondered why I changed from Blogger to…

 

Actually, there’s no concrete reason at all… I just got bored of my blogger layout… My experience with Blogger has been memorable, except for one thing… I can’t customize the header, even when blogger allowed its users to do so… The custom header just won’t show…

Nak edit HTML pulak macam tak reti…

So, feeling dejected, I decided to move from blogger to WordPress… And I never regretted doing so…

From my experience up till now, I can summarize that WordPress is comment-friendly but HTML no-no… Blogger, on the other hand is versatile…

It’s waaaaay easier to put comments (with the comment box is right below the post) in WordPress but you can’t put any chatbox, HTML script nor third party functionalities (like visitor tracker and Flickr Zeitgeist)… Which is a big downside for some Blogger users… But not for me…

Next is spam protection… With WordPress I’ve never got any spam… Unlike in blogger, I received comments with links to advertising sites and harmful (as in having spyware and virus) websites… Well… As long as you don’t click those links, you’ll be fine…

Lastly, which I find the best feature of WordPress… It has a good frontpage, showing all the featured blogs… There are also featured blogs according to tags… Which I also have been featured a few times (Well actually three times…)… xp and sorry (for talking big)…

Wahahahahahaha, itu le niat sebeno teman tuleh poih (post) ni…

If you guys want a more concise and comprehensive comparison between Blogger and WordPress… Do visit this Blogger user’s comparison chart…

Why need reason for everything?

Happy Birthday!!!

In event, hehe, me, monolog, real time, them, thoughts on May 24, 2008 at 9:06 am

Today is Mas’ birthday… So we did a very simple celebration for him… Even though it’s not as glamourous as Siti Nurhaliza’s birthday, like Mazzein said… More important are the thoughts and the presence of friends who are together to celebrate it with you…

At 0000 sharp, the ‘celebration’ begins… Firstly we thought of splashing the birthday boy with water… But suddenly someone mentioned about ‘burger’ and the rest is history…

The burgerers (Serap, Eddi, Najib, Nazri, Jimah, Me, Lawi, Dzul, Eddi) then waited in the TV room… Some were pretending to watch the TV, airing news on Malaysia’s loss of Pulau Batu Puteh… T.T… Some were studying…

But all are smiling in their hearts… Ngahahahaha…

So Syukri brought Mas into the TV room… Well, obviously Mas was expecting for people shouting “Surprise!!!” at him… But… That night was different… It seemed like no one was aware of his birthday… It seemed like everyone was so preoccupied with the news… It seemed like the past paper that they were doing is more interesting that Mas’ Birthday… Silence followed for the next thirty seconds… Poor Mas… hehe…

All of a sudden, Meor came near Mas and asked, “Pulau satu lagi dapat kat sape ha?” Mas tried to answer, but to his oblivion, Meor plunged him onto the floor…

This is what happened next…

Naseb meke la mas oiii…

Credits (for the picture and camera) to Eddi and Mazzein (Mazzein and Khairul, your absence is sorely missed!!!)

Then we did the obvious… Sing the ‘Happy Birthday To You’

That night there’s no cake… Instead we had ‘biskut kacang yang murah tapi sedap’ (20 cents a piece!!! What a bargain…)… And ‘rempeyek’… Courtesy of me… hehe… No picture because everything was finished within seconds… xp… 

Nuf said… Good luck in life Mas… Hopefully years to come are coming bright for you, Mas… Insyaallah…

Friendship forever…

Time

In me, thoughts on May 23, 2008 at 2:32 pm

I noticed that these days, time seems to flow so quickly… Too quickly… For me, at the very least…

At home I can’t help to notice my emak rushing to her workplace, after frantically preparing breakfast, do the laundry and send my brother to school (She had to come back after that)… Well, that’s just an example…

Despite all the machines science have helped built… Washing machine, dishwasher, microwave oven, gas stove (some got electronic hot plate)… Things that are supposed to help us save time… Well they did help but…

Despite everything being instant… Instant noodle, instant messaging, instant food, instant curry, instant coffee, instant coconut milk…

Despite food being fast…

I know it’s irrelevant to compare the time now and those days… When time felt so slow… So graceful…

Time is relative…

It’s Been One Year…

In announcement, event, me, thoughts, you on May 23, 2008 at 1:30 am

Peace, no war!!!

One year has passed… Have I changed at all? If I did change, is it for better or worse? If I didn’t change, does that mean I’m already good enough? Or does it means I’m doing fine? Or does that means I am simply too immature to change?

I know I am foolhardy when I comfort you,
But your tear-filled face is too beautiful and I can’t help it…
Became just a bit closer than friends,
You were my beloved treasure…

 

Though I cannot fly to the skies, I do have wings…
That’s your whispered password for me,
When our eyes met each other unexpectedly…

 

Though I cannot fly to the skies, I can give you my wings…
They will say, “You’re not alone anymore”,
And the words will tear off your loneliness…
Even pessimists can fall in love and be changed…
If the path you have choosen reaches a dead end,
Then why not lose yourself there…

Hehe… It has been one year since I started blogging… Actively… Exactly one year ago, I moved my blog from Friendster to Blogger… Then I exported everything to WordPress and here I am!!!

Huh… 360 posts… Nearly one post each day… Hehe…

It started to fill some free time I had sometimes… But as I write, I enjoyed it so much… Back then, no one really know the existence of my blog… Initially, I told no one but a couple of people in L-8 (Hmm… Memory…)… Pintevil’s Closet, X Nak Bagi Tau and now it’s M for Mucim (Actually there were several other names, but I couldn’t recall)…

Thanks to anyone who inspired me to blog… I really am glad for it!!! Thanks to the 10 persons who’ve been here almost everyday (I know, I have my sources… I also know your IP addresses… Once you leave a comment, next time you post another, even with alternate name, I’ll still know who you really are… Kinda creepy huh?) Thanks again…

To commemorate this event, I would like to bring you guys to my post on the very first day of my blogging era… Hehe that’s basically who I am last year… Here is the link…

We learn to do something by doing it… There is no other way… We can do anything if we put our focus on how to do it rather than on why we can’t…

ω Cerita Seram ω

In hehe on May 22, 2008 at 6:57 pm

Hmm… Morbid me…

This is NOT mine… I merely copied and pasted it here… Just so you guys can have a laugh too… Hopefully… In this hard time (for me, at least)… I believe that laughter is the best medicine…

Usually I’ll translate something in Bahasa Malaysia into English… Because I don’t like my blog to be ‘rojak’… But due to time constraint and fear of this story losing its original touch, I decided to post it as it is…

Finally, enjoy!!!

Pagi itu pagi minggu. Cuaca cukup sejuk sehingga mencapai takat suhu beku. Sebab itu saya tidak mandi pagi sebab air kolah jadi air batu dan air paip tidak mahu keluar sebab beku di dalam batang paip. Pagi itu saya bersarapan dengan keluarga di dalam unggun api kerana tidak tahan sejuk. Selepas itu emak saya mengajak saya menemaninya ke pasar. 

Tetapi saya tidak mahu. Selepas emak menikam perut saya berkali-kali dengan garpu barulah saya bersetuju untuk mengikutnya. Kami berjalan sejauh 120 kilometer kerana pasar itu letaknya 128 kilometer dari rumah. Lagi 8 kilometer nak sampai pasar saya ternampak sebuah lori kontena meluru dengan laju dari arah belakang. Dia melanggar emak saya. Emak saya tercampak ke dalam gaung. Dia menjerit “Adoi!”.

Lepas itu emak saya naik semula dan mengejar lori tersebut. Saya pun turut berlari di belakang emak saya kerana takut emak saya melanggar lori itu pula.

 

Pemandu lori itu nampak kami mengejarnya. Dia pun memecut lebih laju iaitu sama dengan kelajuan cahaya. Kami pula terpaksa mengejar dengan lebih laju iaitu sama dengan dua kali ganda kelajuan cahaya. Emak saya dapat menerajang tayar depan lori itu. Lori itu terbabas dan melanggar pembahagi jalan lalu bertembung dengan sebuah feri.

Feri itu terbelah dua. Penumpang feri itu yang seramai 100 orang semuanya mati. Pemandu feri itu sangat marah. Dia pun bertukar menjadi Ultraman dan memfire pemandu lori. Pemandu lori menekan butang khas di dalam lori dia.. lori itu bertukar menjadi robot Transformer. Mereka bergaduh di udara. Emak saya tidak puas hati. Dia pun terus menyewa sebuah helikopter di Genting Highlands dan terus ke tempat kemalangan.

Dia melanggar pemandu feri yang telah bertukar menjadi Ultraman itu. Pemandu feri itu terkejut dan terus bertukar menjadi pemandu feri semula lalu terhempas ke jalanraya. Pemandu feri itu pecah. Pemandu lori sangat takut melihat kejadian itu. Dia meminta maaf dari emak saya. Dia menghulurkan tangan ingin bersalam. Tetapi emak saya masih marah. Dia menyendengkan helikopternya dan mengerat tangan pemandu lori itu dengan kipas helikopter. Pemandu lori itu menjerit “Adoi..!” dan jatuh ke bumi.

Emak saya menghantar helikopter itu ke Genting Highlands. Bila dia balik ke tempat kejadian, dia terus memukul pemandu lori itu dengan beg tangannya sambil memarahi pemandu lori itu di dalam bahasa Inggeris. Pemandu lori itu tidak dapat menjawab sebab emak saya cakap orang putih. Lalu pemandu lori itu mati.

Tidak lama kemudian kereta polis pun sampai. Dia membuat lapuran ke ibu pejabatnya tentang kemalangan ngeri itu. Semua anggota polis di pejabat polis itu terperanjat lalu mati. Orang ramai mengerumuni tempat kejadian kerana ingin mengetahui apa yang telah terjadi.

Polis yang bertugas cuba menyuraikan orang ramai lalu dia menjerit menggunakan pembesar suara. Orang ramai terperanjat dan semuanya mati. Selepas itu emak saya mengajak saya ke pasar untuk mengelak lebih ramai lagi yang akan mati. Di pasar, emak saya menceritakan kejadian itu kepada penjual daging. Penjual daging dan peniaga-peniaga berhampiran yang mendengar cerita itu semuanya terkejut dan mati. Saya dan emak saya terus berlari balik ke rumah. Kerana terlalu penat sebaik saja sampai di rumah kami pun mati.

Itulah kemalangan yang paling ngeri yang pernah saya lihat sebelum saya mati.

Berape ramai la orang mati dalam cite ni…

Taukeh Cendol

In hehe on May 22, 2008 at 6:24 pm

Firstly, sorry if I caused anyone to puke… I know it’s disgusting… But I still want to post this picture… xp

Hehe…

 

Alhamdulillah

In Bahasa Malaysia, Him, crap, me, monolog, real time, thoughts on May 22, 2008 at 1:23 pm

Today’s exam is a surprise… Especially the essay part… Firstly it’s doable and I’m glad for that… I can’t help not to smile right after the exam…

Mase trial pun kamu kabo doable…Tapi dapat D juge sudohnye…

But I had one MAJOR concern… Because I didn’t circle my choice of essay at the front page… Stupid me…

Sape suruh idok bace arahan betoi2…

Let it be… I’ve strived… So now it’s time for letting go… Tawakkal…

Hmm… It’s easier said than done… They say worry casts a big shadow over a small thing… But I just can’t help thinking of the worst case scenario…

So I called Mr. Azman… Being a paranoid I am…

(This is a real conversation, not a monolog… Hehe…)

I’m glad with his reply…

“Don’t worry about it… Yang depan tu tak kesah la…”

Huh… Lege kamu Meor… Naseb baek…

And what’s more comforting is I can shed this burdensome worry… Worry, for me is not only bad… It’s annoying…

Topan, quoting from One Piece(When he endorsed me to call Mr. Azman… Just to confirm about things…)… ”We’re strong when we’re clear of things”

Which I believe is so true…

Whatever it is… Hang on Meor!!! Storm cloud spotted ahead… 

At times like this… There’s luck…

Hooray!!!

In hehe, man united, me, photo, thoughts, you on May 22, 2008 at 12:57 pm

Surreal…

This morning I was awaken by Mior at around 5.40 a.m. (if memory serves)… Someone I’ll remember as the bearer of good news… Hehe… I was half asleep and half awake… After hearing the word ‘Man U menang’, I forcefully entered the realm of reality… I was suddenly wide awake… I tried to process the information and I realized that I’m happy…

Van der Sar… My hero!!! I find this picture powerful…

What a good start for the day, huh? It helped a lot with relieving myself… Because I was freaking afraid of the exam… Certainly a booster!!!

Finally it’s a reality… Man U winning the Champions League was initially just a dream…

I didn’t watch the match… Due to the exam I had this morning… sigh… So I won’t say much (As seeing is believing)… So I’ll just write down some quotes from some of my fellow Man U supporters and friends…

Man U control first half tapi second half Chelsea control – Kim

Ronaldo penalti kena save… Anelka pun kena save… Tapi Terry sepak Van der Sar tak yah save pun… – Kim

Memang best gile… – Mior

Salam kemenangan – Thava

Yeah!!! – Meor

Jadikan sebagai pemangkin menjawab Bio!!! – Izzat

Jangan nak seronok sangat la… – Wan

Man U tu ape? – Fer

Hehe… K, I think that’s all… Just enjoy this successful year when we can… And here are some pictures… I claim no ownership over these pictures..

“Tupp” – Kim imitating the sound of the ball bouncing off Van der Sar’s hands…


The save by Cech’s face…

Glory, Glory, Man United…

Doakanku…

In Bahasa Malaysia, Poem, hehe, me, monolog, real time, thoughts on May 21, 2008 at 1:56 pm

So the time has come… Almost… 

For me to enter the battlefield…

With… Like JPah said…

Shield of Knowledge…

And stationaries as weapons…

 

Honestly, I don’t think I’ve prepared enough…

Honestly, I’m freaked out…

 

Pray for me…

So I have strength…

And more importantly, will…

There’s such thing as luck…

Monolog : Udoh le tu Meor… Ghentikan le mengarut-ngarut nie… Baik kamu pegi belajo…

Why Protected?

In announcement, crap, me on May 21, 2008 at 1:46 pm

Hmm… It’s to protect those who are close to me… So that they won’t be harmed because of my own incompetence…

And moreover, the content can be easily misunderstood and I don’t want people to speculate… 

Then why bother writing if you’re afraid of other people’s perception?

I know that whatever it is… People can and will perceive an information differently… But due to multiple number of reasons, I choose to minimize the possibility of conflict arising from this post… And I doubt it will cause anything at all… Even if I don’t password-protect it… Hehe… I guess I’m a freak when it comes to gatekeeping… Lastly, I believe that I have to write this… I just have to…

I trust that if you know the password, that means that you’re close enough to me (too close, I guess… xp…)… There’s no harm then in telling any of you (those who know the password) about this…

I never intended to be so self-centered but this has to be done…

Protected: PASSWORD : A Meaningful Song… Well… To Me, At Least… (Space sensitive)

In me, you on May 21, 2008 at 12:58 pm

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For Our Best

In Him, verses from Quran on May 21, 2008 at 1:31 am
Another e-mail I got from Mrs. Iffath Hasan…
First of all, credits to her for her efforts up till now… Credit also to Asma binti Shameem, for writing this amazing article…
Secondly, I claim no ownership over this material… I merely wanted to share this… Because I find it rather enlightening…
It’s quite long but I believe you won’t regret reading it…
Whatever Allah does… It is for our best 
by Asma binti Shameem
“The greatest reward comes with the greatest trial. When Allah loves a people He tests them. Whoever accepts that wins His pleasure but whoever is discontent with that earns His wrath.” (Saheeh al-Tirmidhi)
When my daughter was 2 years old, she loved to play with the water in the commode. Yes, that’s right… the commode. Yuck!! That’s nasty! You would say. But to her, that was the delight of the day! Splish… splash! To her there was nothing like it! And so when I would prevent her from it, she would scream and cry and wouldn’t want to stop. She didn’t understand how harmful that was for her. In her little mind, I took away something that she really enjoyed.
So trust Him….for, there is much reward in trusting Him… It is Jannah. And there is sin in distrusting Him. Calamities and disasters are a test, and they are a sign of Allah’s love for a person. They are like medicine: even though it is bitter, yet, in spite of its bitterness you still give it to the one whom you love…
 
“If you put your trust completely in Allah, He will arrange for your sustenance in the same way as He provides for the birds. They go out in the morning with their stomachs empty and return filled in the evening.” (Saheeh al-Tirmidhi).
The Prophet (sal Allaahu Alaiyhi wa Sallam) said:
 
“And when someone puts all his trust in Allah, He will be enough for him.” (Surah at-Talaaq:3)
And when I would take her to the doctor to have her immunization shots, she didn’t understand either. She would howl at the top of her lungs at the first sight of the needle and would run the other way. It would take two of us just to hold her down! To her, frankly, it was plain torture! Her innocent little mind simply could not even begin to understand how, on earth, could being tortured by a needle, be good for you?!! She didn’t realize that this ‘needle’ will Insha Allah protect her from certain illnesses and harm that is much more severe than the prick of this little needle.
 
So what’s the point here?
The point I am trying to make is that we, as parents sometimes do things for our kids, out of our great love and concern for them, which they may not understand. They do not see the wisdom behind it, although we do, and so we carry out those things because we know it will be better for them.
 
And for Allah is the Highest example.  (Surah Nahl:60)       وَلِلّهِ الْمَثَلُ الْأَعْلَىَ  
                                               
So when Allah Subhaanahu wa Ta’ala , in His Infinite Wisdom, tests us with a situation that we think is  difficult or takes away something that in our mind was good for us, we need to remember that perhaps it may not be so. Perhaps if we had continued in our way, it might have been harmful for us and whatever Allah decreed for us is actually better for us, for He is All-Wise and All-Knowing. 
Allah says:
“…and it may be that you dislike a thing which is good for you and that you like a thing which is bad for you. Allah knows but you do not know.” (Surah Baqarah: 216)
 
Al-Hasan al-Basri said:
“Do not resent the calamities that come and the disasters that occur, for perhaps in something that you dislike will be your salvation, and perhaps in something that you prefer will be your doom.”
Remember that we are dealing with the One who is Arham ar-Raahimeen, the Most Merciful of all that show mercy. All the mercy that we have in this world from Adam (Alaiyhi Salaam) to the Day of Judgment is only one hundredth of the Mercy of the Most Merciful. And He is Most Wise. He knows and we don’t know.
So have faith in Him and trust in Him and although, sometimes we may not understand the reason behind certain things, know that as long as you obey Him, whatever He will do for you is, in fact for your betterment.
 
So if Allah didn’t give you that big house, or that nice car you wanted or that big raise you were hoping for, know in your mind and believe in your heart that it is actually better for you. Who knows… maybe that big house, that car or that money would have become a source of ‘fitnah’ for you….Perhaps you would have become arrogant and conceited because of it, and Allah saved you from it. Because, you know that the Prophet (sal Allaahu Alaiyhi wa Sallam) said: “Any one in whose heart is even a mustard seed’s worth of pride will not enter Paradise.” (Muslim)
 
And if you have been sick and suffering, sure it is not easy. But again, know in your mind and believe in your heart that it is indeed better for you. For, if you bear patiently, it will be a means of expiation for your sins and a source of great reward. The Prophet (sal Allaahu Alaiyhi wa Sallam) said:
“There is nothing that befalls a believer, not even a thorn that pricks him, but Allah will record one good deed for him and will remove one bad deed from him.” (Muslim)
 
And:
“On the Day of Resurrection, when people who had suffered affliction are given their reward, those who were healthy will wish their skins had been cut to pieces with scissors when they were in the world (when they see the immense rewards for the afflictions they suffered).” (Tirmidhi-Saheeh by al-Albaani)
 
If Allah took away a dear, loved one, believe, from the bottom of your heart, that surely this was better. For, you never know, had the one who passed away lived longer, may be his life would have been one of sins and disobedience and Allah, out of His Mercy, took him before that… in a state of Iman.
 
And if life has been difficult, worries surround you and calamities after calamities befall you, hear the good news from the Prophet (Sal Allaahu Alaiyhi wa Sallam):
“Trials will continue to befall the believing man and woman, with regard to themselves, their children and their wealth, until they meet Allah with no sin on them.” (Tirmidhi– saheeh by al-Albaani)
 
Subhaan Allah! No sin?! And what is it from this world that you wouldn’t give up, just to meet Allah with no sin??!!
 
Remember that the One Who is testing you is the Most Wise, the Most Merciful and the Most Loving…..and that He did not send this calamity in order to destroy you….or cause you pain or finish you off. Rather, He is checking on you, testing your patience, acceptance and faith; it is so that He may hear your du’a and supplication, so that He may see you standing before Him….seeking His protection….filled with humility and complaining to Him, alone. The difficulties you face is a reminder for you to return to Allah and ask for forgiveness from Him. Who knows… if He didn’t give you the difficulty, maybe you would have strayed from Him far, far away….
  

Ibn Taymiyah said: “A calamity that makes you turn to Allah is better for you than a blessing which makes you forget the remembrance of Allah.” 

Thus in our times of trouble, when we go through pain and suffering and in our times of loss, we need to trust Allah. We need to keep in mind that as long as we fear Him and try our best to obey Him, He will never do us wrong. He will protect us and guide us and do the best for us, no matter what the situation apparently looks like. Allah says in a hadeeth Qudsi: 
“I am as my slave thinks of me and I am with him whenever he remembers me.” (Agreed Upon).
 
It is actually a sign of our weakness and shortsightedness, that we tend to focus on the calamities themselves, without paying much attention to the benefits that they may bring. We also forget to look at all other innumerable blessings that we enjoy and see around us.
Our minds, our logic and our senses cannot even begin to fathom the Wisdom, the Knowledge and the Hikmah behind Allah’s decisions and verdicts. It is He who is the Wise….it is He who is the Just and it is He who is the Knower of the unseen. If we trust in Allah, He will suffice and it is He who will grant us goodness in any situation and under any circumstances.
 
Islam telah bermula dengan dagang dan ia akan kembali dagang, maka berbahagialah mereka bersama Islam di waktu ia dagang - Hadith Riwayat Muslim
Thanks Jimah… Thanks sooooo much…

Exam Is Coming

In Bahasa Malaysia, Him, me, quotes, real time, self pity, thoughts on May 20, 2008 at 4:56 pm

Today, so many things happened… Some are rather perfect for the moment (which makes me excited)… While some are rather uneventful…

Firstly in the morning… I got my first surprise… Well not really… I’ve seen it coming… And it finally came… I’m glad for it… 

Secondly, is the fact that I skipped the Bio class… Wahahaha… It’s rather unexpected really… It being the last class made me feel that I’ve missed something… Hmm… T.T

Thirdly, I have this bad feeling… For what I’ve said and done in my previous posts… However, like Topan said… Terlajak breakfast boleh makan lunch… Quoting Kim, it’s good to feel guilty when it’s the right time to feel so…

Fourth, I learned that rezeki is everywhere… Look at ants… Our wastes are their food… So it doesn’t matter where you’re going… Because He is the greatest planner…

Putting all things aside, I honestly have just felt that the exam is coming today.. Just today… Well, it’s not that I’ve not been preparing… It’s just I need to do some really serious final preparation for the coming Paper 4 Bio… Oh Allah give me strength and will…

By the way Nazri (if you’re reading)…

God, grant me the serenity to accept things I cannot change… The courage to change the things I can… and the wisdom to know the difference…

Haha… xp

In Bahasa Malaysia, me, monolog, real time on May 20, 2008 at 4:32 pm

AMARAN : Ini bukanlah perbualan sebenar penulis dengan cikgunya… Ini hanyalah jiwa penulis bermonolog dengan jiwanya yang kusut-masai…

Sila rujuk latest post JPah (6 Free Blocks)… xp… (Siap ada caption ‘Tiada Dalam Gambar” lagi)

Sorry sir…

Saya tak tau ade kelas hari ni…

Ke terlupe?

Hari tu kate tertido…

Hari ni kate tak tau…

Hmm… Ape nak jadi?

Sorry sir…

Tak habes-habes sorry… Sikit-sikit sorry… Sikit-sikit sorry…

Sorry sir…

Ahh… It feels good…

In me, thoughts on May 20, 2008 at 8:15 am

I never felt anger without regretting it later… Ahhaha… Stupid me…

For a while I believe that my indignation was righteous, ethical, principled, appropriate and rightful… I kept saying to myself… Isn’t it the right reaction? Isn’t it my right to be angered of what have happened? Doesn’t me too need it to keep my emotion balanced?

But why losing it once in a while felt so wrong? The feeling of agony due to anger never lasts…

Usually “What the hell is wrong with me?” comes next… Hehe…

So it comes to my realization that the equation is rather simple… I was angry because things didn’t go my way… I then lose my temper and disappointment floods in…

But it sure feels good in the end… And it’s painful here and there… Really… I regret every bits of my anger…

Oh Allah… Grant me peace and patience…

It’s wise to direct your anger towards the problem, not the people… But… What if the people is the problem? Hehe… 

Feltbeats – Time Well Spent Medley

In lagha, music, song, video on May 20, 2008 at 2:39 am

Feltbeats a.k.a. Tom Felton a.k.a. Draco Malfoy

 

Facing Reality

In badminton, crap, me, self pity, thoughts on May 19, 2008 at 7:05 pm

I’ve realized, that…

I never felt anger without regret…

I’ve realized also, that…

The problem is not the game…

The problem is not other people…

The problem is not the racket…

The problem is not the net…

The problem is not the court…

The problem is not the shoes…

The problem is not the clothing…

The problem is not the shuttlecock…

The problem is not the smash…

The problem is not the intentional second smash…

The problem is what, then?

The problem is, I guess… I’ve given a small thing a very big shadow… It’s OK to be mad… But to let it control me and made me a slave in despair… And become mad in both senses of the word… That’s a problem… That’s so stupid of me… 

I’ve managed to put up a mental block to what has been haunting me… I’m not letting it to gain control over my life… Not anymore!!!

Indeed Topan, time heals everything… And it took time two days… Pretty impressive, I believe…

It’s Never Too Late

In Undefined on May 19, 2008 at 5:28 pm

A friend suggested this link for me… The website is amazing as I’ve been looking for the M1 November 2007 mark scheme for days…

Check it out!!!

Oh Friends…

In me, real time, thoughts on May 19, 2008 at 1:44 am

I know that you just came… And you’ll go right after this…

Why must friendship be like this? Is it a fitrah of humanity? To meet, to know and to part? To entertain, to be mad and to forgive? To forget?

Why don’t we share anything before the time comes? And in the end, albeit frantically trying… We shared nothing after all…

Before this it’s too early to know and feel each other… But now… It’s too late already I guess…

Therefore… I’m not going to ask for you to stay long… Sorry if I’m just a useless and insignificant life besides you… But that’s OK… I know it’s destiny that our paths crossed and parted again…

So please, at least let me tell you that I love you all!!!

Paths can cross once, twice, thrice… It’s infinite…

Puke…

In Whine, badminton, crap, event, me, real time, self pity, them on May 18, 2008 at 7:27 pm

UPDATES : These are a few new things…

  • Wrote something in the About Me page…
  • Removed the no.1 disclaimer… The blog is about my feelings after all… Hehe…

REMINDER : If this is not about you… Just keep it to your heart… I’ve been keeping this in my mind for a day… And it feels like the dam that’s holding the water is collapsing… Puking all it’s content… If you feel for what I write here… I extend my sincere apology, k?

So I’ll puke in this blog… My blog… Please bear that in mind…

Meor, what’s wrong with you today?

Hmm… Today? Today only you realized? Yesterday, the same hell happened (Albeit worse…) !!! Ask him! Don’t ask me…

First of all, I just want to say sorry to my partner in play, Masrizan… I’ve been playing badly… I don’t know what the hell is wrong with me (Well, in fact I do know… Too well, perhaps)… I bet you sure know what happened yesterday… You were there and you saw what happened… But I’m not sure that you realized… I bet you don’t…

Secondly, sorry for the opponents… Both of them… For my crappy game play… For my absent mindedness… For my lack of respect… For yesterday… And for today… But one thing I want to assure here is that… I never intended to smash you guys to bits… Never ever… Not until yesterday I guess…

I’ve shared this problem yesterday, with a good friend of mine… He said that the main problem here is communication… He said it’s my inability to convey my true feelings of the situation yesterday that made the scenario so upsetting… I’m mad, but I still conjure a smirk… So the one who was doing wrong thought that I’m still able to take it as a joke… I should, according to him… Tell the inflictor the truth, about how I really feel about things that he’s done to me… Things that for some, may be too trivial to be mad of… But for me, those detail hurts…

So today, I try to tell what’s in my mind… But it’s easier said than done… It’ll not only affect us both… It may jeopardize the harmony of all… So I choose to keep it in… I chose the hard way… Hopefully it’s for the best of all… hehe… 

So if I can’t be open to you, I can be open in my blog… And I hope by writing this, by chance you will read this too… And I’m absolute in my assurance that you know what wrong you’ve done…

The reason I believe that I can and have the rights to do this is because there are not so many people who read this blog… I don’t think this post will bring any impact at all to the world…

Whine… Whine… Whine… 

This is not anger… This is despair…

Random – Sape Suruh?

In Bahasa Malaysia, crap on May 18, 2008 at 6:23 pm

Sape suruh ko masuk…

Sape suruh ko memandai-mandai…

Aku tak suruh pun, kan?

Die pun tak suruh…

 

Haha…

 

Sape suruh kau bising-bising kat sini…

Kau ingat aku tak boleh nak bising-bising dekat sini?

Sape suruh?

Aku tak suruh, die pun tak suruh…

 

Ahhaha…

 

Sape suruh kau sambung ke sini…

Sape suruh kau jaga tepi kain orang…

 

Hehe…

 

Sape sebenarnye Suruh ni? 

Aduhai Suruh,

Bijak… Sungguh bijak si Suruh…

Lain disuruh, lain yang dibuat…

 

Why should I continue if I’m not happy? 

My Very Own Struggle

In Him, Poem, being optimistic, me, self pity, thoughts, verses from Quran on May 18, 2008 at 4:00 am

And He found you wandering,

and He gave you guidance (Surah Ad-Duha)

 

With that, Alhamdulillah… Hontou ni arigatou!!!

Well, I have this problem… Which I don’t think I’d be delighted to disclose in great details… For years I’ve been asking why me? Why? I’ve been seeking for answers… But to no avail… After years of failed soul searching, I begin to accept it willingly… I never see it as an opportunity…

But today, I read an article about jihad… About the greater Jihad… Well, I learned about Jihad at school but that’s it… I can never relate it to myself… Not at that time, at least…

It’s a struggle against one’s own desire and the battle that’s raging inside… And the example the brother has given in that post fits perfectly with my situation… Which made me cry… Hehe…

Now I’ve found purpose… My very own struggle… My personal Jihad…

 

 

 

Peace, The Greater Jihad (not full)

by Yahya

The greater jihad, it’s not killing people.

The greater jihad, it’s about fighting evil.

The greater jihad, it’s a battle that’s inside you.

Now that you know, what are you gonna do?

 

The greater jihad, it’s not killing people.

The greater jihad, it’s about fighting evil.

The greater jihad, it’s a battle that’s inside you.

Now that you heard, don’t say I didn’t warn you.

 

Well, I’m still learning…

Depressed…

In crap, me, thoughts on May 17, 2008 at 7:16 pm

Hmm… I was at the point of breaking myself after playing today… I’m not tense because of the exam… Not really…

Initially I never realized that I was soooo down… Until someone mentioned that name… Why only now?!! Why?!! When I’m aware of the situation… Everything starts to crumble… Everything…

Honestly I’ve not done much yesterday and today… But the stress due to guilt for not doing anything has much bigger magnitude than the stress because of striving… I guess because with the latter, there’s something that’s promised… Something that we can grab and enjoy later on…

Amzar, my cousin in Osaka shared this link with me… So, my fellow brothers, if you’re feeling depressed… Regardless due to life, exams or anything… Feel free to visit it… 

Just believe that there’s light at the end of the tunnel… Because He’s the most gracious and merciful…

If olive oil comes from olives, where does baby oil come from? (A vain attempt to put a smile on my face…)

Malaysia Kalahkan Brazil Dalam Bola Sepak?!

In Bahasa Malaysia, hehe, me on May 17, 2008 at 6:21 pm

Masa kat kampung, aku belek majalah-majalah lama dan terjumpa satu artikel dalam majalah tahun 1982 bertajuk “Malaysia kalahkan Brazil dalam acara bola sepak”…

Wow… Dahsyat la jugak bolasepak Malaysia dulu-dulu. Aku perturunkan kat sini wawancara pemberita berkenaan dengan jurulatih bola sepak Malaysia masa tu, Trevor Hatley…

Pemberita (P) : Apa khabar Coach..?
Trevor Hatley (TH): Oh baik-baik… (Dengan loghat Mat Sallehnya yang amat pekat)

P : Dimaklumkan bahawa pasukan bolasepak Malaysia berjaya mengalahkan pasukan Brazil… Adakah berita ini benar?
TH : Haa? Ha? Ha? Correct X5 (Ala Lingam) Malah kita kalahkan pasukan Brazil dengan teruk sekali…

P : Wow..!! Berapa jumlah jaringan gol.
TH : Ohh.. tidak ada jaringan kerana kita menang dengan Brazil tanpa bertanding…

P : Macam mana tu coach?
TH : Mereka tak datang… Walau pun satu jam kita tunggu di stadium…

P : Kenapa mereka tak datang… Adakah mereka memulau kan perlawanan kerana faktor keselamatan? (Maklumlah, zaman tu kan banyak komunis)
TH : Oh tidak, bukan kerana itu…

P : Habis tu kenapa coach?
TH : Kerana kami tak jemput pun mereka datang!!!!
P : Hmm… Hampeh punya coach!!!

Hehe… aku pun terkena jugak… Majalah tu sebenarnya majalah lawak… Aku tak ingatlah Ujang ke Apo?, aku pun tak ingat…

Jangan marahlah, k? Nanti kena jual…

And The Shadow of The Day…

In me, song on May 17, 2008 at 9:20 am

will embrace the world in gray…

Which I think symbolizes everything that happened that day… They can’t be too black (sorrowful) nor too white (joyful)… So they blend with each other… Giving the gray colour…

And the sun will set for you…

Which I think is trying to establish that no matter how it goes, regardless if it’s too good to be true or it’s too bad it’s hardly bearable… There will come a time for everything to end… When there’s no sun, there’ll be no shadow right? Unless you got the lamps and street lights nearby…

Don’t think about beginning means an ending… Think that an ending signifies a beginning…

Thomas Cup – Malaysia vs China

In badminton, event, malaysia, me, real time, thoughts on May 16, 2008 at 9:41 pm

Bile le meke nak balik Malaysia…

I’ve no class today, so I decided to go to the cafeteria and watch Malaysia Thomas Cup affair with China in the semi-finals…

Truthfully, I didn’t watch the first match… Which I missed dearly… Because apparently our world no.2, Lee Chong Wei defeated his nemesis, Lin Dan…

1-0… Yeah!!! When I heard about this I thought that our dream may come true!

The second match was kinda tight… With our golden pair Kien Kiat – Boon Heong outperformed by China’s world no.2 pair, Cai Yun – Haifeng… What a waste…

1-1… Hmm… 

The third game was even more frustrating, with the team captain Wong Choon Han outclassed by the young and upcoming star, Bao Chunlai… It was tight, initially but at the second half, Bao Chunlai proves to be to hard to be handled by Choon Han…

1-2… Come on, Malaysia Boleh!

The fourth match, between newcomers (well, relatively) Zakry – Tazari and I don’t know who, was much tastier… Hehe… Both Malaysians showed great composure to win in straight sets, to give Malaysia some kind of life line to stay in the tournament… Credits to the young lads… I can see that you guys will have a bright future… There’s strength… And will too… As strength without will is nothing and will without strength is useless…

2-2… Yeah!!!!!!!

Final match… Between Hafiz and Cheng Jin… I don’t even bother to watch the match partly because I’ve completely lost my faith in Hafiz and partly as I’m so pumped up to play my favourite sport, badminton… Hehe… I’m sorry to say that but he’s just not good enough… I guess it’s time for him to move on… But credits nonetheless to him as from what I heard, he put up a fight on the starting of second set, before crumbling in the end…

2-3… *Sigh*…

But nonetheless we put up a hell of a fight!!!

Angel Eyes

In Poem, hehe, me, song, you on May 16, 2008 at 11:19 am

Ahhaha… A great old song by ABBA… And the cover by the Czars is good too…

Last night I was taking a walk along the river,

And I saw him together with a young girl,

And the look that he gave made me shiver,

Cause he always used to look at me that way.

 

And I thought maybe,

I should walk right up to her and say,

Ahhaha, it’s a game he likes to play.

 

Look into his angel eyes,

One look and you’re hypnotized.

He’ll take your heart,

and you must pay the price.

 

Look into his angel eyes,

You’ll think you’re in paradise.

And one day you’ll find out,

he wears a disguise.

 

Don’t look too deep,

into those angel eyes.

 

Sometimes when I’m lonely,

I sit and think about him.

And it hurts to remember all the good times,

When I thought I could never live without him,

And I wonder does it have to be the same.

 

Every time when I see him,

will it bring back the pain?

Ahhaha, how can I forget that name?

Gambar Gadis Menjolok Mata

In hehe on May 15, 2008 at 4:18 pm

Just want to release off the gas, to prevent excessive pressure build up in the fermenter called the brain…

Almaklumlah exam dah nak dekat… Saye pun tengah struggle gilex1000… Rase macam nak meletup pulak kepala ni… Sape suruh pulun last minute… Hehe…

Wahahahahahahahahahahahaha!

Maaf jika berlaku pelacuran bahasa di dalam post kali ini…

My Teacher…

In Sg. Buloh, me, self pity, thoughts on May 15, 2008 at 10:58 am

…In primary school…

I was kinda a social outcast (and never a social butterfly)… Whatever, hehe… Being one, I tend to involve in fights… Because kids can be harsh and they ARE harsh… So whenever I’m in trouble, there is this one teacher who’d be my saviour… Because everytime the fight continues, there’s a chance that the other boys might die… And I might end up in the juveniles… Hehe…

He taught me from 2nd grade till 6th grade… He even teach me in tuition… He’s a multitasker who teaches Pendidikan Seni, Kajian Tempatan, Matematik, Bahasa Malaysia and PJK… Every Friday of my 3rd grade he’ll be teaching my class Bahasa Melayu and Pendidikan Seni for the whole day… I like friday because he’s the one who’ll be teaching and my bag will be nearly weightless…

He never yelled, as far as I can remember… Whenever he’s mad, he’ll take out his stainless steel ruler or his big long ruler… It’s frightening enough, so he never got the chance to swing them onto us… I always doubted that he would either… Actually, me and the other boys will laugh when he pretends to be mad… Because he is such a bad actor… hehe…

But one thing made me sad… After my class (we stayed together from 2nd grade to 6th grade… And for some since 1st grade) ‘graduated’ from the school, I’ve been hearing stories about him… Which I’d not like to write… Because for me, there is still a kernel of respect for him… For all the deeds he had done… For me… For us all…

Happy Teachers’ Day, Cikgu Rahman… I hope you’ll find your strength again…

I’m Confused… Soooo Confused…

In being pathetic, crap, me, self pity on May 14, 2008 at 12:08 pm

This post is about self-pity… So if you don’t like it, hate it, despise it or whatever… Bugger off!!! Hehe… No… No… With all due respect, please go somewhere else…

They say life is like a wheel… Sometimes you’re up, sometimes you’re down… At times, you’re successful, healthy and happy… Some other times, you’re lonely, don’t get what you want and feel bad…

But I say life is a wheel that becomes broad at the bottom and very small at the top… So the time at the top is much shorter than at the bottom… A pinch of pessimism right there… hehe…

These days… For me at least… I’ve been on the lower side of the wheel for a very long time… Like a friend said… When you’re at the bottom, gravity pulls you down, so you’d stay down… And when you’re at the top, gravity pulls you down too, so you’d fall down crushing…

Hmm… I don’t want to complain anymore… I wish I could be grateful like other people, even when they had nothing… Oh Allah… Please make me your grateful servant…

Why are you telling me to stop when I never did it? It’s like telling a non-smoker to stop smoking…

Push>[me]<Push

In Rhythm, crap, me, real time, thoughts on May 13, 2008 at 7:15 pm

Sometimes I’m so busy to prove that A is B… But truly, B is A…

Today I want to talk about an incident that occurred in my chalet everyday… So here’s the story…

K, there’s a water container in the common room, if any of you notice at all… It usually contained water, as Kim, Topan (Jo didn’t because he didn’t drink from it…) and me will always refill it when the time comes… So, most of the time it’ll be full…

Initially, it will take about a week before the container needs refilling… That was last semester, when no one was aware of it…

Then, come this semester, it will be almost empty just two days after a refill… I barely drank from it… So I knew that someone has been stealing the water from us… It’s disappointing really… People came with big bottles and shamelessly fill them in with our hard earned water (You know, we have to carry the heavy container all the way from the TV room)…

Honestly, initially I was disappointed and a li’l mad… Because I never saw the unseen (Or did I overlooked it)… I simply think that the water is mine and it’s wrong for them to take it indiscriminately… I never looked at it’s bright side… So every time I saw the empty container, this dirty heart of mine keep blaming and cursing these people… And then… Anger breeds… I swear, I even feel like putting drugs or cicak into the container…

The good thing about being angry is it gives me extra energy… However, anger clouds mind… And people do all kind of things when they are angry… That’s why I never realized that I’m in anger… Most of the time, I’ll be mad, and people will say ‘Janganlah marah’ or ‘Nape emo sangat ni?”… After that I’ll regain consciousness and not mad anymore… Usually I’ll end up smiling… Usually, if I become aware that I’m angry, in no time I’ll cool down… hehe… Good for me, sebab kalau marah, nanti kena jual…

K, let’s continue with the story… Today, I went to the TV room to fill up the water container… As I was walking in agony, I did a lot of thinking (Have you ever experienced this? Suddenly everything in your head spins… And then there you are… In the real world… Have you?) along the way… Why should I be mad? It’s not like the water will be finished and gone forever… If the container is empty, just refill it again… And again and again and again… Even if I’m pissed off, will the water stop flowing into their mouth? Wouldn’t it be nice if I just let them drink, ‘redha’ and feel good about sharing?

Nak amek air? Datanglah bilik saye…

They say, if you want to change the world, look into a mirror… And change the man in the mirror… Oh Allah, give me the barakah of time…

I’m A Jellyfish Who Complained (Rated – PG)

In Rhythm, being KYUEMian, hehe, me, nature, photo, quotes, real time, thoughts on May 12, 2008 at 9:27 pm

First of al, sorry for the confusing title…

Apparently, the Badminton Club of KYUEM has booked all three courts today, so I can’t play badminton today… So I’m pissed off… Well initially, yeah… Really, really pissed off… In fact, I mouthed some cusses too… I can’t say it’s unintentional as nothing is…

Then I got this e-mail entitled “Are you still complaining?”… Like usual, I got this from emak… So called ‘anak manja’ lah katakan…

This fateful e-mail made me think… hehe… I can’t play badminton, but I can still go to the swimming pool… Even if the swimming pool is closed, I can still go for jogging… It’s just a matter of choice… To complain or to do something else… It’s not that I’ve no choice at all…

So I went to the swimming pool to… swim lah, of course… As I dived into the pool, I suddenly remembered the first day I was in the swimming pool (Dekat KYUEM la)…

Initially, I know  how to swim but never had the confidence to swim in the deeper part of the pool… But now, I can safely say that I’m afraid no more…

If I could say that I learn anything at all in KYUEM, this is one of them… Apart from other things… Friendship, love, life, bla bla bla… Hehe…

Today a friend told me that I swim rather slowly… Hehe… Considering my BMI, I think I’m not slow, I just swim gracefully… Well… You know, like a jellyfish… Hehe… If Ali is a butterfile, I’d like to be a jellyfish then…

UPDATE : As days pass by, my love towards Prague grows… Hehe… Had some chat with the seniors-will-be and felt really welcomed… They are just sooooo nice… I’ve signed the offer letter and for me, there’s no looking or turning back… Honestly, I can’t wait to start a ‘new life’…

Nothing is coincidental… Nothing is unconditional…

Yeah!!!

In man united, me on May 12, 2008 at 9:45 am

Man U retained the championship crown, not only on goal difference, but in term of points too…

Can’t and don’t want to write much, I’ve got to get my priority right… Study study study!!!

In fact, I didn’t watch the whole match.. Just watched the first 20 minutes and the last 10 minutes, itupun after Thava messaged, informing me about the second goal from Pak Cik Giggs…

Truthfully, I was scared that Man U won’t make it… That’s why I didn’t watch the match… I guess I’m not a ‘peminat sejati’ after all… Hehe… Whatever…

Glory, Glory, Man United…

Hmm… Hari ni kena ponteng kelas lagi… Sigh…

qT.Tp

In crap, me on May 11, 2008 at 1:59 pm

I can never forget but I can move on… In fact, I have to move on…

Let’s meet again some time in the future!!!

I’ve learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel

I Wish You Enough

In family, love, me, plagiarized on May 10, 2008 at 7:28 am

Found in this blog and can’t resist sharing this…

Recently, I overheard a mother and daughter in their last moments together at the airport.They had announced the departure.

Standing near the security gate, they hugged and the mother said, ‘I love you, and I wish you enough.’The daughter replied, ‘Mom, our life together has been more than enough. Your love is all I ever needed. I wish you enough, too, Mom.’

They kissed and the daughter left. The mother walked over to the window where I was seated. Standing there I could see she wanted and needed to cry. I tried not to intrude on her privacy, but she welcomed me in by asking, ‘Did you ever say good-bye to someone knowing it would be forever?’

‘Yes, I have,’ I replied. ‘Forgive me for asking, but why is this a forever good-bye?’.

‘I am old, and she lives so far away. I have challenges ahead and the reality is – the next trip back will be for my funeral,’ she said.

‘When you were saying good-bye, I heard you say, ‘I wish you enough.’ May I ask what that means?’

She began to smile. ‘That’s a wish that has been handed down from other generations. My parents used to say it to everyone.’ She paused a moment and looked up as if trying to remember it in detail, and she smiled even more. ‘When we said, ‘I wish you enough,’ we were wanting the other person to have a life filled with just enough good things to sustain them.’ Then turning toward me, she shared the following as if she were reciting it from memory.

I wish you enough sun to keep your attitude bright no matter how gray the day may appear.
I wish you enough rain to appreciate the sun even more.
I wish you enough happiness to keep your spirit alive and everlasting.
I wish you enough pain so that even the smallest of joys in life may appear bigger.
I wish you enough gain to satisfy your wanting.
I wish you enough loss to appreciate all that you possess.
I wish you enough hellos to get you through the final good- bye.

Take your time to live…

To all my friends, my lover, my loved ones… I wish you enough…

They say it takes a minute to find a special person, an hour to appreciate them, a day to love them, but an entire life to forget them… Because we don’t simply forget…

p/s : Tomorrow is Hari Emak, just in case you forgot!

Mixed Feelings

In event, me, real time, thoughts on May 9, 2008 at 8:38 pm

Today I’m somewhat enveloped in happiness, with a tinge of anger, topped with shredded fear and dressed with some cream of guilt… Hehe…

Right after the Jumaat prayer I switched on my lappy… It will usually take ages, so I decided to lie on my bed… Then I went into a deep slumber… And never woke up to class… Namely Biology class… Sorry Mr. Azman…

Around 4, somehow, I manage to gain consciousness… But one dreadful thing happened to my laptop… The taskbar and start menu were nowhere to be seen… So I decided to hit Ctrl – Alt – Del, so that I can reboot and repeat the process… However, the task manager never came out… Instead, a message came out saying about my system32 is corrupted and what not…

I freaked out!!!

I went mad!!!

Freaked because it’s not simply losing the ’search’ or ‘folder options’… It’s like losing the whole computer!!! The lappy was just now useless… It was a piece of junk for almost 2 hours… Mad because my original (there’s no point in buying original stuffs if they can’t perform) Norton Internet Security detected the culprit but is powerless… Disappointing!!!

I rebooted my laptop more than 5 times but the virus just won’t go away… I tried safe mode, the laptop shut down abruptly… I tried ‘last known good configuration’ but it was no good…

But I’m not lost… I still have one last trump card… Which is to use QData Trove, a facility uniquely possessed by all BenQ laptops… It allows me to restore my laptop to a predetermined restore point or its factory settings… In my case, sadly it’s its factory settings… It’s similar to Windows system restore but can be done even before entering Windows itself… For example, to run in safe mode, we’ll have to hit F8 button… But for QData Trove it’s the F10 button… So, you can still restore your computer when you can’t go into Windows…

But it has one drawback, if you never made a restore point (Sape suruh tak buat, kan?)… You’re destined to lost almost everything… Almost…

Luckily for me, it just reformat everything in the C: drive, so all my stuffs in D: is left untouched, untainted… Hehe…

Now it feel likes a new computer altogether… It certainly is much faster now…

My computer is now a fortress… One antivirus and three antispywares…

God, grant me the serenity to accept things I cannot change… The courage to change the things I can… and the wisdom to know the difference…

Pass or Fail?

In Him, Rhythm, me, plagiarized, verses from Quran on May 9, 2008 at 3:48 am

Thanks again for Mrs. Iffath Hassan for such a moving e-mail… This is just perfect… Exactly what I need right now… A reminder that this life is a test… In it’s sweetness and at times, bitterness… And in a test, there are only two possibilities… We’re bound to pass or fail…

 

Are you passing or failing the Test?

by Asma binti Shameem

 

Whenever we go through a hardship or suffer a calamity, we say this is a test from Allah. When we lose our job or a loved one or we get sick, we acknowledge that this is a trial from the Almighty. And surely, that is true. However, we fail to realize that even when we did not lose our job, even when we did not lose a loved one and even when we did not suffer any hardship or calamity, we are still under a trial from Allah Subhaanahu wa Ta’ala.

 

Yes, that’s right. When we are at ease, enjoying good health and sitting cozily in the comfort of our homes, driving our cars, enjoying the company of our families and spending time with our friends, we are still being tested. In fact, this test is harder to pass than the test of hardship.

 

Allah says:

 

 “and We shall make a trial of you with evil and with good. And to Us you will be returned” (al-Anbiya’ :35)

 

Allah Subhaanahu wa Ta’ala, in His Infinite Wisdom, is testing us with all the innumerable blessings He has bestowed upon us, to see how we react to those blessings. Will we be thankful and obedient to the One Who gave us these blessings in the first place and submit to Him or will we be arrogant and disobedient and forget Allah.

 

Allah says:

 

“And we tested them with good (blessings) and evil (calamities) in order that they might turn

back.” (Surah al-Araaf:168)

 

Abd al-Malik ibn Ishaq said, “There is no one that is not tested with health and prosperity to measure how thankful he is (Shukr)”.

 

So if you have a comfortable life and money, He is testing you… Where are you spending this money? Is it on haraam? Will you spend it all on vain desires of this dunya, arrogantly competing with each other, coveting what others have? OR will you be grateful to Him for giving you all these blessings, obeying Him and spending in His path, giving Zakaat and sadaqa?

 

“Beautified for men is the love of things they covet; women, children, much of gold and silver (wealth), branded beautiful horses, cattle and well-tilled land. This is the pleasure of the present world’s life; but with Allah is the excellent return (Paradise).” (Surah Aal-Imraan: 14)

 

And if He has blessed you with children, He is testing you to see how you will deal with them. Are you giving them a good Islaamic upbringing? Do you give them their rights? Do you treat them fairly? Will you earn from haraam just to please them?

 

“And know that your possessions and your children are but a trial and that surely with Allah is a mighty reward.” (Surah Anfaal: 28)

 

And if Allah Subhaanahu wa Ta’ala has given you health and time, He is testing you to see how you will spend it. Do you spend hours in front of the TV, watching movies or sports, wasting yourself away? Do you throw it away shopping, sleeping or just wandering, chatting with your friends hours on end? Or do you take advantage of this time and use it to improve yourself as a Muslim? Do you utilize it to learn the Deen of Allah and then teach it to others? Do you spend it in what Allaah likes and stay away from what He does not?

 

The Prophet (Sal Allahu Alaiyhi wa Sallam) said:

 

“Take advantage of five things before five other things: from your youth before your old age, your health before your sickness, your richness before your poverty, your free time before you become occupied, and from your life before your death.” (al-Haakim-Saheeh)

 

And similar are all His blessings that He has bestowed upon you so that He may test you with them…..to see if you are the slave of your desires or the slave of the Almighty.

 

If He has given you power… are you just and fair?

 

If He has given you fame…are you boastful and arrogant or do you humble yourself to the Lord of the Worlds? 

 

If you are a beautiful woman……do you flaunt your beauty everywhere or do you protect yourself with the Hijaab?

 

Do you use the eyes that He gave you……to read the Qur’aan or do you use it to look at haraam…..?

 

And the tongue that He gave you….do you use it for His remembrance? Do you use it to speak the Truth and uphold justice, enjoining good and forbidding evil or you use it to tell lies, backbite and spread gossip?

 

And the hands and limbs and faculties that He gave you… Do you use them for His obedience….to serve Him and comply with His orders? Or you employ the very blessings that He gave you to disobey Him and disregard His orders?

 

“This Day, We shall seal up their mouths, and their hands will speak to Us, and their legs will bear witness to what they used to earn.” (Surah Yaseen: 65)

 

“When they reach it (Hellfire), their hearing, eyes and skins will testify against them for what they used to do.” (Surah Fussilat: 20)

 

So, wise are you, if you realize that all the wealth you have, the health that you enjoy, the families and friends that you have, the easy, good times that you take pleasure in, are all blessings that are, in reality, tests from Allaah. If you are grateful to your Lord, remembering Him in times of ease, thanking Him, surrendering to Him and obeying him, Allaah will pass you in this test with flying colors and bless you even more.

 

“And (remember) when your Lord proclaimed: “If you give thanks, I will give you more (of My Blessings), but if you are thankless (i.e. disbelievers), verily! My Punishment is indeed severe.” (Surah Ibraheem: 7)

 

And surely, remembering Allah in times of ease and success is far more difficult than remembering Allah in times of difficulty.

 

However, if difficult times come (and they will surely come), then Allah will remember you in these times of difficulty just because you remembered Him in times of prosperity.  

 

The Prophet (Sal Allaahu Alaiyhi wa Sallam) said:

 

“Remember Allah in times of ease, and He will remember you in times of hardship” ( Ahmad).

 

And he (Sal Allaahu Alaiyhi wa Sallam) said:

 

“Whoever is pleased that Allah answers his prayers during hardships and difficulties, let him make much supplication in times of ease.” (Hasan, at-Tirmidhi)

 

I will end with the words of our beloved Prophet (Sal Allaahu Alaiyhi wa Sallam). He said: “Take the initiative to do deeds, before trials come like a piece of a dark night (unexpectedly).” (Muslim)

 

“O you who believe! Let not your properties or your children divert you from the remembrance of Allaah. And whosoever does that, then they are the losers.” (Surah Munaafiqoon: 9)

I hope we can all gain some insights from this… Insyaallah…

Love Thyself and…

In Him, Rhythm, love, me, thoughts on May 9, 2008 at 1:24 am

Sometimes I wonder why ♥ symbolizes love? Maybe because it was once thought that the heart is the centre of thoughts and emotions…

I guess, the easiest way to achieve love is by learning to love and to take care of ourselves… I’m not implying that we should all be narcissistic… That’s a whole different story…

Admiring ourselves and loving ourselves are not the same (Their spellings aren’t)… Admiring brings pride… And pride is an appetizer for fall… Loving ourselves made us believe… It prevents us from doing things that are toxic to the soul… Love and compassion lead to pity… If we pity ourselves we won’t do anything that hurts it right? Things like hate and envy…

By taking good care of ourselves, we’ll love everyone… By loving ourselves we’ll love Him, the greatest love of all… Insyaallah…

They can take my heart but they can’t take away my dignity…

Platypus

In Him, me, nature, science, thoughts on May 8, 2008 at 11:51 pm

Today I feel like being close to nature… Hehe… The earth (and only earth, I believe… Even though I would love it if it’s otherwise) is teemed with wildlife… A sign of the creator, for those who observe and think…

One of many animals that never cease to amaze me is the platypus… Honestly it’s just one of many others… Tasmanian devil, penguin, dugong, kangaroo, pygmy, yada yada yada (Topan, sorry… xp) and many more…

But today, I want to share about platypus…

Platypus chasing some fish…

With a bill like a duck, a tail and fur like a beaver and snake-like venom hidden in heel spurs, the platypus could be the result of some strange genetic experiment gone wrong…

The platypus is a mammal because it has fur and feeds its young with milk… It flaps a beaver-like tail… However it also has bird and reptile features… It lays eggs, has a duck-like bill and webbed feet… Male platypuses have spurs on their heels that inject pain-causing venom to ward off mating rivals… Neat, huh?

Platypuses live in the wild along most of Australia’s east coast… Their numbers are not accurately known because they are notoriously shy… Hunted for years for their pelts, they have been protected since the early 1900s and are not considered to be endangered, though scientists say their habitat is vulnerable to human development…

Hmm… Kenapelah takde platipus kat Malaysia?

Whatever…

Sharing Is Caring

In announcement, me on May 8, 2008 at 11:09 am

If you guys noticed, there’s a Box.net widget on the sidebar… I’m planning to put in it anything I’ve found on the net and everything emak e-mailed me that I find interesting and suitable for sharing… I can’t afford to plagiarize them… No time for it… So if you guys want to download, use or abuse (hehe…) them, feel free to do so… I guess all of them are not subjected to copyright…

I’ll try to optimize the capability of this widget by uploading more files, but for now those are all… I was figuring things out this morning when I realized that it’s already 4a.m….

An investment in knowledge pays the best interest…

I Simply Can’t…

In crap, me, thoughts, you on May 8, 2008 at 2:00 am

Hehe… It’s been quite a while…

I honestly felt the need for me to keep away from my blog… As it consumes (or wastes)  time and energy… But today I feel like I want to talk…

I’m a human, hence I have desires… I want things… But the thing that I want, I can only wish for it… No matter how hard I work my ass off to obtain it, I don’t think I will get it eventually anyways…

Well the thing that I want is always right in front of me… Dead right!!! But I can only look at it (always indirectly), talk to it (if I have the guts) and touch it, just barely… But I can and may never have it…

I tried dearly to give up on it… I gave up once (I thought so)… But suddenly I realize that I simply can’t… So I guess I’ll just have to live with it…

Whatever it is, I’m grateful for everything I have and don’t have…

Why do we remember things we want to forget?

Permintaan Terakhir… Sedihnye…

In family, me, song, thoughts on May 4, 2008 at 2:35 pm

One of the thing that I noticed when I went back home was this song… Emak and my li’l brother constantly played this song every chance they get to play it…

Well, this song is beautiful in terms of it’s music coordination… And the lyrics, for me is very tragic… But what attracted me the most is the story behind it… Which will be told in the video…

Some might say that it’s all bollocks but I’d like to believe it… And if it’s a true story, then let’s recite Al-Fatihah for arwah…

Change today, because tomorrow might never come…

UPDATE : Hehe… After I read this post I feel like laughing… Actually the lyrics is not that tragic… Sorry, I’m just exaggerating… xp

Bored

In Rhythm, me, thoughts on May 4, 2008 at 2:12 pm

Well, last night, at 10 p.m. I arrived from home… To my amazement, there were so many shirts hanged to the awning… It smelled the recognizable aroma of Downy Anti-bac… I then opened the chalet door and I was again surprised to find that someone had folded all my laundry… And it was done very neatly… I myself wouldn’t do it so… If it was me, I’ll just chuck them in the closet… End of the story… The common room was also tidied up… The one week old box cum trash can was there no more… Everything was placed strategically so it wouldn’t be a sore to the eyes… The water container was full and cups are put nicely underneath it, so that anyone who’s thirsty can just turn the tap and drink… The water heater was also showing green light, signaling that the water is hot and ready for coffee or maggi making… Honestly, it was a joy to behold… I’m glad to be back… And somehow I felt guilty of leaving Kim all alone… Well… Hmm… Not really, hehe…

Then I continue my walk to my room… I saw Kim and I asked, “Why are you doing these?”

Kim replied, “Aku bosan gile, aku tak tau nak buat ape dah”

Hehe… He’s just bored to death…

Then this post comes…

Why do we have this feeling of being bored? Why god give us this kind of feeling? Is it really important for our survival?

Like fear, kiasuness and selfishness, they all played vital roles in the continuity of our human-race… Fear prevents us from endangering our lives, which is essential in preserving life… By being kiasu (which itself is a fear… fear of losing), we strive hard to be better… Better than our own old selves or other people… Because I believe there’s happiness in being better, stronger, faster and harder…

Why then, do we feel bored?

I have no idea actually, but then I asked around and Mior said that it’s good, in term of Economics because it signals for change… It prevent us from doing the same thing all over again… Especially things we don’t really have heart for and just want to get it done… So, I believe that bore is a signal for change, transition, revolution…

Which brings me to my next question… Why then there are things we never got bored doing while there are things that we will always get bored doing?

For example, every night I can only study for 3 hours… Maybe 4 hours maximum… After that my eyes will become heavy… I’d start to lose focus and easily distracted… However, when it comes to playing games or reading novels, I can stay awake the whole night like a robot…

Why is this happening, then?

Is it because of studying is something we just want to get done and get it out of the way? While playing games is often our own choice… Pleasure is always the first choice…

Or maybe I should start treating my studies like a game?

Oh Man…

In me, real time, thoughts on May 4, 2008 at 3:22 am

I was packing in the evening to get back to college… And I’ve originally decided to leave my lappy home… Well, to get rid this distracting piece of technology… hehe… My mind was so clear with it and I’m confident that I can survive even without it… That was the initial plan anyway…

With laptop, there’s the Internet… Which brings along YM, e-mail, blog and everything under the sun… Just because of merely one invention we called the computer… I’m not implying that computers are necessarily evil… They are innocent, until our reckless ways of using it kicked in…

As I was inserting my laptop into its bag, suddenly a vision came, corrupting this little good intention of mine… It was played in front of me vividly, as in a cinema… Rolling…

I’m not very sure what day it was… I guess it was an off day… May be when everything is over… Because everyone was in the chalet, not in college attire… Each and everyone of them have a laptop in front of them… They were playing CS, full of excitement… Their faces were clear with joy… As they killed, they let out shouts of joy… “Fire In The Hole!!!”… “Cover Me!!!”… The sound of gunshots and explosions filled the air…

But I was in my room… Alone…

I was unable to join them because I don’t have my laptop with me… I saw myself sitting at the desk, reading something… If memory serves, it was Chemistry… 

With that, I have decided to bring my laptop to college… Hehe…

Man U won and I’ve got a new phone!!!

Flags of Their Fathers

In me, review, thoughts on May 2, 2008 at 12:35 pm

Last night Kim and I watched a war movie entitled ‘Flag of Our Fathers’… Well, it’s an American production, so I’d say it’s ‘Flag of Their Fathers’… Hehe…

For me, this movie is somewhat honest… The way it deals with heroes is not like typical war movie, where the heroes are almost perfect human… It’s not some war movie based on fictional characters, fighting against stereotyped bad guys and saving the world, becoming heroes in the meantime…

A quote from the movie…

I finally came to the conclusion that he maybe he was right. Maybe there’s no such thing as heroes. Maybe there are just people like my dad (the medic)… I finally came to understand why they were so uncomfortable being called heroes… Heroes are something we create, something we need… It’s a way for us to understand what’s almost incomprehensible, how people could sacrifice so much for us, but for my dad and these men, the risks they took, the wounds they suffered, they did that for their buddies… They may have fought for their country but they died for their friends… For the man in front, for the man beside him, and if we wish to truly honor these men we should remember them the way they really were, the way my dad remembered them…

Honestly, to simply pigeon-hole this movie as a war movie wouldn’t do it much justice… It’s more than that… It’s about soldiers who never saw themselves as heroes but thrown into the spotlight nevertheless to serve a ‘higher purpose’…

Also, from this movie my believe that yesterday is just history is strengthened even more… Today you’re a hero… But tomorrow you might be a nobody…

All in all it’s a very good movie… I can’t recall the name of the actors but I have to give credits to them and the director, Clint Eastwood…

War

In done, hehe, me, quotes, real time, them, thoughts, you on May 1, 2008 at 9:15 pm

Kim and I’ve just finished a Gundam 00 (Season 1) marathon… In just half a day… Thanks to Mas who took the initiative and have the desire to download each episode, one by one… A process which I believe completed just quite recently… After about a week…

Like all other Gundam series, I can just say that this latest installment of Gundam is awesome… However, in my opinion, Gundam Seed and Gundam Seed : Destiny are still the best… It can’t be argued that the story-line is more complex, fresh and interesting, but I still fancy Kira and the gang… Much much more…

After watching it, I was inspired to write this post… Why there is still war even when we’re aware of the fact that it’s painful? What a cruel thing is war… To separate and destroy families and friends, and mar the purest joys and happiness God has granted us in this world… To fill our hearts with hatred instead of love for our neighbors… and to devastate the fair face of this beautiful world… I, unfortunately, have this pessimistic belief that war is highly likely to curse us, the human race, forever… Some of you might disagree with me… But that will just open up room for discussion… I might be right and I might be wrong… Hehe…

To be humane and considered normal (damn!!!) in this so-called civilized (But I doubt we now have the level of morality to even be considered civilized) world, we suppress our animalistic instincts… This prevents me from killing you and vice-versa… But honestly, I enjoyed killing very much… Very very very much… Hehe… In Counter-Strike and GTA only though… Especially when the target is a sniper… xp…

Like Einstein (Einstein as in Albert Einstein… Not Fitri… Hehe…) once said, the release of atomic power has changed everything except our way of thinking… The solution to this problem lies in the heart of mankind…. If only he had known, he said he should have become a watchmaker…

I believe that’s the prove that somewhere deep in our mind, there’s some kind of primitive impulse for war… Somehow, we do enjoy killing… But who am I to say that I understand the human psyche as a whole? Who am I… I’m not the creator…

Like in Gundam 00, wars usually involve three sides… Two obviously opposing sides and one seemingly neutral side acting as the agitator, warmonger, observer, aggressor or whatever you would like to call it… The two opposing sides have their own ideals and are willing to fight to death in order to protect it… There is no simple right and wrong here… It’s either both sides are wrong or both sides are right… But my main concern is neither of these two sides… It’s the warmonger that worries me the most… They incite war, sell weapons (to both sides) and gain huge profit… They get money for blood… Blood of regardless a heroic soldier, innocent civilians or children… They are, for me, the greatest form of abominable evil… They exploit our primitive instinct of blood thirst for their own ends…

What or who can we label as warmonger? Is it a corporation? Or is it a multinational company? Or maybe it’s just down to one person? A group of people? Just think about it yourself… Who’ll profit the most when a war broke out? Who?

Hehe… This post is quite long but I hope you guys get what I’m trying to say really… 

War does not determine who is right… only who is left…

In Rain There’s Memory

In me, thoughts, wonder, you on April 30, 2008 at 3:12 pm

Maybe, just maybe, some of you might know that I love rain so much… Particularly heavy rains… Well, much of the reasons are not concrete… Reasons which I can’t simply write down… But one thing I can write is memory… For me, there are memories in rain… Good ones… And bad ones too…

It was raining pretty heavily and there was lightning… All over the place… While nature is having a tantrum, we sat at the veranda and just watch the occurring…

Mom then told me that if you look out at a rainstorm, and see a lightning bolt, then you can make a wish and it’ll come true…

“What’s so hard about seeing a lightning bolt? There’s plenty of them out here to choose from you know?” I asked.

“Yeah, but you never really see them. Sure, you might catch one out of the corner of your eye, or see the sky flash for a quick second… but you’ve got to actually see one! And no cheating! You’ve got to see the actually strike of lightning, clearly, right in front of your eyes. Then… make your wish.”

I said. “Well, that was impossible… They are just too fast for me to respond to”

Truthfully, it was harder that I thought…

Emak then replied, “K, I’ve made a wish”

I said, “Now you’re the one who’s cheating!”

She then replied, ”Not really. See, the trick is to not look around too much… See, most people keep looking back and forth, back and forth, all over the place… But they’re moving too fast… So the lightning bolts are either right in front of where you’re looking, or right behind… And you never catch it.”

So I asked her what she did different…

“Well…” She said softly, “… I found out that if you look in the right place for long enough… Sometimes you get exactly what you’re looking for…”

I know that it’s kinda superstitious… Making wish… But what I’d like to say is that when we’re wishing for something, if we wish it long enough, we’ll eventually get what we want… Hopefully… hehe…

One thing about a heavy rain… Only you know whether or not you’re crying…

We’re Through!!!

In man united, me, real time, thoughts on April 30, 2008 at 5:15 am

So Old Trafford let us hear you loud,
Cheer us on and we will do you proud.
76212 voices sing our song,
Keep us at the top where we belong.

Yeah!!!

This morning is sweet… Man U managed to go to the final of Champions League in Moscow… Thanks to an absolutely unstoppable screamer from Paul Scholes…

It was certainly more entertaining than the first leg in Nou Camp… At least as far as Man U is concerned… There were some decent shots made by Ferguson’s side… Credits to van der Sar and the defenders, particularly Patrice Evra, for a sterling performance just now…

But I guess, the coolest man this morning is Carrick… He maintained his cool and made key interceptions in the middle… On the night when cool heads are much needed, he proved to be the coolest among the lots…

Messi on the other hand, for me is undoubtedly the best player on the pitch, if not in the world today… His dribbling and passes were inch perfect… The Argentine played some outstanding attacking football but it’s not like Man U has no defenders and van der Sar takde tangan… hehe…

For me, this morning, Man U was OK… Even when the possession was 60 (Barcelona) –  40 (Man U)… The back line was absolutely solid… That’s promising… Can’t wait for the all-EPL final…

Over to you, Chelsea and Liverpool…

Alhamdulillah…

In Rhythm, me, thoughts, you on April 30, 2008 at 12:00 am

Today, I’ve got my answer… And I’m grateful for that… So Czech it is…

However, this isn’t a sign for me to stop what I’ve been doing up till now… Hmm… Considering my horrible trial results… There is still a long way to go… Waaaaaaaay long…

Currently I’m admiring the chat feature in the WordPress… And in the New Yahoo! Mail too… Hehe… One more distraction added to the list…

The ability to wait patiently for something is a valuable character trait… It is our impatience that spoils everything…

I Am A Muslim!

In me, plagiarized, thoughts, video on April 28, 2008 at 11:27 pm

The New Jersey Chapter of MAS (Muslim American Society) put together this message dispelling some of the stereotypes of Muslims, calling for peace and unity and encourages Muslims to be proud of their faith… This informative and very entertaining message is brought to you by the Muslim American Societies Media Foundation…

We say that people are using technology to attack our faith… Why don’t we use it to strengthen it?

Happy Birthday Emak!

In Him, Poem, family, me, real time, them, thoughts on April 28, 2008 at 9:02 pm

Today is my emak’s birthday… Luckily Pak Cik Sidik the driver had to stop by the income-tax (which is located closely to my emak’s working place) to do the tax for the expatriate teachers… So I had the chance to meet, wish, hug, kiss and sing her ‘Happy Birthday’…

The cheese cake that we had together… It’s just a slice but only god knows how nice it was… The cream, the walnut, the icing… Uh umm… Certainly it resides wayyyyyy better in my stomach than splattered on the floor… You know what I’m saying? No, seriously… Do you know what I’m saying?

I’m so grateful that here, in Malaysia, we can still celebrate things once in a while… Somewhere in some corner of the world, people die just because they don’t have the chance to eat… I believe that we, the fortunates, should appreciate this life dearly… We should live life to the fullest for them… We must not simply waste because we can… and because we want to…

Now emak, this poem is for you…

Happy B’day

I’m wishing you another year,
Of joy, fun and laughter.
I hope the days that follow,
Will light your heart it glows.

One thing I hope you know,
That you should have more.

I hope you feel deep in your glow,
As your birthdays come and go,
How so very much you mean to me,
More than you can ever know but maybe.

Well, it may be inadequate or whatever… Nevertheless it’s mine… Hehe…

Turn to Allah and know that Allah will protect you… Seek His help alone, for all the people of this world put together would not be able to benefit you unless Allah wills so…

hmm… (the second)

In announcement, me on April 27, 2008 at 11:19 pm

Again, I don’t know what to be put as the title here…

Tomorrow, I’ll have an interview for entrance to Czech medical university… Specifically, Charles University in Prague…

So, I can’t write much today… I don’t have much to write anyway… I need to prepare for the interview and I’m planning to do my best with it…

I guess I need more than luck, but do pray the best for me, k?

Sigh… Ponteng kelas lagilah jawabnyer…

Emotions

In me, plagiarized, thoughts on April 27, 2008 at 1:27 am

They rarely make much noise don’t they?

It’s hard to hear pride… Caring is the faintest of feeling… Jealousy too… Sadness beneath a smile… Anger that contained inside… Selfishness, never loud…

Pure love is so quiet, some days you won’t even know it’s there…

T.T

In Whine, being pathetic, crap, event, man united, me, thoughts on April 26, 2008 at 10:59 pm

Today is pretty much a sad day… From the start to the end of it… For me, at least… So this post is just about me yammering about my experience today… So if you don’t want to panaskan telinga, please stop reading, k?

It started at 4.30 a.m. in the morning… Headed to UM at approximately 6.15 a.m. by the college’s car…

At 9 a.m., the torment started…

Well, the Czech entrance exam was super-duper hard… That’s all I can say… I’d say 50% of the bio and chem questions are out of the syllabus… Regardless whether it’s I.B. or A-Level or SPM or PMR or even UPSR… It’s either you’re really knowledgeable or you’re very lucky… Hehe… The math questions, however, are quite simple and doable… Alhamdulillah for that… Well, what’s done is done… Wat pe nak bising-bising lagi kan?

So, like a friend said to me, “Hope for the best, but prepare for the worst”…

Then there was the big match… A possible title deciding match… And Man U lost… At the last ten minutes… By one dubious penalty… Hehe…

I just don’t know why Ferguson didn’t play Evra and Tevez… Well, maybe because Vidic was forced out due to injury earlier in the match… I don’t know… The play (Man U’s) is not organized and for me, it’s really really really frustrating…

Lastly, credits though to Chelsea… Avram Grant and his boys were good (just good, sebab tak nak puji lebih-lebih) tonight… And I hate that fact… hehe… 

Sigh… Whatever it is, I’d love to see how Man U and Ferguson will try to gather back their resolve and strive for their Premier League success… It’s getting more and more exciting!!!

I’ll have to see what happen to Liverpool before I decide to avoid the DH tomorrow or not, as when I’m writing this, it’s half time at St Andrews… And Liverpool is currently down by one goal…

Glory, glory, Man United 

hmm…

In announcement, me, random, real time on April 25, 2008 at 8:25 pm

I don’t know what to be put as the title here…

Tomorrow, I’ll have an entrance test for entrance to Czech medical university…

I can’t write much today… So many things to be written here but so little time… I need to prepare for the test and I’m planning to do my best with it…

I guess I need more than luck, but do pray the best for me, k?

Practice

In Undefined on April 25, 2008 at 10:43 am

Practice what you have learned, for theory without practice is like a spirit without a body… One who is content with learning alone is not learned, for the truly learned seek more than words – Hujwiri

0-0

In man united, me on April 24, 2008 at 4:46 am

There goes my 90 minutes… 

The possession was like 70 (Barcelona) – 30 (Man U)…

Ronaldo missed a third-minute penalty… If… If he scored, that would make things much easier…

But credits to the defenders though, particularly Patrice Evra, who’s been astounding this morning… And to van der Sar, who has really made the difference, you’re my hero, hehe… All at the back have never made life easy for Barcelona…

I’m totally disappointed, but assured…

Let’s bring the game to them at Old Trafford!

Green Potatoes

In health, hehe, me, plagiarized, thoughts on April 23, 2008 at 8:38 pm

Just to kill time while waiting for Isya’ and EWS…

Does any of you have issues when it comes to vegetables? It’s bitter, you might say… And you might yammer about them tasting funny and yucky… Well, not for me… I guess, I eat all sorts of vegetables (but not tomatoes though, even though I might argue that they are actually fruits)… I never liked them but I still ate them because emak always said that they are good…

However, does everything green good for you? Nope… Not the adjective associated with it… Envy…

Hehe… That’s not what I’m trying to say actually… Green potatoes are not good for us, apparently…

Here’s an important piece of information that emak told me years ago, but fewer and fewer people these days seem to know about… Green in potatoes indicates the presence of a rather harmful toxin… When you see patches of green in your potatoes as you peel them, cut out the green parts entirely and discard them…

What is the green? Actually it’s chlorophyll… Not bad for you at all… But the chlorophyll indicates that the potato has been exposed to sunlight… And where the potato has been exposed to light is where a natural toxin in the potato (solanine) becomes concentrated at harmful levels… So, never store your potatoes on the open… Always keep them in a cool, completely dark place…

This toxin can be denatured upon deep frying but better stay on the safe side… Just remove the green parts when processing raw potatoes…

Well, that’s if any of you really go to the kitchen to lend your emak a hand… xp…

This information was also mentioned in an edition of Tunas Sains or Rakan Sains (I’m not sure which)… I also checked the credibility of this info on Snopes… Apparently it’s true…

Animator vs Animation

In Technology, hehe, random on April 23, 2008 at 12:42 pm

Got a link from emak… Which I enjoyed dearly…

Go to this link, click play, leave your mouse alone, sit back and enjoy this piece of creative brilliance…

Things To Ponder Upon

In plagiarized, quotes, thoughts on April 22, 2008 at 8:47 pm

Thanks to Mrs Iffath Hasan, who continuously and endlessly sent me motivating e-mails for the past couple of years… 

I’m gonna post a duo of quotes that I find very interesting from her e-mail… 

The second half of a man’s life is made up of nothing but the habits he accumulated during the first half. What habits did you form in the first half of your life? 

What matters is not whether other people are acting in the same way or whether they notice, approve, or agree with what we do; it’s that we have the courage, character, and confidence to do what we’re supposed to do when we’re supposed to do it. 

Am I Being Fake?

In Him, Rhythm, me, real time, thoughts on April 22, 2008 at 8:26 pm

I don’t know if this happens to any of you guys out there… But certainly it happened to me… And I really feel like that now… Fake…

It has been bugging me for a while… Felt like being haunted by the past…

Let me be very honest, k?… I don’t know, upon reading this, some of you might be mad, shocked or just couldn’t bother… Hehe… Some of you might consider this as irrelevant…

After I have to face these trials (for those who know me and are close to me, you’ll know what they are), I somehow try to be very close to Him… Well, before, I still pray 5 times and be good and all, but never as serious and sincere as right now… You know, like praying at the end of the praying period… Recite the doa and never really meant it (because it gradually becomes a second nature… Like reading a script..)… And doing dark and unimaginable things in the past (which I wish to keep as a secret)… I know these are almost horrible… But that’s who I was… That’s what I did… And the intention is to throw them away, out of my life…

So, am I being fake? Or are these trials and tribulations some kind of reminder from Him? A reminder to me so I once more take a u-turn, so I didn’t stray to far away and lost in this conundrum… And as a servant who is given a reminder, isn’t it natural for me to return and repent?

I talked to a friend and he said that I should just continue and do whatever I’m doing right now… And I shouldn’t stop just because I felt like being fake… Which make much sense to me…

And on the Day of Resurrection you will see those who lied against God; their faces will be blackened. Is there not a place in hell for the self-important? And God will deliver the conscientious, setting them free in their place of refuge, where no ill will touch them, and they will not grieve. God is the creator of everything, and God is in charge of everything. The keys of the heavens and the earth belong to God, and those who deny the signs of God are the ones who are the losers. [39: 60 to 63]

Chat With Ayah

In me on April 21, 2008 at 2:12 am

First of all, this post may, I hope not, affect someone… So, sorry is all I can say… 

Secondly, it’s 2 a.m. in the morning… I’m between being sleepy and can’t sleep… So this post is just for me to kill time… I myself can’t see where this post may lead to…

Last friday, ayah came to visit me… To give me some much needed provisions… Which range from sugar to shuttlecocks to Indomee (Mee Sedap was sold out at Giant Selayang)… Well, I’ve been away from home for three weeks or so and that is going to continue… So I’m running low on things…

Another reason for the visit is that I really need to update ayah on my situation (my university application)… It just can’t be explained via a phone call…

So we start talking about ’stuffs’… About politics, about my sister who is apparently, going to be a TV star… hehe…, about me waking up late in the morning (can someone help me with this) and about responsibility…

We also talked about the ‘couple’ phenomenon…

I asked ayah on how can we marry someone we never really knew… I told him that I’m so skeptical with love after marriage… I just couldn’t see how would it be possible… For me, it’s almost funny… It’s like Sassy Girl… Hehe…

He simply answered, ‘Tengok mak dengan ayah”…

I was almost shocked with his answer… Hehe… It’s just the fact that the answer has always been there… Right in front of me…

As a family, we’re very happy… Well, there are hardships but we came through…

And for that I’m grateful…

Calamity

In being KYUEMian, event, me, thoughts on April 20, 2008 at 9:57 am

Yeah, that’s what I’d say about what happened last night… Distressing and worse, boring… And I’m somehow freaked out too… I ended up seeking refuge in my friends’ place… Particularly because Jo and Topan were home and Kim was nowhere to be seen…

Hehe, it’s just one of today’s conveniences taken away… and just for 5 or 6 hours… 

But I learned some things too… In this calamity, there’s calmness and tranquility… Between seeing and not seeing, I noticed things that I paid little attention before… About how fortunate and pampered we’re these days… And from a very unlikely source, I got my assurance of something (which I’m not tellin’, hehe…)… And for that, I’m grateful…

We don’t need spotlights to notice things… A prepared mind is what we actually need… Kadang-kadang, kuman di seberang nampak, gajah di depan mata tak nampak pulak (Sorry, if the idiom needs rephrasing)..

We don’t need spotlights to notice things… And only in total darkness can we see the stars…

Sorry…

In crap, me, you on April 20, 2008 at 9:31 am

…if I’ve been very cold and absent-minded… It was never my slightest intention to hurt anyone, especially you…

And lastly, sorry for not having the courtesy of saying this upfront… 

Importance Of Breakfast

In Rhythm, health, me, plagiarized, quotes, thoughts on April 18, 2008 at 11:53 am

Plagiarized almost directly from the e-mail I got from emak… A very important reminder for those who are like me, who totally skipped breakfast most mornings… This is just one of many reasons for having breakfast…

For those who always skipped breakfast, the best way is to drink at least a glass of orange juice… Stay healthy! :) You’ve heard many times that “Breakfast is the most important  meal of the day”… Now, recent research confirms that one of the worst practices you can develop may be avoiding breakfast… Why? 

Because the frequency of heart attack, sudden death, and stroke peaks between 6 a.m. and noon, with the highest incidence being between 8 a.m.and 10 a.m…

What mechanism within the body could account for this significant jump in sudden death in the early morning hours? We may have an answer… Platelets, tiny elements in the blood that keep us from bleeding to death if we get a cut, can clump together inside our arteries due to cholesterol or plaque buildup in the artery lining… It is in the morning hours that platelets become the most activated and tend to form these internal blood clots at the greatest frequency…

However, eating even a very light breakfast prevents the morning platelet activation that is associated with heart attacks and strokes…

Studies performed at Memorial University in St.Johns, Newfoundland, found that eating a light, very low-fat breakfast was critical in modifying the morning platelet activation… Subjects in the study consumed either low-fat or fat-free yogurt, orange juice, fruit and a source of protein coming from yogurt or fat-free milk…

So if you skip breakfast, it’s important that you change this practice immediately in light of this research… Develop a simple plan to eat cereal like Koko Crunch or Honey Stars (my favourite) along with grape juice or orange juice and perhaps a piece of fruit (well, kinda impossible in the college)… 

This simple plan will keep your platelets from ticking together, keep blood clots from forming, and perhaps head off a potential heart attack or stroke… Well, I know that we’re still young to get all these but tomorrow is never promised to anyone… Anything… Anything can happen…

The purpose of life is,

 

 




a life of purpose – Mrs. Iffath Hasan (hehe… Dramatic tak?)

Realization

In Him, being optimistic, me, quotes, real time, thoughts on April 18, 2008 at 11:34 am

From a very unlikely source, I finally got my answer… Hehe…

With it, I laughed at myself… How stupid am I to lose faith… To be so lost and foolishly think that I’m in this alone… To forgot about Him and the people around me…

Some people know that they know… But some don’t… Others, however, know that they don’t know… But worst of all is those who don’t even know that they don’t know – Pujangga (Sebenarnya terlupe sape yang tulih quote nie)

Persevere!!!

In Him, quotes on April 17, 2008 at 6:52 pm

Persevere, have faith in His benevolence… Through afflictions God only tests your faith… He is completely aware of your condition… Have patience and wait for the divine decree…

Do not become like the foolish laborer who is removed from the king’s palace for demanding his wages ahead of time – Sheikh Abdul Qadir Jilani

D

In event, man united, me, real time, self pity, thoughts on April 17, 2008 at 6:47 pm

What’s the matter with the D?

It’s the letter of the day… Hehe… Or is it T.T , rather?

Well that’s my grade for Bio… I never expected an A nor B, but if a C is a knock on the head, a D would be a Smackdown! by Stone Cold Steve Austin

D… A grade befits the amount of effort given in preparing for it… A D is a D, regardless if it’s a weak D or a strong one…

After giving out the papers, Mr. Azman called me and asked me about what went wrong… I’m just speechless, I don’t know why it turned out like this… Out of luck, maybe? After expressing some of his ‘concerns’, he then asked me this question…

What’s your strength?

I myself should be well aware of this… But sadly and surprisingly I can’t give the answer right away… Even until now, I’m not sure  anymore about what’s my strength… I don’t even know my reason… Do I even have one?

A friend of mine said, what happened today, will be a history tomorrow… But what will make the difference is the things you do after anything bad that happened… Blame others? Blame yourself? Or should you just move on and try to bounce back?

Down, but never out! – The commentator during Man U’s miraculous comeback in the final match of Champions League 1999

Don’t Tell – Encore

In Poem, Undefined, me, real time, thoughts on April 16, 2008 at 1:46 am

To those who didn’t enjoy poems, sorry for posting another poem consecutively after another… This has got to be done…

Well, I’ve posted this poem before, but I just think that this poem suits with my situation right now, rather perfectly…

Don’t tell me that you understand, don’t tell me that you know,

Don’t tell me that I will survive, how I will surely grow.

Don’t tell me this is just a test, that I am truly blessed,

That I am chosen for this task, apart from all the rest.

 

Don’t come at me with answers that can only come from me,

Don’t tell me how my grief will pass, that I will soon be free.

Don’t stand in pious judgment of the bonds I must untie,

Don’t tell me how to suffer, don’t tell me how to cry.

 

My life is filled with selfishness, my pain is all I see,

But I need you, I need your love, unconditionally.

Accept me in my ups and downs, I need someone to share,

 

Just hold my hand and let me cry, and say,

“My friend, I really do care.”

I do not need a friend who changes when I change and who nods when I nod ; my shadow does that much better – Plutarch

April 15, 1912

In thoughts on April 15, 2008 at 8:13 pm

Do any of you are aware of what day it was?

Well I suggest not so many people would have remembered it… Even I didn’t… For what?

It was the day Titanic sank… It was the day mankind was humbled by the power of god almighty… The day an unsinkable ship sank on her very first voyage, her maiden voyage… Titanic slid down the rails at a time when blind faith in technology was peaking, and its sinking became the 20th-century metaphor for the futile conceit that humans can ever conquer nature…

Whatever it is, God is great and there’s no doubt about it…

God Himself Could Not Sink This Ship’, said one of the sailor working on that ship (from what I recalled from the movie Titanic [1997])… ‘Up my sass‘, I would say to him…

If You Want To Forget

In Poem, me, plagiarized, you on April 14, 2008 at 3:30 pm

Another poem that I can’t believe posting… Adapted from a poem I read…  

Well,

it’s OK…

Cos it,

happens…

 

I guess you know,

when I look up the blue sky,

listen to the song,

and walk on the sideways,

everything carries me back to you…

Whatever I do,

hug the pillow,

have a nap,

or just lay low,

they are just like little boats,

that’ll eventually,

sail me to the isle

named

you…

 

But, just in case,

little by little you stop loving me,

me, too, will stop loving you,

little by little…

 

But, god forbid,

if suddenly you forget me,

look not for me as I’ve already,

forgotten you…

 

But 

if each day and each hour,

you feel that you’re for me,

and I’m for you,

if you feel it irreplaceably,

like countless sprouts rise

for every fallen tree…

My love will be in your arms,

unextinguished forever,

without living mine…

May you rise again, from seed to sapling to sentience again – Everbark Shaman

Yeah!!!

In Undefined, man united, me, real time on April 14, 2008 at 2:00 am

Just watched the match between Man U and Arsenal… It was really intense for me… Arsenal was threatening all the time and I just can’t sit still during the match…

Fergie earlier said that the team is in a decent form… Well that’s agreeable, because the team was indeed decent and not in its best form… This was translated during this match… For me, the defense were erratic…

Man U was trailing at the start of the second half, thanks to Adebayor’s goal… But as quickly as Arsenal gained the lead, Man U drew level through penalty kicks (twice) by Ronaldo… Hehe, thanks to Gallas who committed the crime of handling…

The game then became wide open for both sides… Suddenly, the unthinkable happened, Evra proceed with the ball through the middle (he’s a left back)… He was then fouled and awarded Man U a priceless free kick at the edge of the box… Lehmann (according to some, takde tangan) was then beaten by Hargreaves, who provide a fantastic goal… He didn’t even move or budge… He just stand there and be witness of Arsenal’s shattered dream… Here’s the video of the goal…

Whatever it is, it’s still not over… I can see a thunderstorm coming Man U’s way…

UPDATE : Apparently, YouTube didn’t allow for goals to be posted… So, for now the video is no longer available…

(—)(…) (–.)(—)(-..)…

In Him, me on April 13, 2008 at 3:46 pm

Jihad is the struggle against one’s inner self and it’s bestial inclinations. It is this struggle, in fact, which the Prophet of Islam (Allah’s blessings and peace upon him) dubbed “The greater Jihad”

I don’t know what’s wrong with me lately… As time passes by, I feel more and more like drowning in a bottomless sea… I don’t know why, but I’m pretty sure that I incurred this myself… 

Wouldn’t it be nice if the time I spent serving Him is of the same length and quality like the time I spent for myself?

Hello? Hello? Is there anybody listening?

Ten Past Three To Yuma

In movie, quotes, review on April 12, 2008 at 12:19 am

This cowboy movie takes place between the town of Bisbee and a train station located somewhere in another town (Which I forgot its name)… It’s an action movie I suppose, considering the number of gunshots fired and the amount of blood spilled… 

A story of a humble rancher who served in the Civil War and left with only one functioning leg… The drought, creditors extorting money and hopelessness forces Dan Evans to volunteer as one of the escorts for a notorious gang leader, Ben Wade (Russell Crowe) for a mere $200 (Well, considering life’s pricelessness)…

The story started to get exciting when Ben Wade and Dan Evans start to develop some kind of ‘friendship’ I’d say… However, this never shudder Dan’s will to bring Wade to the train station and board the 3:10 train to Yuma Prison…  Along the journey, they went through all kinds of troubles… And went through all of them…

In the end, the viewers will be told why Dan really wants to do this despite all the hardships and the fact that he may lead a better life walking away from trouble…

Casts are all good… Bale, Russell Crowe (duh…) and Logan Lerman however, are exceptional… I haven’t seen Logan Lerman in a movie but he’s now better than back in Jack and Bobby…

Well I guess I got to recommend it… An 8/10…

Even bad men love their mamas – Ben Wade

Apologize – Boyce Avenue

In music, song, video on April 11, 2008 at 3:39 pm

This is really, really good… What a talent! 

There are more videos by Boyce Avenue, but hell no, I’m not going to post all the videos here… Go there and listen for yourself…

Sedapnye sore die!!!

Forgiving

In Rhythm, thoughts on April 11, 2008 at 3:32 pm

In this world, we are bound to be upset… If we do not create it ourselves (like not preparing for an exam… For me it was the trials this week), we can pick it up from others… The trick is to let it go in forgiveness the moment we become aware of it, because when we’re angry, we’re not ourselves (Or is it our true selves that come out when we’re angry?)…

In this way, we can keep our emotional self in healthy shape… The mental body works on the same principle as the physical and emotional bodies, and we must keep it in balance, as well…

Well writing and talking are always easy… But giving something a try might worth you while…

Have a very nice day!

Male or Female? #1

In Project Male Or Female, funny, hehe, plagiarized on April 11, 2008 at 12:44 pm

I got it from my mama, I got it from my mama… [ I Got It From My Mama - Will.I.Am]

Hehe… Do objects have sex? (No, not as in having sex… I mean can they be classified as male or female? Nonetheless, I like the way you think) xp… xp… xp…

Well, some might say that this post might be sexist in nature… But I don’t see what’s wrong with it because this is just a joke… Those who take it to their hearts… Sorry, tough luck!

K, the object today is hammer…

Hammers, are male… It’s tough and strong… One hit on the head and you’ll see stars… Also looking at the architecture of a hammer, the design have hardly change at all… For the past few centuries, a hammer has been always a hammer and a hammer always looked like that… Men will be men, just like boys will always be boys… Also, having male around can be handy sometimes, especially for a woman who is shopping like there’s no tomorrow and day after tomorrow… 

 

Good Baby Good

In movie, review, thoughts on April 10, 2008 at 12:36 am

I’ve just finished watching the movie directed by Ben Affleck, Gone Baby Gone… It’s a thriller(Is it?) about child abduction…

I wouldn’t say that this movie is great… For me, it’s just good… Hehe, some might disagree with me on this… I just don’t like the ending… Well, it’s indeed twisted and unprecedented… I just feel that something’s missing… The movie ended without stating who’s right who’s wrong… That’s OK too because it forces me to decide which side is… This may not make much sense but watch it and you’ll get what I’m trying to say… 

This oscar nominated movie takes place in the suburbs of… Of… Oh, I forgot, sorry… It’s so full of depth and details… Ironically, it clearly pictured life in the suburb in a very subtle way… I pretty much liked how deep the movie let me dive into it… It’s more than just a movie about kidnapping, it’s about people… Praise for Ben Affleck because I believe that he did a terrific job in directing this movie…

In terms of the casts, I’d say that the performance is impressive… It can’t be argued that Morgan Freeman is one of the best actor but it’s the young Affleck (Ben Affleck’s brother) that really steals the spotlight… His narrating in this movie is almost as good as Morgan Freeman’s…

Highly Recommended!

“You are sheep among wolves, be wise as serpents, yet innocent as doves”

That’s When…

In Poem, Undefined, me, you on April 9, 2008 at 12:14 am

…nothing you do could change my mind

Untitled #3

In Undefined, funny, hehe on April 8, 2008 at 4:47 pm

Alarm! Alarm!

In crap, event, hehe, me on April 7, 2008 at 8:00 pm

Another 4 a.m. post… This may not make any sense but I’m just bored and worn out…

A Lipas (Cockroach) has infiltrated our chalet… As we were chatting in Kim’s room, suddenly, a creepy black figure appeared… Its antenna wiggles and it brandished its wings, ready to fly away… The smell, urghh… Only god knows…

Seeing this, our reactions were quick, abrupt and almost identical… We quickly fled the scene and cleared Kim’s room, while screaming in fear… Except for Topan, all of us are then armed with a canister of Shieldtox Attack each… After getting our resolves back, we planned a counter-measure… We’re going to face that damned pest…

So the counter attack begins… Kim went in first and pushed the trigger first… It seemed like its going to be an instant kill… However, sadly and unfortunately, the canister is already empty… So it’s like shooting without bullet… Our black friend seemed to be very lucky… For now…

Like a trained spy, it expertly escaped into the space beneath Kim’s cupboard… I entered the battlefield after making sure the Shieldtox I have is fully loaded… But the enemy is nowhere to be seen… It seems like we have an armed and dangerous villain lurking around the chalet, unchallenged and roaming freely at will…

So Kim decided to lift up his cupboard while I sprayed toxic vapors into the space underneath, just in case as it might be there… 

To our amazement, the infiltrator finally came out to surrender… But we take no prisoner here… Even more, its a cockroach… It took a direct hit and now it’s in the ecstasy of dying upside down…

So that’s the story of the battle between four men (or boys) and a terrifying cockroach… Hehe… 

PCMac

In Technology, funny, hehe, video on April 7, 2008 at 12:15 pm

“Mac or PC” Rap Music Video – Mac vs PC

Nice music and video… It’s funny too…

Apparently, Apple has included Safari (a web browser) in its recent update for iTunes… So I gave it a try and so far, I’m lovin’ every bit of it… The only downside is the lack of add-ons available, for now…

I’m currently using a combination of Windows XP, Safari and iTunes… So, does that makes my laptop a PCMac? 

Mona’s Brother

In Undefined, funny, hehe on April 7, 2008 at 9:03 am

Courtesy of emak’s email…

Pure resemblence

Pure Resemblance… hehe…

4.45 a.m. Poem

In Poem, me, you on April 6, 2008 at 9:07 pm

When you have to look away,

and don’t have much to say.

When I hear you stumble when you speak,

and when your voice cracked and squeaked.

 

When you turned and smile,

or change away the topic miles.

When your jokes make only you laugh,

and when I didn’t fall for your bluffs.

 

When you made a fool of yourself,

Or trying too hard to look tight.

When you snored,

and drooled.

 

That’s when…

People are funny, they don’t know that they are special to someone… 

Back!!!

In announcement on April 6, 2008 at 7:31 pm

After the ‘hiatus’… hehe…

I was just ‘malas’… No excuse about that…

A Sad Song…

In song on April 6, 2008 at 7:29 pm

I want to sleep but I can’t… Bored and decided to share this song… By Luther Vandross…

 

Back when I was a child 

Before life removed all the innocence 

My father would lift me high 

And dance with my mother and me and then 

 

Spin me around till I fell asleep 

Then up the stairs he would carry me 

And I knew for sure 

I was loved 

 

If I could get another chance 

Another walk, another dance with him 

I’d play a song that would never, ever end 

How I’d love, love, love to dance with my father again 

 

When I and my mother would disagree 

To get my way I would run from her to him 

He’d make me laugh just to comfort me, yeah, yeah 

Then finally make me do just what my mama said 

 

Later that night when I was asleep 

He left a dollar under my sheet 

Never dreamed that he 

Would be gone from me 

 

If I could steal one final glance 

One final step, one final dance with him 

I’d play a song that would never, ever end 

Cause I’d love, love, love to dance with my father 

again…

 

Sometimes I’d listen outside her door 

And I’d hear her, mama cryin’ for him 

I pray for her even more than me 

I pray for her even more than me 

 

I know I’m prayin’ for much too much 

But could You send back the only man she loved 

I know You don’t do it usually 

But Lord, she’s dyin’ to dance with my father again 

Every night I fall asleep 

And this is all I ever dream 

T.T

Naik Bas

In crap, random on March 19, 2008 at 3:50 pm

Learned something today… Which is good as I’m currently living under the poverty line… Well, almost all students are in poverty, as most of us have little to no income at all…

It’s a lot cheaper to travel around KL by bus, compared to the LRT and Taxi (duh…)… As I paid RM2 once and I can use the ticket for the whole day, countless of times*…

*TERMS AND CONDITIONS APPLIED

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What Rights Do I Have?

In me, questions, real time, thoughts, wonder on March 18, 2008 at 3:47 pm

Today is so productive (relative to what I’ve been doing up till now)… I finished my Biology homework and did some revision on Chemistry… Thanks to KL library, I’ve found a place where I can find tranquility and solace amidst the hustle and bustle of city life…

Situated next to the Dataran Merdeka, it’s so far the most sophisticated public library I’ve ever been in… Automated borrowing and returning system, wi-fi (which is an added bonus) and good books… You can even find Das Kapital there…

Well that’s not really what I want to post today… Today I intend to write about something I’ve been longing to write… Something I’ve depressingly noticed through my journey around KL…

Well, I’ve been walking (I mean walk, not by LRT, Komuter nor RapidKL) all over KL on Saturday…  First, the destination was KL library… But as I’m not sensible enough to consider that it’s third Saturday (thus, a holiday), I ended up being told by the guard to just go home… I cursed myself for my own stupidity… Not that I’m angry, I’m just disappointed that I’m not mature enough to have the ‘instinct’ to check its opening hours first… Hmm… I fear growing up… Not that I hate it though… Growing up does come with its perks and privileges… Like going back home late and no one asking where I’m going… hehe… What rights do I have to not grow up and embrace the responsibilities that come with it willingly?

Having nowhere to go, I decided to go to Low Yat Plaza, to buy my mom her much needed thumb drive… Then I walked to KLCC to have lunch with Ayah… It’s a long way (I know) and along the way, I passed through people with suits and ties, complete with shiny black leather suitcases… People who I presume, have lots and lots of money (looks can be deceiving, though) I don’t know, as I came across these torrent of unfamiliar faces a sudden yet snow-balling realization came to my mind… A realization of that these people are in despair… That they, despite their sleek and smart outfits, big Mercedes Benz Kompressor and big thick wallet, are drowned in sea of troubles of some sort… When I looked at them in the eyes, very few (from a couple to none) people smiled back when I smiled at them… It’s as if something has stiffen their facial muscle from stretching a smile…

No, I’m not blaming them… What rights do I have to blame them for not smiling back to a mere stranger? Furthermore, what rights do I have to ask them why are they so unhappy or at the least, seemed unhappy? Even furthermore, what rights do I have to feel happy when I saw that they are unhappy like I was feeling back then?

Just like my walkathon around KL, in this post, I got lost, found my way and got lost again… Sorry…

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I Ran Into A Stranger

In Poem, family, plagiarized on March 16, 2008 at 3:28 pm
Found this poem in a blog… It’s so true and I can’t resist sharing this… Let’s not forget the value of the family… Because in its ordinariness, we tend to abuse it…

I Ran Into A Stranger
(Anonymous)

I ran into a stranger as he passed by,
“Oh excuse me, please” was my reply.
He said, “Please excuse me too;
I wasn’t watching out for you.”
We were very polite, this stranger and I.
We went on our way and we said goodbye.

But at home a different story is told,
How we treat our loved ones, young and old.
Later that day, cooking the evening meal,
My son stood beside me very still.
When I turned, I nearly knocked him down.
“Move out of the way!” I said with a frown.

He walked away, his little heart broken.
I didn’t realize how harshly I’d spoken.
While I lay awake in bed,
God’s still small voice came to me and said,
“While dealing with a stranger, common courtesy you use,
But the family you love, you seem to abuse.”

“Go and look on the kitchen floor,
You’ll find some flowers there by the door.
Those are the flowers he brought for you.
He picked them himself; pink, yellow and blue.
He stood very quietly not to spoil the surprise,
You never saw the tears that filled his little eyes.”

By this time, I felt very small,
And now my tears began to fall.
I quietly went and knelt by his bed;
“Wake up, little one, wake up,” I said.
“Are these the flowers you picked for me?”
He smiled, “I found ‘em, out by the tree.”

“I picked ‘em because they’re pretty like you.
I knew you’d like ‘em, especially the blue.”
I said, “Son, I’m sorry for the way I acted today;
I shouldn’t have yelled at you that way.”
He said, “Oh, Mom, that’s okay. “I love you anyway.”
I said, “Son, I love you too,
And I do like the flowers, especially the blue.”

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When You Feel…

In Undefined on March 14, 2008 at 11:42 am
cold and warm at the same time…
When a line is read over and over again…
When your heart and thoughts somehow, appear to rhyme…
When a simple name conquers your mind…
When longing and missing become a hobby…

Well… Hehe… You’re in deep trouble my dear friend… You’re in love…

Or is it lust? Hehe…

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Caught My Fancy – Silence (LIVE) by Danny Malone

In Undefined on March 13, 2008 at 4:33 pm

UPDATE : Apparently, Baby Bleu was featured in the YouTube, which is even better than Silence

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Poverty

In Undefined on March 13, 2008 at 11:31 am
Have no fear for giving in
Have no fear for giving over
You better know that in the end its better to say too much
Than to never to say what you need to say again

Even if your hands are shaking
And your faith is broken
Even as the eyes are closing
Do it with a heart wide open
Why?
Say what you need to say

Say, John Mayer

How does it feel to be poor? Honestly, my answer would be ‘I don’t know’… Hehe… I think the closest I felt to being poor was when I don’t have any money at all at school… Well, that was when financial planning is not my thing… I spent all the money I had like there is no tomorrow… Hmm… I don’t think that’s what really meant as being poor… I can still eat at the ‘Dewan Makan’ or ‘Dewan Miskin’ they called it… Hehe… And the quality is very good, relative to its cheap price… I don’t have to beg for money nor I have to apply for dole… All in all, I don’t have to starve myself and look for food… Oh, how lucky I am…

Do they even know that they can live better?

Well, then what does it feel like being poor? I’m not the right person to talk about poverty, I’ve never experienced it… But let me humbly share some trivia on poverty and perhaps on why can’t it just go away, after everything the we’ve (or they’ve, rather) done…

  • Half the world — nearly three billion people — live on less than two dollars a day.
  • The GDP (Gross Domestic Product) of the 41 Heavily Indebted Poor Countries (567 million people) is less than the wealth of the world’s 7 richest people combined.
  • Nearly a billion people entered the 21st century unable to read a book or sign their names.
  • Less than one per cent of what the world spent every year on weapons was needed to put every child into school by the year 2000 and yet it didn’t happen.
  • 1 billion children live in poverty (1 in 2 children in the world). 640 million live without adequate shelter, 400 million have no access to safe water, 270 million have no access to health services. 10.6 million died in 2003 before they reached the age of 5 (or roughly 29,000 children per day).

Should we just put the blame on the people for being poor? Should we blame their bad decisions in life… Or maybe, we can blame their laziness then for their own predicament? Is there no one else to be blamed? Have their government done enough in helping them? Can’t it be the policies that caused this problem? However, bear in mind that pointing fingers won’t do much… What we need are solutions…

Poverty is not about not having enough food for everyone nor it is about overpopulation…It happens because people simply don’t have enough money to buy them… Without money, they can’t afford all the necessities – food, shelter and clothing… Without shelter and proper clothing, people will be more susceptible to diseases… Poor sanitation makes things worse… Without food, protein specifically, they can’t produce adequate antibody to fight off diseases… Without food, they become weak and can easily become ill… They finally, can’t go to work… Without working they’ll have no money so they are now caught in the vicious, downward cycle of poverty…

What happen to aids given by developed nations to the poor countries?… Well, aids do help much in relieving poverty… However, sadly, it only helps in a short term… Wanna know why? Here’s the deal… Aid is free so farmers have to sell their food very cheaply in order to stay competitive… This can adversely affect the entire economy of a poor agricultural country… What they actually need is not fish, but rather, they need fishing rod… Aid maintains poverty, even though it didn’t make things worse…

Hmm… I just can’t imagine that half of the world is in poverty… And even more sadly, today, over 26500 children died around the world… It’s roughly one child for every 3 seconds… *sigh*

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Rush Hour

In Undefined on March 13, 2008 at 10:46 am
Well I had a conversation with a good friend of mine… We’re eating at the KLCC and it was 5p.m., which is not a good thing as I planned to go to Low Yat (as it’s rush hour)… Then he brought this up, which I think is downright funny but absolutely correct…
Why do people call it rush hour when it’s the time when everything is closest to a stand still?

Why?

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Proper Baby Care

In Undefined on March 12, 2008 at 5:18 am

hehe…

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Step Up

In Undefined on March 12, 2008 at 1:49 am
Hmm.. This morning, things seem to be going on well… Except for my little bro and sis who are really testing my patience… Hehe… Kids…

I was looking for something to read in the Internet and I found a few blogs that really made me think… So this is one of the things that I read… I hope that this is worth sharing…


One day a farmer’s donkey fell down into a well. The animal cried piteously for hours as the farmer tried to figure out what to do. Finally he decided the animal was old, and the well needed to be covered up anyway; it just wasn’t worth it to retrieve the donkey.

He then invited all his neighbors to come over and help him. they all grabbed a shovel and began to shovel dirt into the well. At first, the donkey realized what was happening and cried horribly. Then,to everyone’s amazement, he quieted down.

A few shovel loads later, the farmer finally looked down the well, and was astonished at what he saw. With every shovel of dirt that hit his back, the donkey was doing something amazing. He would shake it off and take a step up. As the farmer’s neighbors continued to shovel dirt on top of the animal, he would shake it off and take a step up. Pretty soon, everyone was amazed as the donkey stepped up over the edge of the well and trotted off!

Life is going to shovel dirt on you, all kinds of dirt. The trick to getting out of the well is to shake it off and take a step up. Each of our troubles is a stepping stone. We can get out of the deepest wells just by not stopping, never giving up.


Shake it off and take a step up!

This was stumbled upon at JeffBridges.com

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ZAFT No Tame Ni!!!

In Undefined on March 11, 2008 at 5:49 am

Memories lie just where you leave them,
they’ll burn their cages till
your heaven meets my hell.
Your promises hold no living truths,
so that’s all I’ll know of you,
unless our eternity bends
and your past alters my future.

Listening To The Rain


It’s been a while since my last post on anime that I watched… Just now, I’ve just finished a Gundam SEED marathon, which wasted me a day and a half… Which is relatively shorter than the time it took me to download the whole series of 12GB, that is three days… Well it’s not that I’m anime freak or what, it’s just that I don’t want to spent too much time clinging on to it, as I want to start doing my revision soon…

Hehe… I know that animes are fictions but these are among few things in the television that made me experienced some degree of hyper-reality… xp…

First, some intro… It’s about the world in Cosmic Era (C.E.) 71, which I’m not sure it correlates with what A.D., that descend into chaos due to war that’s fueled by jealousy… The war is between ‘coordinator’ and ‘natural’… Natural are normal human beings like most of us, I guess, who were born naturally… Coordinator, however, are enhanced human that had their DNA altered through genetic modification… This means that they are far superior to naturals, physically and mentally… Well, as more and more coordinator were born, their superiority triggered jealousy and anger among naturals… And the rest can be watched in the anime, if any of you guys are interested…

Well, what I like about some movies and almost all anime is the fact that, it passively forces you to think about things that matters… Obviously, an anime is an anime, so it is not real… But somehow I can relate it with situations in our world today… Well, as it consists of 50 Episodes, there are quite a lot to be thought about…

First, why war?… It’s been here with us for centuries… Like I’ve said before, it seems like another bad habit of our species… Some might say that war is necessary… Some say that in order to protect, we must pick up arms and fight… Some say that we could be well off without war… In war, people caught up in a vicious cycle of endless killings… You killed one man… And his brother kills you then… After that, your best friend kills your killer… Thus it goes on, endless… Also, what constitutes victory? Is it victory if all the enemies are wiped out? Which side is the right one as both are fighting for what they believe and want to protect? And lastly why is it that the innocents suffered the greatest during war, even when they didn’t have a clue… Well, I guess that war does provide us with solutions, though it claimed huge sacrifices… If war is really irrelevant, why do we still use it as a mean to settle disputes? In my humble view however,it depends on what kind of war are we fighting… War to gain global dominance, war for profit and war to oppress are definitely out of the question… War is indeed important… Only then will people realize the true treasure of peace that everyone takes for granted…

Secondly, something which is quite new to us… Genetic modification… It’s just recently that we’ve discovered the way to alter human DNA in order to enhance our species and speed up evolution… Given the time, we can possibly ‘play’ God…Wouldn’t it be great if we can (like in this anime) have a noble laureate, who’s also an Olympic gold medalist, a football player and an astronaut? Those are certainly an amazing feats… But is it necessary? In the anime, some problems that may occur if genetic fiddling is made legal are highlighted… If it’s made legal, people will surely want to design their offspring… However, as access to this type of technology is only exclusive to the wealthy, the world will become less fair or more unfair… This difference could then spark envy and jealousy… There is tension even between people of different colors or races, so it’d definitely be worse between people with huge gap of potentials… Well, it can be argued that even if there are people with modified DNA, they’d still have to be trained and educated well to hone their ability to the fullest… Well, this situation seemed ridiculous, but it’s still possible isn’t it?

Well, I’d love to say that this anime is very cool… But I like Gundam SEED Destiny (the sequel) more…

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My Hero Project #2 – Saladin

In Undefined on March 10, 2008 at 3:58 pm

Salah Ad-Din Yusuf Ibn Ayyub, Righteousness of the Faith (westernized to Saladin) was the Sultan of Egypt, Palestine, Syria and Yemen… He founded the Ayyubid Dynasty and captured Jerusalem from the Christians… He’s also known as the most famous Muslim hero and a legendary military tactician…

Saladin was born in Tikrit but spent his life growing up in Damascus… He joined the military, under the command of his uncle and by the age of 31, he had been appointed vizier (It’s a link, just in case, if you guys want to know) of the Fatimid caliphate in Egypt, as well as commander of the Syrian troops there…

Even though he played a major role in fighting off crusaders, particularly in the third crusade, he achieved an honorable reputation in the Europe… He appeared in various literature and writings… Saladin appears in a sympathetic light in Sir Walter Scott’s The Talisman (1825), when despite the Crusaders’ slaughter when they originally conquered Jerusalem in 1099, Saladin granted amnesty and free passage to all common Catholics and even to the defeated Christian army, as long as they were able to pay the aforementioned ransom… This is clearly pictured in the movie ‘Kingdom of Heaven’ by the director Ridley Scott… Hmm, for me it’s a very good watch…

Until today, his legacy can still clearly be seen… For example, during the Arab uprising particularly due to Arab(or Palestine, rather)-Israel conflict, his heroism during his reoccupation of Jerusalem is taken as an inspiration in Palestine’s struggle against Zionism… His symbol (the eagle) can be seen in some of Arab countries’ coat of arms… These include Iraq, Yemen and Egypt…

His contributions are not restricted only to being an army commander that captured Jerusalem from the Christians… He is also a very charitable person… In fact, when he died and they opened his treasury, there was no enough money to pay for his own funeral, as he has given almost everything of his to charity… (The following is plagiarized from the Wikipedia) In April 1191, a Frankish woman’s three month old baby had been stolen from her camp and had been sold on the market. The Franks urged her to approach Saladin herself with her grievance. After Saladin used his own money to buy the child, he gave it to the mother and she took it; with tears streaming down her face, and hugged it to her breast… She suckled it for some time and then Saladin ordered a horse to be fetched for her and she went back to camp…

So that’s all I guess…

Nothing………….. Everything…

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Do You Feel It?

In me, thoughts on March 8, 2008 at 6:56 pm
The wave of change resonates… Ahh… It’s so refreshing…

Don’t just sit back… Get ready… It’s just starting anyway…

So, now, it really begins…

Hehe… Seriously, it’s just like watching football…

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So It Begins…

In me, politics, thoughts on March 8, 2008 at 1:40 pm
First of all, I just want to clarify that I’m not politically active and certainly I’m not picking sides… But today is the election, so I think it’d be OK for me to share my say on politics… Secondly, as a mere human being, I am clouded with emotion and believes… So bear with me… Thirdly, I’m not interested in imposing my world view on anyone, instead, I’m just sharing…

OK… Politics… Some people say that it’s dirty, anyone in it is dirty and in the whole it’s dirty… I partially agree only with the second one… People can sometimes be dirty… And they make politics dirty… hehe… Why election is so important? Well, it determines the country’s future and everyone in it… Election allows the people to let a government they are satisfied with stay or change for a new, hopefully better, one… But this is not the case for our country… I have no idea about why is that happening… Things are definitely a lot better these days compared to back then… But, is it?

I don’t know… I’m not the one who worked my ass off for money so that I can keep some food on the table… Price hike? I felt nothing… Corruption? Nah, I’m not affected… Discrimination? Well, I’m kinda comfortable in here… Transparency of the media? Should I care (I usually read only the sports section)?

Some people say… Why bother about politics and election? I personally find this question absurd… Hell it’s important! The government we (or our parents, rather) elect is going to stuck with us for the next five years… They are the ones who gonna make the decision for us… They are the ones who get to use our money for, our good (supposedly)… They are the ones who’ll decide on what kind of country they’d like to make… They’re the ones who will wield the power…

Lastly, I’d like to say, let us fulfill our duty when the time comes… Fear not for change… Because change is good…

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Three Lives

In thoughts on March 7, 2008 at 7:07 am
I stumbled upon an interesting blog… It talked about life and happiness… The content is great, but the thing that really intrigues me is the title… Three Lives…

Why three lives make sense? First there is the life other people think we have… Secondly, is the life we think we have… Lastly is the life we actually have…

But then, a problem arises… People do not consist of only one entity… So there are actually more than one life that they can think of us having… So three lives is kinda irrelevant…

Whatever…

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Pregnancy Movies Review

In review on March 6, 2008 at 5:04 pm
I tried to not to talk about movies that I watched, but I found that to be quite hard… I decided to post just one post to represent all the movies that I’ve enjoyed every week… To avoid writing so many posts on each movie that I watched… The theme for this week is pregnancy, in conjunction of my Biology class starting and finishing of the topic ‘Aspect of Human Reproduction’…
The first one is Juno… Which for me, the storyline is just mediocre (biase-biase je)… But credits to Ellen Page, who did a very great job… Her acting is just so mature… If not spectacular, it’s effective… If you want another proof, go and watch Hard Candy if you want… Well Hard Candy sucks, but for me, Ellen Page is just exceptional… She’s still young and getting better, so I guess it’s good for her… I’m 70-30 on recommending this movie… If you’re looking for some good sarcasms and cynical comedy, this is for you… But some of my friends already claimed that this movie is kinda ’sucks’…

Secondly, it’s Knocked Up… It’s about a loser having a one night stand with an E! hostess… Unfortunately (or fortunately) the girl got pregnant… The pregnancy changed both of them, by making the guy to be more grown up and taught the girl about something that’s not related to work… This one… I don’t know, I was very bored back then and slept halfway… So definitely not a recommendation…

The last but certainly not the least is Children of Men… This 2006 Oscar nominee is so original in storyline and camera angle… The situation is a dystopia in the future, as a result of worldwide infertility of mankind… Riots, refugees, paranoia and anarchy rule the world… These necessitate the establishment of a totalitarian-George Orwell’s ‘1984′ish government… Surveillance and police state are clearly in action… The youngest man is 18 years old… Elementary schools are deserted and sand in the playground fades, blown by the wind, not replaced… However, within this world wide conundrum (as everyone is confused), a woman gave birth to a baby… And many wanted this baby as it can unite people, and this can wield power for them… So the movie is about the journey taken by the mom to get to a sanctuary called ‘The Human Project’….


The film features solid performances from Clive Owen, who is at his rugged, rumpled best, and Julianne Moore… Supporting players also do well, Michael Caine is terrific as Theo’s pot-growing hippie friend, the versatile Chiwitel Ejiofor is again in fine form as a revolutionary cell leader, and Pam Ferris is also good as another of Kee’s protectors… Claire-Hope Ashitey also stands out as the illegal immigrant who may well be humanity’s hope for the future… But for me, the actress that I loved most in this movie is Oana Pellea, the gypsy who is very innocent yet brave…

This movie, made me cry to be honest… hehe… There was one scene when the gun shots stopped when everyone realized that there’s a baby newly born… Instantly all the pictures of war that are going on all around the world come into mind… What if all these can’t be stopped as easily as in the movie?

It’s in IMDb top 250 movies… My verdict? I guess a 90-10 recommendation, no question asked… Warning: It’s a serious movie…

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Nearly Scammed… Again

In me, real time on March 4, 2008 at 9:12 am
Wahahaha… My latest experience… This happened today…

I had an interview today at Renaissance KL… The interview started at 1.30 p.m. … As the other girl’s interview was at 3 p.m. … I decided to walk to KLCC…

So there I went…

Then I ate…

Then I walked around…

And I ate again…

Then I head back to Renaissance…

On the way, one man ‘tegur’ed me… So, the following is my conversation with him,,,

The guy: Hello brother, how are you?
Me: Fine: thanks…
The guy: Where are you from?
Me: (Without answering) Where are you from?
The guy:I’m from Kashmir
Me: Ohh… In the border of Pakistan and India, is it?
The guy: (Without answering… Which may indicate that he doesn’t even know where Kashmir is) You’ll be lucky next month… (His Indian accent is very noticeable though, which is kinda funny… No offense though)
Me: Why? (In my heart: What’s wrong with this man?)
The guy: You want to know why? It’s because I meet you here…

Then he stopped me and took out his purse or wallet or whatever… He asked me for my full name… I said Abu (There’s no way I’m giving out my name to a stranger) and he wrote my name on a piece of paper…

The guy: What’s your favourite number, flower and what do you wish?
Me: Well… Hibiscus (which isn’t), 8 and do well in my study…

So he wrote those ‘details’ down… Then he took another piece of paper, crumpled it and gave it to me…

So he continued talking and talking… About my weaknesses… He said that I’m too open and I’m lazy… Well, I guess I am too open with people (certain people, which I may hurt in the process)… I am lazy… But for me… I believe that my greatest weakness is that I’m gullible… hehe… Which he failed to identify…

So I just said… OK… I asked him… “Now what?”

He continued and told me not to worry… He said that next month (April) I’ll be very lucky… Because he said that he’s going to pray for me…

So, being a grateful human being, I said thanks.. (But no thanks, hehe)

He then asked me to show my forehead to him, blow the crumpled paper that he gave me three times and say ‘Bad Luck Go Away’… Wahaha… I did those things… All of them… K, laugh at me… Laugh all you want… Hehe…

‘Miraculously’… All the things that I told him, appeared there… I don’t know how… But I guess he might have used a carbon paper or something of that sort…

He said that after knowing my weaknesses, I should not worry… Because he’ll pray for me and I’ll be very lucky next month…

The guy: So now that I’ll pray for you… You should give me some money…

He showed me a list of people with amount of money that they ‘gave’ him… There are RM600, RM300…Now I know that he’s squeezing me for money…

Don’t wanna create a commotion nor trouble, I gave him RM1 of my money… Mine!!! He then made this face… Face of a puppy that have lost its mother… He said, “put RM50, brother”… I explained that I’m just a student and don’t have much money… He then said, “money is not important compared to your life”… I suddenly felt a rush of blood into my head… It’s true that life is priceless compared to my life… Is he threatening to kill me or he simply means that I should give some money for my good life later… He then said, “OK, put RM10 then”… I refused for quite a while and he ended up asking for another RM1

So, I then put another RM1… And walked away…

Do I look too naive (hehe) and gullible? I just want to be nice to people… But some people tend to take advantage of it… Thing learned? Never trust a stranger… Never…

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A Skin Disease

In Poem on March 3, 2008 at 4:02 am
Ouch…
It hurts,
And it’s hot,
But let it be, I’m gonna not!

Of many variety,
Some juicy yellow, some red with fury,
Some big and small,
And for some, it brings dismal.

Botox and facial,
Surgery or chemical,
Worked rarely or never,
Or later, again it appears.

Pimple,
Though a culprit against perfection,
An epitome of normalcy.

As human we are, imperfect,
As perfect is and only for Him.

11.30 a.m., Malaysian Studies

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My Hero Project #1 – Ibn Hayyan

In me, thoughts on March 2, 2008 at 4:08 pm
My wealth let sons and brethren part. Some things they cannot share: my work well done, my noble heart — these are mine own to wear – Ibn Hayyan
I was surfing through the Net and found some blogs about dead people, xp… They talked about great people in the west, how they lead their lives back then, their contributions and achievements, how they died and how their lives affected our world today…

Suddenly it occurred to me… Aren’t there great people too, in the east? The answer to that question is obviously, Yes… So I decided to write about them and God-willing, I’ll write about a great person each week… I’m gonna name this project ‘My Heroes Project’…

So… the person for this week is Abu Musa Jabir bin Hayyan, or Geber in Latin… Known mostly as Ibn Hayyan, he’s an alchemist… He is also touted to be the Father of Modern Chemistry… Impressive isn’t it?

His writings have led European alchemists to search for the Philosopher’s Stone… So we can say that in the whole, Ibn Hayyan is an alchemist… However, although he’s known as an alchemist, he did not seem to have seriously pursued the preparation of noble metals (such as Philosopher’s Stone) as an alchemist… Instead he devoted his effort to the development of basic chemical methods and study of mechanisms of chemical reactions in themselves and thus helped evolve chemistry as a science from the legends and myths of alchemy…

Hmm… He made numerous contributions to the scientific world… He’s one of the few that put emphasis on the importance of experimentation, thus paved the way for the transformation of Alchemy (it’s not a science as it is clouded with superstition) to Chemistry… Now I’ll list down some of his achievements… There are a lot more… But I think Wikipedia can do the rest…

  • He found the Aqua Regia, one of the few solvents that can dissolve gold
  • Discovered the usage of manganese oxide in glass, in order to avoid the green tinge (Iron ion) of the glass…
  • Found various acids – HCl, H2SO4, HNO3, citric acid, tartaric acid and acetic acid…
  • Seeds of elements classification… He proposed Spirit (substances which vaporise upon heating), Metals and Non-Malleable Substances…
  • He invented alembic… A distillation apparatus…

X ke hensem tu? Hehe…

So, I guess this is it… I planned to bring on as many heroes as possible every Monday… Sorry if this post seemed incomplete… I need time to prepare for my interview… Wish and pray me the best, k?

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Not Sinking To Your Level

In me, thoughts on March 2, 2008 at 3:54 pm
Well… After all the things that you did to me… The shouts, the embarrassment, the hits… This might be the right moment to get even… But… I believe that everyone, like Indie bands (hehe), should be given time and chance…

One thing that I want to clarify…I can hate too, you know? Anything that you can do to me, I can do it to you too… It’s just that I’m not gonna sink myself to your level… You’re not worthy to matter…

And the saying ‘an eye for an eye makes the world go blind’ is not here for nothing…

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Autism

In thoughts on February 29, 2008 at 7:27 pm
I read an article about the newly founded truth in autism… It’s kinda interesting… So I think it’d be good to share it here…

So… For you guys, what things come into picture when thinking of an autistic? For me, simply said… They are the low-functioning people, anti-social, grunts, repetitive behaviour and no eye contact… All in all, they are mentally deficient…

It never occurred to me that they are just… Different…

This is a video made by an autistic without other people’s intervention… (look, they’re not that helpless)… It’s an entitled In My Language… I’m sorry to say this, but it’s eerie… Please watch it till the end, or you might be unable to comprehend what she’s doing… And for that matter, what I’m trying to say… It’s kinda long… So just bear with it, k?

All the sudden movements, rocking back and forth, eerie humming, slapping a piece of paper against a window, running a hand lengthwise over a computer keyboard and twisting the knob of a drawer mean something… To her at least…

These nonverbal stimuli are constituents of her native language… And this native language is no better nor worse than any other native languages… Yet, her inability to speak is seen as a deficiency even in reality, she’s able to communicate…

In normal life, many of us disregard what other people can do while putting too much emphasis on what they can’t do… Or what they fail to do…

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Fear

In me, thoughts on February 29, 2008 at 2:41 pm
I was hardened by the look upon your face,
it was easy when you were younger,
you can put it back together,
it was there if you ever wanted it,
but you closed the door and said goodbye for good,
for good…
you were easy…
EZ, Pete Yorn

You are watching a movie at the living room… Suddenly, it blacked out… In the darkness, your senses magnified… Your heartbeat quicken… The silence makes a deafening, monotonous sound… Suddenly, something falls and shattered against the floor… You instantly feel a rush of blood… Unimaginable things appear in your thoughts… Is it a thieve? Ghost? Criminals? Rapist? Murderer? To your worst fear, the curtain blows in… After giving some thoughts… You realized that it’s just the wind…

Why do we fear? Are there needs for it? Isn’t it a nuisance, if not hindrance? Fear can range from cockroach, failure, getting dumped, change, concerns or little niggles we have about how things might turn out…

Fear… One might say that it’s just chemical reactions within the brain… It tenses up the muscle and alleviate breathing rate… Well, in the presence of danger, of course…

For me, fear is the voice in the head… It speculates… And at the same time it reminds… If I were to do something, this voice will speculate of the future, if I were to proceed with it… “Will it be beneficial to me?”, “If I fail, what will happen?” or something of those kinds… This is, obviously a hindrance… At the same time, it reminds me of something that happened in the past… Failure or disappointment… Which in the end act also, sadly, as a hindrance…

I can deduce here that fear is a mechanism of our ego to ensure steady and continuous happiness… Ego is the part of us that believe that happiness comes externally (from our environment, not ourselves)… And since the world around seldom brings any lasting satisfaction, the ego is always finding more things to fear and new reasons to be anxious…

This is not to say that we have no need to think ahead and be prepared for worst case scenario… It’s indeed a good asset to be able to estimate and plan ahead of things… But… What we (or I) don’t need is to fill the mind with unnecessary worries and concerns…

One thing to note is that fear is not all bad with no good… Without fear, we might not survive this world… We might just cut ourselves or jump off the top floor… Our ancestors won’t too… They will not run when encountering saber-tooth tiger nor will they hide when it rains (As thunder can kill)… It’s an advantage in terms of maintaining our survival… It’s an evolutionary benefit…

And one last thing… Why does god make a face in fear so identifiable? A face of one in fear can be understood by anyone in the world… It’s just like a smile…

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Hujan…

In hehe on February 28, 2008 at 5:03 am
The situation was rather depressing in class just now… It’s not because of the teacher, the subject nor the student… However, the things that we’re discussing, sadly, is… And the feeling of hopelessness suffocates me… Throughout the class, the feeling then undergoes transmutation… It’s now hate… I wished that I could do something… But wishing is the only thing I can do… For now…

Then amidst the unhappiness… Something occurred (and still occurring as I post this), maybe just a sign from nature, to make this one little soul happy…

It rained! After a couple of weeks or so… I mean during the day… I admit that it rained here and there at night… But I was either sleeping or too occupied only to realized it the next morning… And as far as I can recall, it’s the first for days…

Hmm… What is more soothing than the sound of water droplets hitting against the earth?… Or the comfort of coldness that is never the same…
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What Do/Can You See?

In hehe on February 28, 2008 at 3:33 am
What do you see in the image above? In black you can read the word GOOD, in white the word EVIL (inside each black letter is a white letter). It’s also very philosophical too, because it visualizes the concept that good can’t exist without evil.

As for the image at the corner beneath this post… Just don’t even bother about it… It’ll be in each and every post I made starting from this point… It’s a picture of Killua Zaoldyeck… It’s a character from one of my favourite mangas of all time… Hunter X Hunter… Hmm… That may be a good idea for a post…

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Is There Free Lunch?

In me, quotes, thoughts on February 26, 2008 at 5:20 pm
There’s no such thing as free lunch – Milton Friedman

I encountered this quote back in IELTS class… At that time, I didn’t give it too much thoughts… Simply said, I agree with it…

But then, food can be free if someone else is paying for it… Not only if it’s given away or you’ll pay for it later… Well, that’s if we take the meaning literally… It can also be argued that the food is now free for us, but someone else still has got to pay for it… So nothing is free ain’t it? (hehe, contradicting myself)

An example of the free lunch (or nearly, rather) is the situation in the internet… This is from article entitled ‘$0.00 is the Future of Business’ (which is a very interesting read)… Nowadays, there are unlimited storage for e-mail (which can be used as hard drive), free applications (like Star Office, Picasa) and free websites… These are made possible as the cost for storage and running it is falling rock bottom… It’s as if, the restaurant is on a nearly free labour and raw material is too cheap to matter, thus providing it for nearly free… Not wholly, but almost…

But who, then, pay for these? Well I guess, someone else is picking up the tab… For instance, Flickr and Flickr pro… Let’s say that users of Flickr (standard) constitute 98% of overall Flickr users… The other 2%, the Flickr (pro) users, who paid $25 anually, basically supports the entire process of serving all Flickr users…

So, is there such thing as free lunch? I don’t know… Like I’ve said before, it’s free, but not wholly… K, I’m feeling so sleepy right now… I may or may not continue on this… Night!

A Poem…

In Poem, plagiarized on February 26, 2008 at 7:13 am
Got it from my Emak… This was written by a Nobel Laureate For Literature, Gabriel Garcia Marquez… Very touching and for me, it’s good read…



If God, for a second, forgot what I have become,
and granted me a little bit more of life,
I would use it to the best of my ability.

I wouldn’t possibly, say everything that is in my
mind, but I would be more thoughtful of all I say.

I would give merit to things not for what they
are worth, but for what they mean to express.

I would sleep little, I would dream more,
because I know that for every minute that
we close our eyes, we waste 60 seconds of light.

I would walk while others stop;
I would awake while others sleep.

If God would give me a little bit more of life,
I would dress in a simple manner,
I would place my self in front of the sun, leaving not
only my body, but my soul naked at its mercy.

To all men I would say how mistaken they are
when they think that they stop falling in love
when they grow old, without knowing that
they grow old when they stop falling in love.

I would give wings to children,
but I would leave it to them to learn
how to fly by themselves.

To old people I would say that death
doesn’t arrive when they grow old,
but with forgetfulness.

I have learned so much with you all,
I have learned that everybody wants to live
on top of the mountain, without knowing
that true happiness is obtained in the journey taken
and the form used to reach the top of the hill.

I have learned that when a newborn baby holds,
with its little hand, his father’s finger,
it has trapped him for the rest of his life.

I have learned that a man has the right
and obligation to look down at another man,
only when that man needs help to get up
from the ground.

If I knew that today is the last time that
I am going to see you asleep, I would hug you
with all my strength and I would pray to the Lord
to let me be the guardian angel of your soul.

If I knew that these are the last moments to see you,
I would say “I love you”.

There is always tomorrow, and life gives
us another opportunity to do things right,
but in case I am wrong,
and today is all that is left to me,
I would love to tell you how much I love you
and that I will never forget you.

Tomorrow is never guaranteed to anyone, young or old.
Today could be the last time to see your loved ones,
which is why you mustn’t wait;
do it today, in case tomorrow never arrives.

I am sure you will be sorry you wasted
the opportunity today to give a smile, a hug, a kiss,
and that you were too busy to grant them their last wish.

Keep your loved ones near you;
tell them in their ears and to their faces
how much you need them and love them.

Love them and treat them well;
take your time to tell them “I am sorry”;
” forgive me”,” please”, “thank you”
and all those loving words you know.

Nobody will know you for your secret thought.
Ask the Lord for wisdom
and strength to express them.
Show your friends and loved ones
how important they are to you.

‘Global Warming Is A Myth’ Is A Myth?

In thoughts on February 25, 2008 at 8:59 am
I need you boo
I gotta see you boo
And there’s hearts all over the world tonight
Said there’s hearts all over the world tonight
They need their boo
They gotta see their boo
Said there’s hearts all over the world tonight
Hearts all over the world tonight

Hey lil mama, ooh you’re a stunner
Hot little figure, yes you a winner, and
I’m so glad to be yours
You’re a class of your own and
Ooh little cutie, when you talk to me
I swear the whole world stops
You’re my sweetheart and
I’m so glad that you’re mine
You are one of a kind, and
You mean to me what I mean to you
And together baby there is nothing we won’t do

Chris Brown, With You


Well this is my second post on global warming this month… I just want to say that the song above is marvelous… I heard it in a commercial and love it since…

A friend of mine told me that the Global Warming is just a myth… It’s just a rhetoric where diabolical environmentalist saw the ice at the poles melt and dragged us to the Global Warming ‘hysteria’… So I went to surf the internet… Just to gather some info…

First of all, I want to clarify that most of the info written here is obtained from NASA’s website, Wikipedia and some other blogs… So what I’m writing here are just my personal opinions from what I read… If I’m wrong, enlighten me, please…

K, let’s crack on… Before this, there have been records of deviations in the temperature of the earth from 1000 AD to 1850 BC… Explanations that the scientists can make are the deviations are caused by the activity of the sun (solar flare) and volcanic eruption… Basically, they regard climate change as something natural…

But then, after 1850, there is a sudden and persistent increase in the mean temperature… Some scientist begin to worry that this trend will continue and they fear that the cool-hot-cool-hot cycle might be already disrupted… So they come out with the greenhouse effects and basically points the blame to ourselves… By considering only, and only the graph on the right (courtesy of Wikipedia), we could see that the end is indeed, near and inevitable…


However, there are, of course, skeptics or non-believers… They believe that it is really natural for the temperature to rise, before it falls again later… They came out with the graph on the left… Hmm… intriguing isn’t it? The people on the other end of this debate answered with the graph at the bottom of this post…

How do these records are made? Longer records exist from proxies, quantities such as tree ring widths, coral growth or isotope variations in ice cores… From these, proxy temperature reconstruction of the last 2000 years have been made for the northern hemisphere… However, coverage of these proxies is sparse… Even the best proxy records contain far fewer observations than the worst periods of the observational record. Also, problems exist in connecting the proxies (e.g. tree ring width) to the variable of interest (e.g. temperature)… So we don’t know which one is really reliable… Also, these graphs and data are made by people… People basically have motives… Motives may cloud judgment… And this issue is massively political… As any protocols signed by countries may affect us globally, economically and socially…

And the problem continues… As science works on the basis of proving a theory… As long as the findings fit the theory, it’s proven… However, on the contrary, for me, I agree with Thomas Kuhn (a character from Sociology) that scientist should perform investigation to disprove the theory… And as long as the theory is yet to be disproved, the theory can be considered true…

One thing is proven (it seems) though… The Intergovernmental Panel of Climate Change (IPCC, winner of 2007 Nobel Peace Price), in their fourth report in last year proved that it’s unequivocal that that the world climate is changing… And it’s likely (>66%) that this is caused by the emission of anthropogenic (man made) CO2… And that brings me to my final point… Yeah… It maybe cyclical or seasonal… But aren’t you guys sick of the pollution and the ‘bonuses’ it brings? Diabolics like mutation (malformation of beak of birds), diseases (cancer), illnesses (asthma) are increasing at an alarming rate as our planet gets dirtier… So surely something is wrong isn’t it? Even though it makes nice sunsets, I would trade anything for a fresh air when I open the window…

So even if global warming is just a myth… Must we still pollute the earth? Must we build more factories and eventually make ourselves, our children and our children’s children breath in poisonous gas? Must we continue smoking in front of a lung cancer patient (the patient is the earth)? Sure it’s possible that Global Warming is occurring naturally but why hurry it up? Are we so anxious to have a tropical vacation at the north pole?

Art in Science

In me on February 24, 2008 at 12:21 pm
Science saks!!! It never (or seldom, rather) dealt on love, morality, spirituality, meaning of life and bla, bla, bla… There are so many things that science can’t and won’t deal… Science also assumes predictable cause and effect in a world that’s a chaotic, bubbling stew of randomness… Luckily we’ve religion, arts and philosophy for things science can’t deal…
These are some of the things that I regard as ‘art’, hehe… I’m mostly a science student… So bear with it, k?


Paper Chromatography, 22nd February

Malaysian Studies, 21st February, 10 a.m… Sorry Puan

People Forget…

In me, thoughts on February 22, 2008 at 1:43 pm
when they are overly happy… They only remember when they’re in trouble…

But then, sadly, they forget again…

Insensitivity

In me, questions on February 21, 2008 at 10:24 am
Is it other people’s insensitivity or is it just me being ultra sensitive?

Either ways… I’m shocked and hurt…

Honesty

In Rhythm on February 21, 2008 at 5:06 am
Hmm… Talking about being honest, it’s obvious that no one can be perfectly honest all the times… It’s the same when we can’t simply go against murder and thievery at all times… There are times when we need negotiations, rather than simply accepting what’s traditionally practiced… Murder sometimes can even be awarded with Medal of Honor… It’s celebrated and the one who committed it is decorated… Stealing is acceptable given the right circumstances… A beggar for example, who might resort to stealing in order to survive…

So… As bad things can at times be acceptable, there are also times when good things (such as honesty) can be… ‘Unnecessary’…

Predator is never honest when facing its prey… A poker player will never be honest to his/her opponents… At war, deception is essential… An honorable soldier will never reveal everything to his/her captors even on the verge of death…

Perhaps, clarity can be brought to the whole issue of honesty by one attempt to define its opposite: “A lie is an untruth told to someone who deserves to hear the truth”…

Monochromatic

In photo on February 20, 2008 at 4:45 pm
means something consisting of one color, or presenting rays of light of one color only… So here is one picture made monochromatic…
Black Monochrome

Blue Monochrome


UV?! Monochrome

Nearly Scammed

In me, story on February 20, 2008 at 12:33 pm
This is quite funny, as this showed me how naive I was (or still am)… And it proves a lot to me that the Internet is not a very safe place… I mean, you can’t trust anyone in the Net… No matter how convincing they sound…

So the story goes like this…

It was the first semester of the college… Back then I don’t have a lappy… Not yet… So one day, I got an email from someone living in Ivory Coast… He told me that he inherited a huge sum of money from his father… However, the problem is that his father’s family want their share too…

So I replied his message saying that I’m a mere student and can’t do much… In addition, I promised him that I’ll help him with all the power I have… Hehe…

In his reply email, he said the only solution available for him is to transfer the money to an overseas account… That’s when I come in to play… So I said OK… Considering the amount of money that he promised…

He then said that he needed RM50 for the transaction… I said OK but I said I don’t have a credit card as I’m still a student… He then asked me to post it by mail to an address somewhere in Ampang… I know that something is fishy (But back then, I’m still too naive to sense it)…

Then, after returning to the real world, I don’t know what made me read the ‘Buletin Pengguna’ (I guess because there was no other magazines)… I read an article on scams on the Net and I read something like ‘Tawaran Memindahkan Wang’… Wahahaha… I laughed at myself right after that… What a fool I am…

The moral of the story is… Don’t trust anyone in the net, even if they replied to your e-mail personally… These people are willing to go for the extremes to squeeze even as little as RM50 from you… And lastly, reading always helps… If I failed to read the bulletin, I may have become RM50 poorer…

Sorry

In me on February 20, 2008 at 5:13 am
Don’t continue reading if you don’t want to hear me whining and being pathetic… Well, because of course it’s not the end of the world… And this problem of mine compared to the problems out there… The war in Iraq which hasn’t ended yet… The world which is not becoming more equal nor safe… There are still greater dangers and problems that’s plaguing the world…

Apart from problems that I don’t want to disclose here is this sleep issue of mine… For the past couple of days, I’ve been lost in term of time… Slept too late and ended up waking up late… Or slept too early (like 10pm) and woke up too early (like 3am)… Well not that I hate to wake up early, but 3 is just darned early…

So, I’m very grumpy for these couple of days… And some people might notice… And might be affected, one way or another… What else can I say except for I’m truly sorry? I truly am… Hehe…

M For Mucim

In me on February 19, 2008 at 4:32 am
Well maybe some of you ever wondered of the meaning of my blog title… Searching for ‘mucim’ in the google might bring you to a Spanish (perhaps) website… So, firstly, the word Mucim can’t be defined in terms of language…

Mucim is what I first referred to myself when I was very small… I had difficulty of pronouncing words, including my own name… That’s only fixed after some operations… Well, nothing can be perfect, and if you really noticed, I am one who can easily lost for words… hehe…

Why M for Mucim? Well, I adapted that from the film V for Vendetta…

Note For Meself…

In me on February 18, 2008 at 1:03 pm
Believe it or not kid, people are not always hiding behind the walls waiting for you to trip and fall on your face , so they could snicker and whisper about what a clumsy klutz you are…

In fact, the majority of people do in fact have lives and hardly notice you,
or the way you walk…
or your blemishes…
or the way you tend to spill coffee on yourself when you’re busy thinking…
or how your voice tends to climb up a notch or two when you’re chatting enthusiastically with your friends..
or the streak of sweat on your shirt…
or how you still mess up your verbs and nouns when you speak English… and your grammar…

Stop being paranoid! Stop looking over your shoulder…

And for the love of God, stop worrying about what people you don’t know or don’t even like think about you because it takes up too much energy and too much of what precious little brain space you have to do so…

You’ve got your friends , you’ve got your family and you’ve got your life. Enjoy them while they’re here and keep in mind that a few a years down the road, you’ll realize that you were never nearly obnoxious enough or hideous enough to elicit complete strangers on sight… as you tend to imagine now…

And even if you did….well, you can’t really please everybody, everywhere, all the time, can you?

…So stop trying, won’t you?

It’s hot outside…

In thoughts on February 18, 2008 at 8:21 am
Strong like a mother holds her child
Free as horses runnin wild
And real as a prayer on a lonely night
And sure as the ocean tide

Deep as the life from God’s own breath
Endless even after death
Gone like the sunset.

Oh Love, Braid Paisley

Why is it so hot outside nowadays? Well I know this is Malaysia, not the Antarctica… But it’s abnormally hot… Is it because of the global warming?

So in conjunction with what’s happening in the college right now, I want to share some insights on the phenomenon men of the 21st Century call the Global Warming…

Some people say that global warming is a new phenomenon, however it actually occurs occasionally… Well that’s relative to the age of the earth… It’s a mechanism which allows the earth to balance itself…

What’s the deal with the Global Warming? Hmm… Besides the extremely hot day, global warming may result in the emergence of another phenomenon called the ‘Ice Age’… How can this happen?

The dynamics of the earth is so complex for me to isolate a certain variable at the expense of the other… But then, for the sake of simplicity and the beauty of it… hehe… Let me say that the current of the oceans around the world distribute large amount of heat around the earth, keeping what supposed to be cold, hot and avoid what supposed to be too hot, bearable… With these currents, the equator is habitable and it’s also possible for us to plant grapes in Italy…

So what happens next? or rather, what may happen next?

As the ice in the poles melt, these currents are disrupted… I don’t know how but it makes sense to me… If the earth is in equilibrium, according to Le Chatelier’s Principal, the earth will react to overcome this change…

This will result to the Ice Age… All area away of the equator will be covered with ice and snow, while the temperature around the equator will rise… In the end, all living organism dies, leaving the earth suitable only for microorganisms…

So what can we do? There are a lot that you can do… These are simple things but if done collectively, the effects are just like a snowball, it gets bigger as it rolls down a slope… Let’s start a silent, slow and steady revolution…

  • Switch lights and fan off when you’re not in the room…
  • At home, have showers instead of baths…
  • Re-use plastic shopping bags and envelopes, don’t get new ones…
  • This is kinda ridiculous but it makes sense… Put a brick in a plastic bag into your toilet cistern, then the toilet will use less water each time you flush… Don’t worry that’s plenty of water to get rid of… Well… you know what right?

Won’t it be extremely unlucky for us if this catastrophe occur even when we all know that we can avoid it? We know that it’s coming…

Is It Wrong, Once In A While?

In questions on February 18, 2008 at 6:51 am
Is it wrong to stop for a while, just for a breather, after running for a very long time? Is it even wrong to reward ourselves with a sip of water to quench our thirst?

I Lied…

In Rhythm, me on February 18, 2008 at 6:00 am
I don’t know whether I should or shouldn’t post this… Nah, no one is reading anyway…

This should be avoided by: my Bio classmates

My latest experience… Jpah, Po and me had a bio presentation in class today… Our hypothesis is that light intensity affects the rate of photosynthesis… Which is true enough…

Prior to the presentation, we were to plan and perform the investigation and gather relevant data to prove or disprove our hypothesis… Unfortunately, even with the brilliance of the ‘Griffith Apparatus’, there were just too many bubbles (it’s immeasurable as it exceeds the scale!) or non at all… So here’s the inconvenient(for us) truth… Our data is nearly non-existence… hehe…

So we have to rely on our limited intelligence and intellectually fill in the blanks with our ‘findings’… But we made it imperfect, because if something appears perfect, there’s something wrong…

So, off we go with the presentation… In our report we put certain gaps and uncertainties that will allow questions to pour in… By doing this, we managed to avoid some nasty questions and only be questioned with things that we’ve anticipated… All in all, we’re prepared…

And lastly, we never hesitated to answer questions and always appeared confident and honest…

K, I know that basically we’re all lying… I personally admit to that with all my heart… And I’m not saying that you guys should lie too… Because most of you will be future scientists and leaders… And I don’t know what will happen in the future if you guys do like what we did(even though I can already see what will happen… xp)… But if we blindly reveal our so-called ‘findings’, we’ll have nothing up our sleeves … And the class will learn nothing… K that’s just an excuse, so, an excuse it is…

So Tragic…

In movie, review on February 16, 2008 at 8:43 am
Hmm… This blog is starting to be like a movie review website… I don’t know, it’s the only thing that I’ve been doing lately… So just hang on k? I’m not a movie freak… Not at all…

I was browsing the torrent website back at home and I stumbled upon a movie entitled ‘The Heart Is Deceitful Above All Things’… I instantly started downloading it… It’s an independent movie… and it’s full of abusive language and acts… So it has a very limited release in theater and it’s impossible to find an original copy of the DVD… And no one seems like watching it… So it took me two weeks to fully download it…

I’m not really into drama… But this movie is exceptional… It has no what I interpret as the ‘Hollywood feeling’, as at that time, most of the casts are not famous… not yet…

It’s Got: Relentless abuse and misery set against beautiful, dreamy cinematography… Irony? Impossibly sympathetic portrayals of the most repellent characters (even Marilyn Manson is impressive)…

It Needs: To be avoided by anyone looking for a fun time out or a redemptive message… I mean it…

It Proves: That the Sprouse twins do have the talent to act… Unlike their woody performance in Suite Life in Disney Channel at all!!! And Jimmy Bennet, he’s in a class by himself…

My Verdict: I hate this movie so much… It portrays how a supposedly sacred mother-son bond can be very… Harrowing… I hate that somewhere in this whole wide world, there are children suffering what the character suffers, for real…

It’s rated R by the way…

Particular,

In hehe on February 13, 2008 at 12:24 pm
according to the Merriam-Webster online, means… of, relating to, or being a single person or thing… For example, particular person I had in mind…

Hehe.. Some might know particularly why I post something about this particular word and some might not…

You Know Who You Are… Hehe…

In Poem, me on February 13, 2008 at 11:17 am

You are…
The light…
Sometimes you’re too radiant… I can’t see the immediate truth…
Sometimes you’re too dim… My day becomes gloomy…

You are…
The light…
You’re visible… But untouchable…
Oh my light…
Can I still stay by your side?

7.16 p.m., 13th Feb

Think…

In plagiarized on February 11, 2008 at 6:16 am
I’m looking for someone to share my pain
Someone who I can run to, who would stay with me when it rains
Someone who I can cry with trough the night
Someone who I can trust who’s hardest right
And I’m looking for someone

And I’m looking for someone who understands how I feel,
Someone who can keep me real and who knows always
Baby I like to have you in my way
And I’m looking for someone who takes me there,
Wants to share, shows he cares
Thinking on the one that I’ve been waiting for

Is it you? is it you?
Maybe you’re the one I’ve been waiting for
Could you be the one for me?
Could you be the one I need?


Is It You, Cassie

I don’t know… For me, this is quite hard to grab… Just think about it…. It’s from my mom…

The more we dwell on any thought, the more likely we are to see that thought manifested in our experience… We can make this principle work for us by focusing our minds on the thoughts that we would like to see turn into events and experiences… Once the laws are clear to us, we can see that “random” or “accidental” events are actually the result of a very intelligently designed system of justified relationships… What we think is what we get…

So, think carefully…

It’s been a while… Isn’t it?

Tea

In me on February 11, 2008 at 5:15 am
Under certain circumstances there are few hours in life more agreeable than the hour dedicated to the ceremony known as afternoon tea – Henry James, Portrait of a Lady

Hehe… Recently, I’ve got a new addiction, tea… The most popular drink in the world… Well, at least some websites said that… OK, now for the sake of learning, I’ll just share some info on tea…

There are many versions of how people start drinking tea… The one I’m posting is just one of them… The history of tea drinking starts around 2737 B.C… As legend has it, the Chinese Emperor Shen Nung was boiling drinking water over an open fire, believing that those who drank boiled water were healthier. Some leaves from a nearby Camellia sinensis plant floated into the pot… The emperor drank the mixture and declared it gave “vigor of body, contentment of mind, and determination of purpose”… Coincidence? I ain’t think so…

Research shows that drinking black tea may help prevent blood clots from forming. In one study, people who drank several cups of black tea each day had lower levels of a substance associated with blood coagulation… This can prevent the formation of atheromatous plaque, which may lead to heart attack (myocardium infarction)…

In Malaysia, I noticed that most people drink black tea… With variations such as with or without milk… After surfing through the internet, I found some info on green tea, which gives the same benefits as the black tea, with added advantages… As for me… My Ambi Pur(room fragrance) is green tea… hehe

This post is not to say that tea is better than any other drinks… It’s a matter of preference… As Mr. Azman, a teacher of mine once and always said… Different people have different taste buds…

Cidade de Deus

In movie, review on February 7, 2008 at 4:05 pm

Wow!!! That’s all I can say about this movie… It’s about horrible life in a slum in Brazil… City of God they call it…

It pictures characters that are trapped in a vicious cycle… These characters are unlucky enough to be born in a socially, economically and racially isolated community that has poverty, crime, drugs and violence as its everyday realities… Everything is against them… All the characters have the idea, desire and means to get out… But in no time, they are lured back into the vicious cycle… They got no option at all… or perhaps only one option… These situations are depicted perfectly in carefully crafted chapters…

And from the trivia section in IMDb, most actors and actresses in this movie are first timers… And for me… Their acting is very good…

If you run you’re dead…if you stay, you’re dead again. Period…

I would love to recommend this movie to all… It’s based on true story and it’s not from Hollywood…

Time

In thoughts on February 7, 2008 at 1:42 pm
As I, Turn Up The Collar On My
Favourite Winter Coat
This Wind Is Blowin’ My Mind
I See The Kids In The Street,
With Not Enough To Eat
Who Am I, To Be Blind?
Pretending Not To See
Their Needs
A Summer’s Disregard,
A Broken Bottle Top
And A One Man’s Soul
They Follow Each Other On
The Wind Ya’ Know
‘Cause They Got Nowhere To Go
That’s Why I Want You To Know

I’m Starting With The Man In The Mirror
I’m Asking Him To Change
His Ways
And No Message Could Have
Been Any Clearer
If You Wanna Make The World
A Better Place

The Man In the Mirror, Michael Jackson

It’s existence is evident… It passes regardless with or without us realizing… Yet we try to follow it with calendars and clocks… We can’t take it, examine it under the microscope… Let alone to touch it…

For centuries, mankind associates time with changes… Maybe the movement of the sun… or the moon… Or maybe the movement of sand in an hourglass… But what happens actually when time passes… Will time stop if one day the moon stops?

Some might say that time started after the big bang… Well, as the universe constantly expanding, there is time… Simply said, time is the rate of expansion of the universe… Hmm… The universe surely expands faster nowadays then, because in just a blink of the eye, I’m already 19… And day by day, time seems to pass faster and much faster…

And talking about time being faster, I think it’s just psychological… An hour playing computer games (for me) can feel like a minute, while five minutes of waiting for someone in a hot place can feel like an hour… And one more thing… Age… A second takes a significantly larger proportion of a child life in comparison to the life for an eighty-year-old man/woman…

Hmm… But that still can’t explain why my grandpa and grandma still feel that time pass so slowly…

Lastly, sorry if this just doesn’t make any sense…

When you spilled the milk…

In me on February 6, 2008 at 4:12 am

did it looked like the moon? My random question…

My answer… Nope certainly it looked like spilled milk (first picture)…


Schizo

In wonder on February 6, 2008 at 12:37 am
Whenever sang my songs
On the stage, on my own
Whenever said my words
Wishing they would be heard
I saw you smiling at me
Was it real or just my fantasy
You’d always be there in the corner
Of this tiny little bar

My last night here for you
Same old songs, just once more
My last night here with you?
Maybe yes, maybe no
I kind of liked it your way
How you shyly placed your eyes on me

Oh, did you ever know?
That I had mine on you

Faye Wong, Eyes On Me.


Madness need not be all breakdown. It may also be breakthrough. It is potential liberation and renewal as well as enslavement and existential death.

- R.D. Laing

For me, this is one of the most interesting theory ever made on causes of schizophrenia (schizo, for short)… Well, I learned about this in Sociology class… I thought that it might be interesting to be shared…

Laing stated that we… I mean all of us have another selves which are killed by our parents… It is not kill as in by slashing our throat or cutting our head off… They killed us in the process of socialization… Instead of being our natural selves, we’re nurtured to become the socialized selves…. Thus killing the original, natural selves… Well, I’m not saying that socialization is a bad thing… Because without ‘em, the world won’t be in order… Conventional socialization includes religious teachings, education, law and some form punishment… Well it’s not that simple though…

Through socialization, we adopt set of norms and rules… Forming a belief system and embed (as in embedded… hehe) itself into the larger society… It governs how you see the world and how you’d react or even, act in situations… Basically, it rules what’s good and what’s bad…

In Laing’s version of schizo, the alter-ego is actually the murdered self being reincarnated… As we all know, people with delusions and multiple personality disorders usually get ‘these’ from bad experiences – rape, incest, abuse, bully and even murder… Even worst, if these are inflicted by the deeds of the parents… Because they are the ones who taught about the norms and rules…

As a result of these rather ‘morbid’ experiences, the belief system of that person collapses… Thus giving rise to the murdered self’s reawakening… Maybe as a form of self defense (as most alter-egos are strong and ice cold) or even just to reject the nurtured self…

Hmm… The mind is so powerful yet so vulnerable…

Imaginary Friend(s)

In me, review, wonder on February 5, 2008 at 4:34 pm
Yeah you and me we can ride on a star
If you stay with me girl
We can rule the world
Yeah you and me, we can light up the sky
If you stay by my side
We can rule the world

I’ve just watched A Beautiful Mind, a beautiful movie indeed… Russell Crowe did a good job in this movie… It reminded me about something and I just feel like sharing…

OK… According to a blog that I read, almost 65% of children have encounter with imaginary friend(s). Interestingly though, some of the children report that their imaginary playmates don’t always do what they’re told and sometimes won’t go away when expected to, or bother them inconveniently. It seems that even from quite a young age, we are not always master of our own imaginations… hehe… Imaginary friends sometimes are not so friendly too…

When most children simply forget about their imaginary friends, maybe due to adult expectations or norms, some people continue having imaginary companions…

Schizophrenia is different because it is the same person with multiple personalities… Which these personalities might never encounter each other… In the case of imaginary friends, they can coexist at the same time… Well basically that’s what I comprehend… Hmm… Talking about schizo, I remembered about something…

These phenomenons are weird and rare… They symbolize the beauty of the human mind… However, do animals experience schizophrenic behaviour too? I don’t know for sure (pronounced ’syo’ hehe)…

For me, as long as they don’t interfere with everyday life, they’re not unhealthy…

Movie Review – Shawshank Redemption

In review on February 1, 2008 at 10:08 am

This 1994 movie depicts the lives of prisoners in Shawshank Penitentiary… Corruption, the judicial system, parole application, prison life, life after prison, love, human rights, education, determination, hope and security… It’s an old movie… But it lives as people are still talking about it… And people are still seeding it in BitTorrent… I think because they love it… And it has been 14 years!!!

This movie is very long… and that fact allows me to feel the maddening pace of prison life… hehe… Not that it’s a bad movie… But that’s what good movies are capable of… The build up towards the climax is just great… And… If the ending is also great… It can easily occupies my personal top 10…

Morgan Freeman played a huge role in this movie… His style gives the character Red, dignity and grace… His narrating skill is also proven in this movie… His voice just suits…

But… For me the ending is just horrible… I was hoping for a more dramatic ending… And I’m not really convinced when it tries to depict all prisoners as good people who deserves better… Some who have watched this might disagree with me on this…

Well I can’t say too much here cause I’m afraid that I might reveal some spoilers… I’m really recommending this for watching…

Don’t be mad if you find this movie is just over rated…

Murphy’s Law

In me, wonder on February 1, 2008 at 5:24 am
Do you, do you want to lose it all?
Cause this is more than just a dance hall drug
You can’t wait to fall in love
All I’m saying is do you, do you want to learn to fly?
Then you should pack it up and say goodbye
Cause when the push comes to the shove
It’s just a dance hall drug
Dance Hall Drug, Boys Like Girls

Murphy’s Law states that what can go wrong, will go wrong… It’s pretty straight forward isn’t it? So human have been trying real hard to avoid flaws in their product designs… For example, in designing the drive for compact discs, there are only two possible flaws… First when the CD is inserted upside-down, which won’t do any damage at all… Second is when the CD is not properly inserted into the… hmm… What do we call it? But I’m pretty sure you guys know what I meant by that, the drive will come out so we can put it back properly…

OK… That’s the serious bit… I browsed through the Internet and found some variations of Murphy’s Law… A reminder, these are not real Murphy’s Law… For me, these are just constituents of the Tough Luck Law…

These are what I found in the Internet and personally have experienced…

  • When you shop so hard for something… And finally you bought the thing let’s say… External Hard Disk… You’ll find another shop, just nearby, which sell same EHD for an even lower price…
  • When something fall into places that’s hard to get in to… When I extend my hand to reach for it… The space within my reach and the object is usually less than a cm long… Even if I can reach for it, I’ll just push it further back…
  • When I’m ready, the practice will never start… But then if I went to sit and get relaxed… Just a moment after that, the director will start the practice… This is particularly true for Bangsawan… xp…

It happens isn’t it? : )

Just Doing My Job

In Rhythm on February 1, 2008 at 4:57 am
And when the broken hearted people living in the world agree,
there will be an answer, let it be.
For though they may be parted there is still a chance that they will see,
there will be an answer. let it be.
Let It Be, The Beatles

Even if it means that I must just sit back and watch… Well, some might argue that I’m being so negative and say that it’s just another excuse to be lazy… If your job is to feel like that… Just do your job…Anyone got roles to play and you can’t take other people’s roles…

In an operation, there’ll be surgeons, technician, nurses, patient and the family… There are also things that I intentionally omit… Because they are ‘common sense’… Though common sense may not be so common – a teacher of mine once said… Surgeons can’t adopt the work of a nurse, nor the technician can be the patient… That’d be ridiculous… The whole operation won’t be successful unless all play their jobs and play them well… The family members, even if they want to do something, the only thing that they can do is just sit back and wait…

What I want to say is, just do your job, even how menial it is… Don’t ever think that it’s not important because in the whole, without that menial job of yours, something gonna be incomplete… I’d say… All roles are equally important…

Hehe… I know somebody is going to laugh after reading this… xp

Timing

In Rhythm, me on February 1, 2008 at 4:23 am

Avoid being too late or too early… The normal (damn!) distribution is not invented for nothing

Perfect

In Rhythm on January 30, 2008 at 7:42 am
There’s nothing I want to say
I just want to see you one more time
I can’t say what I want to say
I don’t have any guts
But that is just fine

Utada Hikaru, Beautiful World.

Perfection… That’s what we all have been striving for… Well… may be not all of us… but some… However, is it even achievable? Well the answer is really obvious… A chemistry teacher of mine told the class about this just now… Well… chemistry and life lessons aren’t really parallel… Nevertheless, we discussed about some scientists who are trying to engineer better enzymes… They worked perfectly but for me, what we already have right now is adequate… She also mentioned that there are imperfections even in world’s greatest works of art (She didn’t specify any), imperfections are normal…

Things like a perfect boyfriend or a perfect girlfriend… They only exist in either Hollywood or our dreams…

Why must we be perfect when we can just be good? Is good not enough?

One thing’s for sure, God is perfect…

Belief Can…

In me on January 29, 2008 at 3:05 pm
Belief is a beautiful armor
but made for the heaviest sword
like punching underwater
you never can hit who you’re trying for
some lead the exhibition
and some have to know they tried
it’s the chemical weapon
for the war that’s raging on inside
oh, everyone believes
from emptiness to everything
oh, everyone believes
and no one’s going quietly.

what puts a hundred thousand children in the sand?
belief can, belief can
what puts a folded flag inside his mother’s hand?
belief can, belief can

John Mayer, Belief

Hmm… I just love this song… But I don’t think I’d agree with all that Mayer said in the song…

A smile from you is a cure… :-)

I feel like…

In me on January 24, 2008 at 8:32 am

eating Big Bird right now… hehe…

Lessons learned…

In hehe, plagiarized on January 22, 2008 at 1:27 pm
Story 1

A crusty old man walks into a bank and says to the teller at the window, “I want to open a damn checking account.”

To which the astonished woman replies, “I beg your pardon, sir; I must have misunderstood you. What did you say?”

“Listen up bitch! I said, I want to open a damn checking account right now!”

“I’m very sorry sir, but we do not tolerate that kind of language in this bank.”

Having said this, the teller leaves the window and goes over to the bank manager to tell him about her problem customer.

They both return and the manager asks the old geezer: “What seems to be the problem here?”

“There’s no damn problem, sonny,” the elderly man says. “I just won 50 million bucks in the damn lottery and I want to open a damn checking account in this damn bank!”

“I see,” says the manager thoughtfully. “And you’re saying that this bitch here is giving you a hard time?”

Lessons learned… When you’re rich, you can escape or do almost anything… Almost, though… It makes the world go around…
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Story 2

There were these 4 guys, a Russian, a German, an American and a French, who found this small genie bottle. When they rubbed the bottle, a genie appears.

Thankful that the 4 guys had released him out of the bottle, he said,” Next to you all are 4 swimming pools, I will give each of you a wish. When you run towards the pool and jump, you shout what you want the pool of water to become, then your wish will come true.

The French wanted to start. He ran towards the pool, jumped and shouted “WINE”. The pool immediately changed into a pool of wine, the Frenchman was so happy swimming and drinking from the pool.

Next is the Russian’s turn, he did the same and shouted, “VODKA” and immersed himself into a pool of vodka.

The German was next and he jumped and shouted,” BEER”. He was so contented with his beer pool.

The last is the American. He was running towards the pool when suddenly he steps on a banana peel. He slipped towards the pool and shouted, “SHIT!!!…. .”

Lesson learned… Think twice before saying anything… Accidents and slip ups do happen… Thinking more than twice also wouldn’t hurt… hehe…

Envy…

In Rhythm, me on January 22, 2008 at 11:44 am
is a sensation of pain caused by other people’s gain… It’s a paradox…
It’s also one of the seven deadly sins in Christianity…

But it’s ingrained in mankind… It’s a universal emotion… The grass is always greener on the other side…

But is it necessarily a bad thing? It can be a motivator, an after burner… If it’s used wisely…
Let it overwhelms ourselves, we can look funny… If you get what I’m trying to say… Sadly, that’s what usually happens…

Once the car…

In me, plagiarized on January 22, 2008 at 10:44 am
is moving it is easier to keep it moving than it was to start it, because an object in motion tends to remain in motion until it is acted upon by another force… Well, some might argue that Newton’s Law has its flaws… But for the sake of simplicity almost all of us will agree that an opposite force is needed to overcome another… So if we don’t feel like doing a lot in one day, just do one or two, which will keep the momentum alive and, in a broader aspect, keeps the door open for a continuous effort…

Abruptly doing something big, might result in bigger inertia… Which means that we’ll go nowhere… Doing small things continuously is better than doing big thing once…

Main Tarik Tali

In being KYUEMian, me on January 21, 2008 at 11:03 am
Hmm… I guess this is the second time I post a Malay song… It means nothing to me… But it fits rather nicely with my latest endeavor… In fact, I hate this song… Hehe… If any of you were aware… Good thing is, we won…

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It’s team effort at its purest… Sheer strength and brute combined…

Interviewed…

In me on January 17, 2008 at 3:14 am
I think I did pretty badly… Because I know nothing of Irish medical structure… I answered well for all other questions on general knowledge and medical issues…

On general knowledge, the interviewer asked me about any famous Irish writer… And I answered Frank McCourt… Hehe… And I told him about Angela’s Ashes and what did I got from reading it… Hehe… Reading surely helps… But it might backfire though because this book says that in the past, Ireland is not prosper and has a poor living standard…

On medical issues, he asked me about heart disease… And specifically, myocardium infarction, which I managed to answer quite well… I blabbered about stenosis, angina pectoris and also… Operation Batista (from Team Medical Dragon), VAD and bypass surgery… Right now, I’m so aspired to be a Cardiologist… hehe…

Well what I think will pull me down is my absence of knowledge on Irish medical education, due to some rather obvious reasons… xp … That, I think will hurt me badly… Hmm… I should have wiki’ed it last night… Chances, I might not gonna make it…

Well, fingers crossed, everyone!!!

It should be 12-0…

In man united, me on January 12, 2008 at 7:11 pm
at Old Trafford just now… Whatever it is, the referee was always spot off… For both teams really… Owen was denied a goal, the linesman the culprit… Man U were denied two penalties during the first 45 minutes… And as far as I remembered the referee owed Man U another penalty on the later half… Oops, this post is ridiculously biased for some obvious reasons…

Well this is my very first post about sports… Yeah, I’m not very much a sports person… I’ve just started playing badminton and swimming back in college… However, I do watch sports and I enjoy them… Golf, Indoor games (darts, snooker, pool), tennis, soccer (football, xp), basketball, bla bla bla… You name it… hehe

OK… I will post about Man U and the match today against the managerless Newcastle United… Unless you would like to read some crap… Please don’t read further… There are things that would not make any sense to certain people…

Personally, I don’t think that Man U is very consistent this season… There were matches when Man U were a bit, in fact, a lot shaky… During their lost to West Ham, for instance… Today, however, it’s a different story… it’s nearly total domination at home for them… The defense, what could I say, they’ve got ummph… Evra, Ferdinand and Vidic are in superb condition… Why did I left O Shea? I don’t know, I just didn’t see him very much today… Some people might disagree with me but… After all this is my blog and I post anything I want… hehe…

The men that I like the most in the Man U current squad are Vidic and Evra… First of all they are the anchors for Man U’s defense… Which I personally believe is impressive… Secondly both are under-rated when they first came into the squad… I remembered, during Evra’s first few matches… The commentator bashed Evra for his disability to adapt… They claimed that it would be hard for Evra to fit in from Monaco because the style of play was really different… Now, it’s a different story…

Man U is right now at the top of the league… Just bear in mind that the title chase is still on and pride comes before fall…

This is hillarious… Because it doesn’t happen to you…

In hehe, me on January 11, 2008 at 5:15 pm

OK… I just post this video to make things that I want to say, clear… It’s undeniable that this video is funny… In fact, it’s hilarious… It’s not based solely on this video… I’m sure there are many other videos that can illustrate my point…

Pranks like this is always funny… But if we’re the one being pranked, we might have to think twice before saying it’s funny… So what I want to say is that it’s always funny as long as it doesn’t happen to us…

Nevertheless, let me finish my laugh… wahahahaha

Happy New Year!!!

In announcement, event on January 9, 2008 at 5:25 pm

I just want to say Happy Maal Hijrah to everyone… Last year had been really tough but still, I managed to scrape through it… Thanks for everyone, I wouldn’t make it here without your endless support…

I don’t know why this is here… Totally pointless…
Ooops… By the way, the picture at the top isn’t mine… But the picture above, it’s mine…

Life

In Poem on January 9, 2008 at 4:01 pm

Behind me is the door of ignorance,
But I doubt that I won’t come back.

Nonetheless, I started my journey,
Through the avenue called life.
To the known end,
But, and Which I don’t know when.

I stumbled upon the dead end of failure,
But I built a pathway of hope.
There’s a thousand miles of difficulties,
Fortunately, I know the shortcut called friendship.

I went through the highway of hatred,
Passed the toll plazas of revenge, envy and lies,
It seemed like I’m gonna stuck there,
Luckily I found the EXIT of forgiveness.

Guilty Pleasure

In me, real time on January 8, 2008 at 4:33 pm
Oops… it has been a long while I guess, since I last wrote anything in this blog… OK… most people regard guilty pleasure as something that is wrong but enjoyed so much by people… It’s addictive and by doing it one in a while, it is really satisfying… Hmm maybe ate night snack… Chocolate cookie… Movies… Smoking, maybe… Playing games… TV series… And the list goes on… Generally they are all harmful to our health, in one way or the other…

I stumbled upon this question in the Internet… Does guilty pleasure really exist? And why such mechanism exists in the first place? There’s not much use isn’t it… The small voice at the back of our head said don’t, while there is a bigger voice saying ‘never mind’, ‘just a li’l bit’, ‘this will be the last’…

For me, guilty pleasure acts as a limiting factor or an inhibitor… Put this into a scenario – for instance… A guy enjoys night snack and ate 3 pieces of cookie and consume a bottle of alcohol every night … Yes, it’s harmful… But without guilty pleasure, he might consume more cookie and more alcohol… What I’m just trying to say is… Everything has its purpose… Whether it’s realized or not… They are two different matters…

Wahaha… I don’t want to bore you guys any further…

And one last thing… My guilty pleasures are…Hmm nevermind…

When you say you can’t…

In Undefined on January 3, 2008 at 6:55 am

You actually choose not to…